what almosts kills you makes you stronger

2011-12-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

GAN. wth. this sucks. this is the feeling of heaven or hell

GAN

GAN.

2011-12-17T00:23:00.000+08:00

i have no more tears left to cry.

in HK!!!

2011-12-16T23:53:00.002+08:00

HELLO BLOGGER!

haha. hongkong is so nice! the food rocks!! :D any random shop serves superbly good food. just walk into any shop and order andy dish. it rocks. seriously!!! WHOOTS. i think i eat like siao alr. and i bought a fake polo ralph lauren shoe! LOL. amazing ttm. it looks like quite cool but its fake lol.

im so so so bored in the hotel room. sometimes i wonder if holiday trips overseas sort of worsens my life lol. now im just talking to random people on fb and msn lol.

i think i go eat some supper and i shall go sleep!

MORE NICE FOOD, HERE I COME!!! :D

TEHEE

prom night!

2011-12-13T22:16:00.004+08:00

hello.

prom night was just over. last. night. haha last night felt so long. i dint sleep for 24 hours! haha. it was quite cool, got to take pictures with loads of people. haha. camwhored like crazy! haha. but too bad, i wont upload the pictures i took. cos dowan upload haha. i think it was a very fulfilling night. i finally did things that i dint have the courage to do. but i still have one regret. haha. but not convenient to type here. haha. i guess it was a good thing and a bad thing also. shant think about it already.

i guess it was a final goodbye to the class and also to hwachong. because it will never be the same again after prom. everyone will just go their separate ways. i hope that it will somehow converge one day (; fingers crossed. i think it is in His plan that we all met and i guess this is the end of our meeting.

very soon, it will be army for the guys and uni apps for the girls. but nonetheless, i hope friends will remain friends. i guess its quite mushy and totally unexpected for someone like me to say it but yea. i am gonna make a list of people that i hope i will keep in touch for the long term.

hopefully, blogger still remains here after 5 years (; if not i will just have to copy all my posts and most importantly this post.

please dont get offended if your name is not here haha. anyways. no one reads this, so no one will get offended haha. (in no order of want/wish) haha. hope you get what i mean.

1. Leonard Lee

obviously right? haha. donno go through how much shit together... its really 那些年 for both of us (; i want to keep in touch with you and i hope we will. I think you are the only person that has on and off been in my display pic. haha. other people are just once nia. hahha.

2. Darren Lum

although we weren't that close in high school for the first few years, we get closer towards the end of the 6 years.. yea. and yea, i guess we share pretty much the same thinking and stuff and similarly have gone through many similar stuff hahah. but its kay, what doesn't kill you, doesn't make you stronger. hope we have become stronger (:

3. Lee Kah How

hey CARL. haha. started to call you this cos i lazy to call separately KAH- HOW. haha. i guess you are the guy that i met the earliest and i guess our friendship lasted through the 6 years. just that in between when you were in HP and i was in SMTP. yea. but the beginning and the end of the 6 years was spent with you (: hope to stay in touch with you!

4. Kheng Lin Chun

hello. you are the first person on the list that is not from high school leh! honoured anot! haha. i think you are really the friendliest guy in class HAHA. no temper(usually) and yea. just a very nice guy, unassuming and just helpful always lorh. but always spread rumours about me lol. bu okay lah, add some spice to life (no, this is not to encourage you to torture me with more rumours)

5. Eunice Tan

HAHA. first girl to appear on my list. hmmm. i donno about you but i have the feeling lah. i think you will be the rare people that will remain as my friends, in the long term. hahah. you're quite a nice person lorh. i guess you are just easy going and i think it's something im comfortable with... okay, hopefully, im right about this.

6. Marcus Thian

HELLO. smiley marcus haha. you are the guy that i think has totally no temper. i think i have never seen you pissed off before. haahh. you are a totally nice guy luh. i guess you helped me pull through some shitty stuff also. and thanks for that (; Oh, the only guy in FB that is listed as my brother. even my real brother also never list me sia. AHHAHA. okay, i hope we will remain in contact K!

7. Esther Poh

HARLO! i guess you are a great person and its just a joy to be around you luh. i guess you are a blessing to the people around you and yea, i hope we remain in contact. after all that has happened, i think i wont blame you or anything if we don't. but i sincerely hope we do. yerp.

yerp. thats the few people that i can think of now. when i can think of more people, i will update haha.

but for now, thats all man.

its kindof late, but i don feel like sleeping so i guess i will just youtube. HAHAHA

BYE BYE! (:

Post A levels is kindof sian now.

2011-12-04T00:54:00.002+08:00

hello

this is the first post after A levels. teehee. as evident, im still very happy that 6 years of mugging has finished and i can now finally take a break. yayness. i mean honestly, i havent had a good rest since sec1 lorh. all the nonsense about how IP guys slack off for years and all are seriously kindof quite baseless. me. i am the living example of non-slack IP guy. and i think there are many of us out there also.

today was okay okay. had some church stuff at botanic gardens before heading to have lunch with eunice lol. its so coincidental that i saw Kliven??? of all people lol. at i think Uniqlo. LOL. i was just looking at a jacket and he was like "whoa wear what for prom..." lol. kliven. btw, lunch was shiok. the ramen was superb. and then sent eunice off to her church at paya leba. then, go home! ahha. slacked and slacked. went for dinner and supper. getting fat again. -.-

sian-ness. needa get fit. hmm. next week needa hardcore train (: i think its just me but i think im getter fatter??? haiz. sian diao.

okay now quite late already. just nothing to do so come here to write a bit. anyways no one reads this anyway. lol. hello anyone reading this. haha. i bet you either came here by accident or just some random way. but haha. maybe this hello is to nobody? lol. but wadevers.

sleeping soon.

sleep, eat, play. SHIOK ARH!

A levels is finally over!!!

2011-11-29T23:47:00.002+08:00

hello (:

this is the happiest day of the two years in JC. HAHAHAH. A LEVELS IS OVER!!!!

YAY YAY YAY.

actually, i feel kind of okay okay and nothing much cos i was already partying before this last paper lol.

im quite happy and quite okay. hahah. i donno what i am feeling now.

HAHAH.

just shiok

kk shall update more frequently nowadays.

(;

tee hee..

BYEBEY (:

when you change the way you look at things, the things you look at, change.

2011-11-22T21:38:00.002+08:00

hello.

i just found that quote especially meaningful. i was gymming after the physics paper 3 at the JC old gym and i chanced upon this quote pasted on the wall. it suddenly struck me that that was the thing i needed so badly. i needed to change the way i look at things, and the things i look at will change.. it applies almost everywhere. im feeling kindof no feeling cos it nearing the end of A levels. and i donno how to feel.

actually, i kindof screwed my A levels. first, i cried after the physics paper 2. i made the stupidest mistake ever. i thought it was paper 3 and i dint study for planning question -.- so stupid. then luckily shyh horng was studying with me and he reminded me at like 11am. then i read a bit and dao already. in the end i screwed up my planning real badly. and i dint really finish... :/

then before physics paper 2 was actually a chemistry paper 3 screw up. i did the hard question cos i dint memorize the proteins and yea. couldnt do the easier question cos i would throw like 8 marks away... haiz. :/ bad luh.

then GP was kindof screwed also. math was kindof screwed. i screwed up alot of papers... :/

it really is quite bad.

and today marks the last day which i will write anything on an A level script... all the papers left are all shading boxes and yea. speed is the critical factor. imma gonna do like 1 thousand MCQs before going to the exam on next monday and tuesday.

for now, im just gonna slack... TEEHEE.

bye for now! :)

Graduation day!!

2011-10-22T00:28:00.001+08:00

Hello! It's the midnight of grad night! Hahah. I officially graduated from hwachong on 21 October 2011!!! After six whole long and fruitful years.... It's been an enjoyable 6 years and definitely memorable.... Now my last hurdle is A levels. I hope I can pass this last hurdle and finally enjoy the play and relaxation... Delayed gratification!!!! Hahahah. Grad day was wonderful but it dint end on such a high note... But it was okay. Couldn't expect too much. And I missed the singing of the 华中行 sian!!!!
K now let me dry my hair!!! And sleep and wake up tmr for GP!!! ahhaah.

Nights world!!

I have blogger on my phone! ^^

2011-10-12T07:38:00.001+08:00

Now that I have blogger on my phone... I can blog more now!!! Ahhahah. Last time, I had to use some screwed up app that is not very good lol. Now it's much better, the interface is much better lol.

Oh and why am I here at this weird hour? Lol. I suddenly got sore throat and I'm not going to school yet, cos I'm going to see the doctor lol. K bye!

#125

2011-07-06T21:43:00.002+08:00

its been a very very long day and i have mixed feeling about today...

started off my day quite okay. had a little catching up session with jingyao. realised that it was eons ago since i really talked to him. haha. stil remember we take the same bus home everyday. there is this 852 gang last time. me, bertrand, daniel and jingyao. normally, we take 74 if it comes first. then me and jingyao would alight at the sisters of the poor bus stop ^^ i stil remember the name. haha. then we would talk cock... haha. those were the days.

hmm. had lunch with zhengxiang and jingyao. also something that i havent done in a very very long time. :/ i feel so so disconnected from everyone. i seem to have kept myself in this shell that i have grown to like the loneliness. not a very good thing... nowadays, i don even bother to find people to do things with me anymore. its just so.. i dont know how to describe.. laborious? its like i have to think about how i portray myself and make sure i dont do things to offend of anything. i guess, its just signs that im just becoming more and more anti-social.

anti-social. i think it is in my nature to just ignore people and do things alone. i daresay that i feel that i was born to do things alone. although i may falter and cock up stuff, i would prefer to do things alone. i guess its also during these times that i push myself to the limit and emerge stronger... i remember the sec3 and sec4 days. i would just coop myself up in the study room after returning from school. (used to stay at boarding school) i would just rush out of the classroom at 1.30 sharp and just go back and study. and i think that is when i learnt the most cos i could really concentrate and just study.

i think this block test was really a wake up call for me. i guess complacency has once again crept into my life :( not a good thing. i guess its just all the doing okay for J1 that has gotten into my head. i think its really causing alot of things to screw up here and there. for years, i have been keeping the "i'm not good enough" mentality. and i think that has served me well. it made me more hardworking and more humble. i think i am going to revert back to that self after this block test. it has cost me too much to change my mentality. i guess i operate better with that mentality..

i also realised alot of stuff during this block test. like how much i am lagging behind. and all the mistakes that i made when i study. i really need to change my life if i am even thinking about doing okay for A levels. i guess it is really time to meng already. last six months.

just now i was just chatting with kah how and it suddenly dawned upon me that i have never taken a good rest since sec 2. after that it was just pow pow pow. sec3, sec4, j1. life has never been easy. it is not only physically draining, but it drains me mentally. last time, i could go on and think about a math question for an entire night. now.. staring at the question for another 10 mins could send me into dreamland. i need to find back my motivation and my impetus to do well. i guess it has just been eroded in time.

i realised that this year, i have been spending my time thinking stuff that i really shouldnt be thinking about. haha. beats me why i even think of them. when i clearly know that they are just out of my control and they are just not meant for me to think about. i remember how i just pondered about something for an entire afternoon and i would just stare at the paper. it has never happened in my life. it is a really horrible experience. you mind just keeps imagining and the thoughts just infect and bombard your mind. and when you finally realise that too much time has been wasted, your day has been wasted and you just look up and say "why"

i think i look really hardy and sturdy on the outside but deep down inside i am just this fragile person. words cut really deep and expressions say alot.

having said all of that. i have to set my mind on the biggest national exam since primary 6. A levels. i had never really thought it would come so fast but here it is. it is staring right in front my very eyes. i really have to make or break. i really have nothing to fall back on already. mess up A levels and i think my future life would be a really miserable one.

sounding so emo and stuff. but actually, its just called reflections. i remember writing journals during primary school. hahha. i wish someone would read the stuff i write and give me advice and all. but i guess im not entitled to this privilege now. when you grow up, people just assume that you can handle everything on your own. and you are left on your own. really envy those people who have confidents. haha. i wished i had one? haha.

tomorrow is thursday and i have lessons already. blocks just ended today and i have lessons tmr. and by the way, i am not doing I and I. Miss He can give me all her sarcasm and other nonsense but i don really want to do it. its just so... ARGH.

okay. i shall go slack around before turning in early for tmr.

change

2011-04-09T14:53:00.002+08:00

there is so many things i wanna change in my life.

hmm. first, there is the constant feeling of emptiness. donno how to describe. once in a while, will feel super empty. "kong xu". you know. just feels very detached from anything i do. almost like i don't feel myself anymore. (whoa. sound like some emo nemo kid.) and worst thing is, the frequency of occurrence is increasing these days. totally no reason whatsoever will just detach from everything. feel like an empty shell. and i don like the feeling. CHANGE!

second, i have this strong tendency to gravitate towards things that i know are no good for me. you know, its like i know it doesnt edify me in any manner but i just wanna put myself in that. whoa. i think arh. my mind really screwed up. x.x its like going to the gym, MINUS the benefits. you see, you go to the gym to break the muscle fibres so that when it heals, the body will overcompensate and over-repair the muscles. thus, the muscle grows in size and strength. But for me, i just break the muscle fibres and then never ever heals it. it just breaks. I WANT TO CHANGE MYSELF.

third, i have this innate propensity to write my feelings on my head. i really mean it. its like i cannot conceal my emotions at all. it all just spells out clearly on my head. its like walking around with a big banner stating how you feel. ARGH. I NEEDA CHANGE.

okay. basically, thats it. which actually means im quite screwed up. but i want and will change myself.

TATA.

may God help me to change.

nua

2011-03-27T19:21:00.002+08:00

heyyyy.

after sleeping less than 10 hours for the past 3 days, i think i'm really like some zombie nowww. my body feels like its coming apart anytime. like my limbs can just pluck off liddat. siaoooo. anyway. i was at east coast park the whole of last night lol. and before that i was at marina barrage. lol. seriously. i just played the whole day. lol.

yesterday night was so funny lol. started talking cock with darren about everything since sec 1. lol. how we attend training, and how we zham people. lol. seriously talk until i feel nostalgic again. zzz. i seriously needa get over what happened like 4 years ago. lol.

haha. im just dam tired now. donno why i am here again. maybe its like just bored and no one to talk to loh. then i just talk to the laptop screen.

waiting for my dinner to be readyyyyy. im like famished. ZZZ.

okay this post is just for the sake of killing time.

TEE HEEEEE.

blocks again.sian diao.

2011-03-13T23:21:00.003+08:00

hey.

i have no idea why I am here. maybe i'm just too bored and lonely. humans are social animals. means... they need company and they need to be in the presence of people. haha. why I am talking as if i was some social scientist. no idea too. i think things have pretty much returned to normal. i mean my mind is sort of set straight. i mean this year is just this super crucial year. A levels sort of determines the next few years of you life. sounds scary. seemed so distant to me when i was this innocent sec 1 kid back in high school.

hmmm. since im bored at like 11.24 on a sunday night. just let me write whats on my mind. oh. random. im listening to Taeyang's Only Look At Me. its a really nice song. k. back to writing. i think i really really miss high school. the difference between high school and college is just that few steps. literally. from my class bench, you just need to walk no more than 30 steps.

then you can see high school already. i sort of miss the times when i had to go to terraces everyday to watch the magnificent sunrise. i used to hate the glares of the sun. but now. haha. i sort of want to feel it again. nostalgic feeling. feels like to be high school again.

i think im just this super "cannot get over high school guy". but really. i would give anything to go back to high school days. i really want. to me, high school is like this totally different world. once you step into high school, its really like a different dimension for me. i really feel at home and i really feel that im alive and i want to do things. the overall feel is different. i really like the all guys environment. you can just speak your mind and you can afford to piss people off a bit. knowing that they will just spew out some F words and then they will just be laughing it off already. hehe. but i don mean that is the license to piss people off. but its so different with girls around rite? last time, you can afford to do things like joke around and go high everyday. but now, you try to do something, then people will give you this glare. i don exactly have the proper words to describe... but its just different.

so much for high school. i sort of like JC lesser. i mean its just like i've stepped into this different place. the mood seems different. the people you see also abit different. like either they super crazy high(usually J1s) or just like they dying after some imba tests. its sort of extreme thing.

at eighteen years of age, i sadly say that i have many regrets. regrets about alot of things. i guess my life would have been very much different if i had changed just the first 2 years in high school. first, i was some slack guy in NCC. and i was just this floating around guy. not really into anything. dint really take part in many things. dint really take everything to be serious. i was just floating and hovering around things. because of that, i had to catch up alot in sec3 and sec4. for one, i was this attitude problem guy in ncc. i was just this guy that you dont want to come close cuz he will just kaopei and explode at you for no apparent reason. i was sort of introverted. much more introverted in sec1 and sec2. i guess the one friend i had was kah how? and yah. pretty much it. i did many things with kahhow. like i would stay with kah how in class to polish boots and help him buy lunch before training. and we would go for training together. and i was doing projects with him. i remember this particular chinese project where we had to present some text to the class. he got scolded by huang lao shi for not putting enough effort. (when he was the most hardworking guy i ever knew, even till today) compared to desmond toh and all the other chao muggers, i think kah how just pwn-es flat. he takes part in almost everything. tell me which guy has 2 CCAs and is in council. BESIDES liki. i think no one ever did that. siao. i really respect kah how.

then sec 3 and sec4. i sort of distanced from kah how. and we just had occasional lunches and breaks together. and i was getting close to leonard. leonard also another crazy shit. everyday go gym. whole day carry his small kinokuniya plastic bag that contained his pe shirt and pants. and yah. he whole day split his pants and stuff. lol. occasionally will hear something split. then he will be like" WTF. my pants just split again." ahahhaha. jioke. i really miss those times when we just laugh like crazy. and just talk cock in lesson. talking cock during lessons in high school is just like the norm. everyone does that. cos most of the time, the teacher is just rambling about stuff they said like a million times. HAHAH. roaslind lee. another imba teacher. talk tock for 1 year. and i really never learn anything about english. she and he imba mindmaps that turn out to be a random pile of seaweed on the white board. hahhahahaa.

now arh. fast forward. 13 march 2011. this is the block test period again. i cant still remember block test 1 in J1. that was june. and alot of things were about to happen. alot of crazy things. alot of retarded things and alot brainless stuff i did. for one, the most retarded thing i did in J1 was to stay at class bench and mug everyday. seriously. i think my brain spoil. want to mug donno how to go library and mug isit? i think arh. i should have just gone to library and be some imba PRC scholar. but arh. only one good thing came out of muggin at class benches - i sort of got to know quite many people. but other than that, it just totally wasted my time. and yah another stupid thing. whole day stay in school looking for people to talk cock. -.- i think that one also dam dumb. why in the world would i do that. seriousLy? i think im like some imba retard. why dont i just freaking go home when i had nothing to do in school.. =.= i think i would have saved myself alot fan nao if i had just gone home to study in my room. for one, my room would have been more condusive. and i think its just retard syndrome acting up in me.

kay. this year arh. imma gonna try to study at more conducive places. RESOLUTION k. if there is nothing to do. just go home. don loiter in school like some loiter.

hmmmm. feels weird. after writing all these things down. i sort of feel better. not that i did not feel normal/okay before writing... but i just feel this sudden feeling that im letting alot of things out of my head. i think my head is really saturated with alot of unwanted stuff that i wanna clear. i want to click on the empty trash in my head but there is just no function available. SIANNA. alot of things to forget, alot of things to remember. but i just cannot remember the things i need to remember and cannot forget the things i want to forget.

I WANT TO CLEAR MY BRAIN OF RUBBISH.

actually thats rubbish. come to think of it.

=.=

okay.

me need to go sleep.

anyway there's no one reading either. why do i even bother to say bye?

LOL.

this is probably just for me to read next time.

okay.

to future me:

when i read this in future, i want to be a more carefree person, less burdened by the constant turmoils in life. hope i actually am when i read this in future.i guess i will read this in the night in future. im like some noctural person. so. GOOD NIGHT AFTER READING YOUR PAST ^^

everything happens for a reason

2011-01-03T22:27:00.003+08:00

harlo.

Hmm. Today is the 3rd day of the new year, 2011. SO. New year, therefore, new year resolutions. I think last year's resolutions were rather fail. I mean like I don't think I even successfully complete one of them. I mean like really really complete. SO. For this year's resolution, its gonna be on my desk so that I can see it every single day.

Resolution #1: Religion

I guess this word seemed very alien to me for a very long time. And it remained until recently. SO. I have been trying to tell myself that I should be more religious. I mean like doing things that I am supposed to do. For so many year, I have been just floating around rather aimlessly. Pardon me for the cliched expression, but I was a lost sheep. Just trotting around and eating my green green grass. Occasionally stepping onto some shit and asking myself why it happens but I never find the answers. SO. For this year, (I can't say I'm no longer this lost sheep... but...) I am going to try my utter best to find my direction in life. I know many great man have spend their entire lives searching for this certain "direction in life" and many have failed to. Being just me, I would say that I try. But try my best. I might seem like the last person in the world to be talking about religion. But do not judge the book by its cover. I am going to show you I'm going to be a changed man. Watch and see. (no matter how little the changed man, a changed man IS a changed man HEHE)

Resolution #2: Study Hard

I guess this is what every single J2 students strives to do. SO what does studying hard actually entail? Hmmm. Depends. I shan't talk about it here lest people start labeling me as some hardcore mugger. But I assure you that I am not a hardcore mugger and there are definitely people out there that are way more hardcore than me. Need me to say a few? I think I shouldn't.

Resolution #3: Be More Civilized

This is essentially the same as being less vulgar, less kaopei and alot of other bad things. So I decided to sum it up into being civilised. In a nutshell, being more civilized just means to be a nicer person and be less of a monster and scary crap to everyone. I think I have been pretty mean to alot of people last year. And yah. It kind of makes me feel bad. :/ I think they were not meant there for me to vent my anger on. Do not do unto others what you do not want others to do unto you. I guess I have to keep that in mind.

Resolution #4: Say What I Mean And Mean What I Say

I think I need to work on this part. I guess I have the bad reputation of saying something and then just changing my mind and doing something else later on. I firmly believe that this is bad attitude. I need to really say what I mean and mean what I say. That is the only way that trust can be gained. So, this is critical.

Thats pretty much all of my resolutions. I think keeping them short and sweet would be good :) hehe. And I guess the next step after writing them, would be to actually fulfill and complete them. So, in a bid to keep it in sight constantly, I am going to paste it somewhere around my room and maybe in my phone or something. So that I can actually constantly remind myself.

Thats all.

p.s school starts in a week's time :/

buh bye.

wrap up of 2010 ; "when one door closes, a million others open up"

2010-12-30T22:16:00.004+08:00

heyy.

So as we draw closer to the end of 2010, I think I wanna do a recount of how the past year has been for me. Both for memory sake and also for the fun of it. :) I think I'll organise in this manner. Okay. I think I'll just do chronological and then just add a little here and there. I think thats not organising anymore! HAHA. Okay but really I can't think of a nicer and more organised way.

[10.20pm]

First part of the year was still the honeymoon holiday from sec 4. So it was pretty much like some sort of partying time where there was honestly nothing to do. Firstly, it was JC next year and we had totally no idea on what was going to be covered. So, we had nothing to actually study or even get a glimpse of. This is unlike previous years where it was like homework for the next academic year. (which is what we are actually facing now :( ) Secondly, I guess I didn't have the mood to do anything either. For me, sec 4 really passed real quick and before I even knew it I had finished my final year high school exams. Honestly, if you flip back to my posts last year, it was pretty mundane and honestly, I dreaded sec 4 life due a whole panoply of reasons like IBP and some teachers whom alot of people didn't really like as well. So, I was pretty much escaping reality and just slacking my time away and trying to give myself a break from the really really hectic schedule that I had to endure through for a whole year. Then came this really horrible thing called the release of O level results. I vividly remember that I met Joash at AMKHub before we headed to school with yujie. (cos it was the chalet was on that day as well) I was super sad that I did not get an A larh. But the atmosphere was quite solemn at the hall that day when the vice principal addressed us. According to him, we were the worst performing batch Chinese High has every seen. :( And that is not something to be proud of. So, I left school to chalet with a heavy and sad heart. But it was also sad because Nicholas Pek and the other part Ds in the O level class could not go to HCJC with us. I was like telling myself that I must treasure the chalet with Nicholas Pek because I know I will not have much chances to see him next time. So, I think that chalet was very meaningful. And I remember that night where me, gordon and nicholas pek were talking in the room while lying down and closing our eyes. I could literally hear the misery in his voice when he talked about how he wished to go to HCJC with us.

So, shortly after chalet, school sort of started and yah. First thing I remember was the day that Project Sunshine went to Monday morning assembly to receive the CMPS thing. We got 3 I think and yah, Troy's group got 2nd and they were going to USA. Also quite sad for us. :( Then there was orientation. I got into OG 10. Honestly, I was quite in shock that I was not in the same OG as someone whom I am actually close to. None of the part Ds, none of the 4s4 people. So, I entered orientation with quite a sian feeling. I knew all the high school guys but was not close to them. So, orientation whizzed by and before we knew it, we were at campfire with our CTs. SO, another shock for me luh. NO part Ds and NO 4s4 people. I knew all the high school guys except one or 2 and the rest were pretty much alien to me. SO, in a span of less than 1 week, I was like in this super sian mode. -.- Then, school sort of picked up momemtum and we were soon going for lectures and attending tutorials.

Concurrently with orientation and all the CT stuff, I was also enrolling in SYFC. I attended the 10 week basic course and I sort of wanted to drop out after the second week. :( Honestly, I am not a person who can absorb information that I cannot find the logic behind. The lectures were pretty much of a transfer of information from the lecturer to us. And the people as SYFC weren't very friendly to start with. The recruiting office lady was extremely KP to me on our first meeting and the trainers were certainly much worse. My trainer sort of used the F word on me. I was utterly in shock that him, an old man in his later 50s, was actually using the word on me when that was actually SYFC, run by the RSAF and considered a very prestigious external CCA. I was totally not impressed by my experience. Then flew 2 sorties and then I was OOC-ed. I had to pay 500 bucks because I did not complete 6 sorties and it was something that I signed when I signed up. SO, I had to bear the brunt of my highly misinformed decision to join.

Back to the school part. There was alot of fun in the first few months of JC. Like going to lectures, having a CT bench and so many new people around you whom you have no idea are. SO. You had to go through Sec 1 again... To go to people and introduce yourself and then try to forge friendships with the people in your class. There was also CCA. I joined TKD even before the start of the CCA because I attended the trials when Bertram sent out a mass email. Then I sort of just went for training after training. I thought it was very fun at the start but something would change my mind totally. However, this period of fun and stuff did not last very long and in the twinkling of an eye, we were pulled back to earth and that we were in JC to study and not to have fun. It sort of came quite fast and the tutorials were piling quite quickly. Sleeptime was also diminishing with the passing months and they were spent doing tutorials or just preparing for tomorrow's lecture. It was honestly, tiring and back-breaking. A herculean task I would say. And it all whizzed by again... till the next big event of the year.

OH but before that was CSM, TKD comps and stuff. For CSM, it was FUN arh! HEHE. I think it was the most fun CSM I ever had. (actually I have only been to 1 because of performances and road marshalling duties.) It was a change. And I also remembered that I was sick on that day and I was comtemplating whether to come to school and I just woke up at 7 in the morning and got my dad to fetch me to school. After CSM, we had some class outing and yah I had training in the afternoon for TKD comps. TKD comps was dreadful. All the very long trainings were most of the time quite unproductive. Real training only took place when there was a coach with us and there were not enough coaches and we were pretty much left on our own when they attended to other people. SO. we were talking cock and just slacking away. In the end, my team got 3 runners up. I think that was quite a lousy score larh. I think that we were just too sleepy when it was our turn. The team event was in the afternoon and we were there since like 9. -,- and I was sleeping or talking crap to people before my event. SO i think that sort of made my performance dip alot alot.

Then the mega event I was refering to was blocks. Block tests were seriously a wake up call that I had to study much harder. I was slacking for the first 2 weeks and then I had to cramp information into my brain during the last 2 weeks. OKAY. I promised myself I would never do that again. Then it turned out quite okay for me. All I can say was that lady luck was with me and I never imagined that I would have done much better than my own expectations. I really should thank god. And it was the start of another tragedy as well. But that shall be covered later( maybe)

Then after blocks, we had part outing! I remembered we went to plaza singapura to watch movie with the part Ds. I remembered that only some people went. But nonetheless, it was fun and nice. Just the company will do. That was all that was enjoyable. I cant really remember the movie we watched?? haha. I remembered the block test period was world cup period. The finals was on a school day morning and I vaguely remember myself waking up at like 4 to watch a bit before I fell asleep again. I was almost late for school the next day and HAHA. I took 156 at 7 and I reached school at 7.30 sharp and I had time to stroll across the central plaza to put my bag down(when my class bench was at left wing still.) HAHA.

Okay. This is randam but the S65 class bench was moved to ZEN garden because of us. Im sorry seniors. But we sort of left alot magazines and PIP material around and because of that we failed the bench check 3 times. SO. we were deported to the ZEN garden. -.-

Life pretty much went back to the mugging and sleeping late kind of schedule until promos. It was another tumultuous time for myself. I had to juggle between so many things. Mugging and maintaining enough sleep in the midst of so many other problems and troubles that plagued me. I was like living in hell for a month or so. Everyday seemed to get worse and I was seriously gonna give up right before promos. Luckily I had people like Joash and Shyh Horng. I think they were like pillars of support for me during this time. Parts of me died in the span of months. I mean like everyday I would uncover new stuff about things. For example, XXX is going to be tested in promos and I haven't even started reading the notes before. And alot of more mindless things would come in to disturb and disrupt my flow of life. I guess it was seriously a miracle that I actually survived that period. WORST PART OF THE YEAR 2010 i would say. :(

After promos, I heaved a great sigh of relief as the sky was clear again. I finally got back my life. BUT NOT FOR LONG. There was two more letters that were gonna haunt me. PW. I guess this is the worst A level subject ever created for us. SERIOUSLY. It was all made up nonsense that we had no real interest in. It was like creating a hypothetical proposal and you are made to present as if you are really enthusiastic about it in order to score points and eventually an A. I guess it was a time for class bonding as well. I mean I think my class is just wonderful. We had like 3 straight days of class rehearsals in the high school library. I guess that was just the most beneficial thing out of PW. It made up bond and learn more about each other. I guess it was also the longest period of time i spent in the library. Even during sec 4 exams, i had never camped at library for so long. Finally, the PW presentation was over and I really felt like a bird that got released out of a cage and YES, the feeling was just YES.

Then after PW, I went Nepal for OCIP. OKAY. This was another fun part of 2010. I think it was the best of the school trips I've gone for. (I only attended BSC and HAHAH. of course lah. BSC paled badly in comparison ^^) I think it was the coolest thing ever. We had 7 days up in the mountains of Nepal and we had star gazing every night. HEHEH. The construction was back breaking but rewarding. We built the floor for the second floor and a table tennis table. ^^ We mixed cements with nothing but a shovel and more shovels. We transported sand, gravel and cement with nothing but very strong PVC bags. We ate nothing but SUPER NICE NEPALI FOOD cooked by professional hiking chefs. I SWEAR it was the BEST MAGGIE noodles I have ever eaten. And we had endless talk cock sessions! HAHA. FUN. And it was seriously, honestly and from the bottom of my heart, the best thing ever in 2010. Had so much fun, talked so much nonsense and made new friends. HEHE. I don't mind going back again. BUT with the same people! ^^ and i became a GGF to someone HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA.

Next was my korea trip. Also very fun and cool because I finally had a chance to go Korea to see how it was like. All the kpop and other k-dramas really made Korea a really hyped up place and I wanted to see for myself. SO i guess it was another rewarding experience for me. And most notably, i spent 100 bucks on SNSD albums in 5 minutes. I just took all the albums ever released and bought them all. HEHEHHEHEHEHE. They are still unopened at the moment. ^^

That was pretty much my year.

[11.13]

Not bad, i finished writing my stuff in a little under an hour. Actually, I jus returned from Orchard road from dinner and I just planted myself in front of the computer to write this. ^^

Hmm.

Let me conclude some stuff I learnt from 2010:

I think I needa learn to be able to 任命. I guess I whined too much during this year and I think I also need to be able to accept things more easily and then move on. I guess this applies in a lot of areas but one example would be in terms of academics. I was harping on one thing for too long and then I neglected the rest. Quite a bad thing to do. And next, I also needed to be less reactive. I remember a note kah how gave me when we became sec 3 councillors. He told me to be less reactive. I guess I didn't really take his advice and I think I finally understand what it means to be less reaactive. :/ took me 2 years to understand. I also think I also need to see things from a different perspective. I mean instead of seeing things as they are, I think I need to change my perspective. And I think I should try to see things from this perspective... "when one door closes, a million others open up" I guess this would have saved my from alot of unneeded misery and trouble. Honestly, I think the greatest take-away for this year is that.

I think I did a pretty nice summary for myself. ^^

Tomorrow, I shall set my resolutions for 2011. As for now, I guess I can still take a little slacking session. :)

see ya.

buh byeee. ^^

i've had enough

2010-12-24T00:57:00.002+08:00

harlo.

im not exactly in a very good mood. i just got some shitty crap from my parents. telling me that i am damned screwed up, have the wrong values and just getting out of hand.

so last time i always get scolding when i go out because i always tell them this time that i come back but i always delay and delay and delay. then okay. i think i was very asshole larh. cause its seriously bad to keep delaying and delaying. then today i go daniel kho's house for OCIP gathering. then i told them i will leave at 10. then at 10, i go help daniel bring up and pack up.. so sort of drag until 10.30. then i left at 10.30. so i sent them an sms telling them i just left. so in the end, i reached home at 11.45. then i stepped in the house, straight away tio kaopei. say i donno how to keep track of time, say i whole day go out until so late. then i just listen a bit then i go bathe. then after that round 2. talk this whole lot of crap to me.

first, say i no family value. say i dont treat the home like a home and don't treat them like parents. they say i just treat the home like a place to eat and sleep. nothing else. then i treat my parents like just the person who provide money for me. SO. essentially, say i am some no morals shit. say i donno what is yin shui si yuan. SO just because i stay out in school to study and come home late for dinner makes me this no morals bastard. OH. so i study hard in school and go home a little late for dinner (7.30), MEANS I AM NO FAMILY VALUE. MEANS I DONT TREAT THE HOME LIKE A HOME.

next, say i whole day go out and hang around. say, its not a good thing. they want me to stay home when i have nothing to do. i tell them, i go out is because there is nothing to do at home. they say i can read a book, listen to music, play guitar and study at home. no need to go out. SO now, i have nothing to do, i cannot go out OKAY. i can just stay home and face the walls in my room. i tell them i go out study. they say, you can just go stay home and study. SO. bottomline, i should stay home. they say going out to hanging out at the malls and talking around at macs and starbucks is not a good thing. HARLO. I DON HANG AROUND AT MALLS DOING NOTHING. IM FREAKING STUDYING OKAY. everytime think i am some slacker that always nothing better to do and go out to slack. FINE.

i tell them, im not doing any illegal things like becoming gangster or committing crimes and im not neglecting my studies when i go out. (PLEASE, I GO OUT TO MUG) then they say, you will never know when you get into trouble and doesnt mean you are okay in studies means you can go out and do whatever you want. SO. essentially, they tell me i should just stay home when i have nothing to do.

"if you have nothing to do, just stay home, NOT go out. if you are thinking like nothing to do then go out, THEN YOU ARE WRONG."

i honestly have nothing to say.

do i look like i go out every single damned day in the year??? please the only places that i frequent during curriculum time is the school and home. SO. for the one month of holidays, i CANNOT GO OUT. I NEEDA STAY HOME. for the whole year, i study non-stop, SO FOR THIS ONE MONTH OF HOLIDAYS, ALL I NEED TO DO IS JUST MUG MORE AND STAY HOME. NOTHING ELSE.

seriously, i give up already. they force me one. everything i do in their eyes in wrong and just not what they want me to be. they want me to be this good boy boy that comes home everyday after school and don hang around malls, don study outside, stay home as far as possible.

NOT LIKE IM SOME PROBLEM KID THAT COMMIT CRIMES OUTSIDE AND PARTICIPATE IN ILLEGAL ACTIVITIES.

you know what, BOTTOM LINE, i just no good in their eyes. totally fail as their son cos why? i go out everyday, don treat this home like a home. AND MOST OF ALL, I HAVE NOT FAMILY VALUES.

since im talking about my unhappiness, i'll say all at once. not long ago, they tell me to quit project sunshine. tell me. J2 will pass very quickly and you shouldn't mess around in j2. if can just quit TKD also. just focus on studying. tell me, nothing is more important than studying in j2. OKAY. i really have nothing to say. whatever larh. im already used to all this psycho-ing.

last time in sec 1, they tell me. why you so meng for NCC. its just another CCA. got extra trainings? don go larh. if can don't go, don't go. whatever for? its just another CCA. no need to spend so much effort and time. SO. they encourage me to do the bare minimum. no need to so meng. at one point, tell me just QUIT ncc. just go find another CCA. no need to so stress and go so many trainings.

last time in primary school, when i wanna join soccer because all my friend in soccer and i really liked playing soccer. THEN, they everyday come to my school. recess time come and check on me. make sure i don play soccer. i have to hide when i play soccer. pretend i never play soccer. please. primary 6 student already. parents come to school during recess time to check on me and make sure i never play soccer. I still can remember the sight of my dad's blue shirt appear from the canteen to the field in my primary school. my eyes almost popped out and i was damned scared. i was so scared that he would just screw me inside out and give me another good scolding.

you know what. everytime i found a new passion. my parents will just tell me to forget it, dont go for it, tell me to pon. primary school liddat, totally killed my passion. now. i see the soccer ball, im just reminded of how my parents hated me to play soccer and banned me from playing soccer. next, secondary school. tell me to pon how many times. luckily, i endured. i really am thankful i stayed on. i really am. and lucky i did not listen to them. honestly. everytime tell me to pon NCC. when NCC was my passion, they told me to quit.

last time i like this girl, tell me she is the epitome of a bad girl and student. tell me i should just forget about her and just forget it.

EVERYTIME i set my eyes on something, they tell me. QUIT. FORGET IT.

you know, my parents aren't the most encouraging sort. in fact, they are just demoralizing. i would not find it surprising that they even decide who i should hang out with in future. and start labelling my friends and telling me that they all are just bad and that you should just hang out with them less often.

you know why i never had this close relationship with them? because they just didn't give me the feeling that they were supportive of me and that they were behind me. EVERYTIME when i go to them, all i get? just some demoralising shit. now they complain that i am not treating the home like a home. YOU WANNA KNOW WHY? CAUSE IT REALLY ISNT? you tell me what do we do? eat, watch tv. how often do you ask me about stuff? how often do you care about the things that happen in my life? how much do they even know about me? SO YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT. i think you guys are really failing as parents. I promise myself and swear, i will not do the things that you did to me to my kids.

i swear, i will be the opposite kind from them. i will be the person that offers advice and support when my kids need them because i know how helpless you will feel when the world comes crashing down on you and you have no one to turn to. and you cannot start to care and concern about one person. it must start from young. it obviously didn't start for me. and i will make sure i will start from young for my kids. i want to be the parent that truly understands my kid. i will make sure i spend time with them every night since young so that they will know me more and i will know them more. i was never given the chance and privilege to do so with my parents.

i think that was enough of ranting for today.

sorry guys for making you read such a sad entry of my life.

i just had no other way to relieve the agony and anger.

on a happier note,

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

another mundane day

2010-12-22T23:02:00.003+08:00

harlo.

seems real long ever since people actually tagged on that tagboard. now it is less lifeless. HAHA. ^^ thanks peeps for reading.

today was rather screwed up. :X first i overslept. i was supposed to have tkd training. and i woke up at like 11 plus. seriously screwed. my alarm arh. go on strike.. dowan to ring. screwed up. then shyh horng sms me to study with him.. at starbucks @ SCHOOL. siao sia. i take forever to go there.... but never mind larh. he also going from home. then school is like the mid point. i think today we were quite productive? hahah. OH. we saw daniel kho as well. ^^ daniel, i dint forget you! hahah.

okay that was pretty much my day. it was uber short.

i happened to look at the date on my laptop and i realised we are like 9 days from 2011?! omg larh. seriously. time whizzes by and before we even know it... its like J2. then studying will start to kick in and late nights spent mugging will be the norm again. sigh. the thought of these just totally demoralises me. BUT. cannot sian. whenever i feel dam sian or like just throwing everything down... i will subconsciously have this voice eching "endure" in my head. maybe its just too many push-ups that i had gone through last time and the feeling hasn't really faded that much. BUT i really thank that experience. for it has taught me the most important lesson till now. "ENDURE" everytime im stuck in some shitty situation, this voice will just surface and it will keep me goingg... every single time.... I hope this can sustain me for next year.. come on.. endure just one more year and all the mugging will pay off handsomely into a certificate.

hmmm. yesterday, kenji talk to me about the vulgarities part and how it failed and how he also wanted to stop using vulgarities. THEN. we came up with this super brilliant idea. of substituting the vulgarities with something else. we mean a totally random word. although this is not really the best way to stop cursing but its the most effective method around.. SO. i have to start thinking of a word to replace the vulgarities. HMMM. how about you guys give me a word to use. K? tell me if you can.

i am feeling hungry now. LOOK AT THE TIME MAN. 11.20pm. siao lah. eat now sure grow fatter. BUT I CANT STAND IT. IM GONNA EAT NOW. and yah tmr is the OCIP nepal november gathering. hope everything goes well and THANK YOU DANIEL for volunteering your place. and its not gonna be free. i'll make everyone pay you! OKAY! okay okay i cant stand it anymore. I GO EAT LE.

BUH BYE! :]

after a super super long long time

2010-12-20T22:52:00.004+08:00

hi blog.

long time no see. if dust could collect onto you, i think i would even be able to find you... aw. i feel so bad for neglecting my blog. sorry dude. paiseh.

hmm. the year 2010 is ending and hmmm. i heard on 987 that they were doing some sort of a review of the year... and people will call in and say how 2010 has changed their lives and the most memorable thing of the year... so... i shall do the same here. although my blog is not 987fm. hahah.

okay. first... hmm. let me summarise 2010 in a phrase.

"Things changed, people have changed, and so have I"

hmmm. honestly, this year was a year of "firsts". my first time in so many years having girls in my class (the last time was primary 6 gosh...) my first time going out so late and getting scolded. (i stayed out till 1 plus and got scolded like crap) my first time doing so many fun stuff in school and my first time really feeling something in these 5 years (high school was like a dream... especially sec 4... i had no idea how fast sec 4 passed... all the studying day in day out...)

so that sort of sums up the "firsts" part. and also... looking back at my new year resolutions...

let me review them here:

1.study ahead for block tests

i think i dint really study ahead. i was pretty much slacking away in the first half and really started in the second half of the month long holiday. so i think i'll consider that a fail.

2.don screw up block tests

as for screwing up block tests... i think i did okay luhh. dint really screw up.. except econs. my weakest subject..

3.mug harder for languages

okay. this is irrelevant. HAHHA. cos i don have languages this year. it is GP. lawl. and even though it's english. it is only one language. so... HHEHE. okay i think i dint really mug for GP. i tried to read newspaper everyday for the first part. but towards the end, i just stopped. okay i will need to pick up momentum again... so. this only half succeed.

4.don sleep in lessons

i think i dint really sleep in lessons. except during econs once... zhi ler was like nudging me throughout the lesson. and more interestingly, i was sitting directly in front of Miss NG. LAWL.

5.don get into any trouble as far as possible

okay. this one is debatable. okay trouble trouble.. as in the school kind and the rules kind... i dint really. but as for parental... WHOA. spamm.. everytime go out then just tio.... then there is the other kind of trouble... so that kind is really i deserve it. i just screw up that part. seriously. wrong time. wrong place. seriously. nothing to say luh. and as for me... i think that will just be history. and yarh. life-changing experience.

6.exercise on a regular basis

this one confirm fail. i dint really exercise throughout the year. hols were spent mugging and normal school week were spent talking cock and slacking. so yarh. the only place that i can consider exercising is GYM. and that i have been quite consistent.

7.don be so kaopei

yarh. i think i was not kaopei this year. at least i dont get people coming up to me and say" you are seriously dam kaopei" even if i get it this year, it was all like joking kind. so i think i succeeded. YAY.

8.don be so vulgar

this one also confirm fail. i just blurt all the crap out of me. of course at certain instances, it is quite uncontrollable. the feeling just consumes you like a hungry monster. and you will just run out of vocabulary to express yourself and you will resort to using such lowly words to express your bursting anger.

and okay. i think thats it. when the year closes, i will do a more detailed one. i think i will spend my last day of 2010 writing a more detailed one. YAY.

thats all.

thx for reading.

blogging homework!

2010-08-16T10:29:00.001+08:00

haha. this is amazing. we are actually writing blogs as some kind of homework. hmm... okayz. i think its almost time... so... the bell just rang... zzz.

BYE! i just screwed math test!

disappointment

2010-07-07T20:17:00.000+08:00

sometimes, its just like that.

you shouldnt feel disappointed, you have no reason to feel disappointed but you are.

its just beyond my comprehension.

maybe i was wrong. maybe i should wake up.

after a very long hiatus

2010-07-03T17:37:00.002+08:00

hi people.

it was very very very long since i last signed into blogger and posted anything on this very dead blog. haha. hmm i was looking through my previous blog posts and i found out that many things have changed every since that post. that was somewhere in february. okay i shall try my best to recount what happened since february till now

hmmm. the earliest thing that i can remember now is TKD inter JC comps. okay. honestly i don like poomsae one bit. sorry i just cant bring myself to like something that is just so repetitive and boring. and honestly i think it is just really not practical to do moves to fight your "imaginary opponent" and i guess i dint train as hard as i would. this is the first time that i admitted that i dint train as hard as i could. those that know me since high school, you guys should know that im not a quitter kind of person and i try my best in almost everything i do, except those that i really dread. im so sorry that poomsae is one of them.

moving on... there was CSM. haha. you know something? every year in high school, this is THE day that all the high school guys await. seriously. we wait 364 days for this one day of the year. BECAUSE there are people of the opposite gender. seriously. that was what we totally felt. (or at least that was how my group of close friends felt). every year we would go to CSM being dam jealous of the JC guys having girls amidst them. haha. that was just so childish. i think that kind of thinking is really just pure childish. haha. yongle if you are reading this, do you remember last year CSM we were walking around aimlessly along the terraces where the JC students were seated. hahha. that one one farny experience. and this time CSM was a little different. me and yongle were escaping from the NPCC cadets. haha. farnie crap. we hid in the 4o1'09 classroom. lol. then the NPCC from ny keep looking at a door opening by itself! hahah. lol. in the end we sneaked to the canteen and ate. lol. after CSM, 10s65 went out! haha. or i mean half of 10s65 went out. we went to eat and watch IP MAN 2. haha. i remember only zhiler, esther, yijie, jiayu and benjamin watched the movie. the other guys pooled? yah. haha. after that i rushed back school for training. sian rite?

okay after CSM there wasn't really much things that happened. except one fine day when i reached home, there was a letter waiting for me from SYFC. hmm. familiar acronym. i had a bad feeling when i saw that letter. and i was rite. the letter said that "in view of your son's lack of commitment, we have decided to discontinue his flying here at SYFC. You are to return to SYFC $537.90 as per the Letter of Undertaking signed by you when he applied to join SYFC." okay. after reading this, it was like WHOOOLA. screwed. sure tio scolded like crap from my dad. yes. i was rite. i was screwed like hell. honestly, SYFC totally killed the pilot in me. seriously, do you know how impractical was the kind of "training" they had. they made you memorise a whole book of steps to take when you fly. means even before stepping into the plane, you will have to do some drills and checklist. before turning on the engine. before turning off the engine and everything else. GUESS WHAT! the manual that i am supposed to remember? it is found in the cabin of the aircraft. WOW. this is like super intelligent man. seriously, you make your trainees memorise a whole book of drills when that book can be found in the aircraft. honestly, that is like telling you to memorize the entire data booklet for chemistry when you have it in the exam. and the rationale? so that you don refer. honestly, the guys that came up with these kind of training? kudos to you guys. you guys sure deserve triple promotion. seriously. i salute you guys. hopefully your trainees actually meet the objective of your kind of training.

okay. so much so that. now i am out of syfc. honestly, i dint really learn much from there. i just learnt how an organisation as prestigious as SYFC can actually come up with such training styles. if anyone from SYFC happens to read this, please do not get offended, i am not condemning anybody or any organisation or even flying. honestly i once like flying. thanks to my experience with SYFC, im sorry. the flames of passion have been extinguished forever.

im sorry if i sounded offensive. but i do not mean to target this at anyone. this is just purely my point of view and my opinion and i will not be held responsible if this gets taken out of context and used against me. i say again that this is my point of view and this may not be what the truth is. readers, please form your own opinions because i am not trying to badmouth anybody and sway you to my point of view. this is purely my OPINION.

hmmm. after getting kicked out of SYFC what happened? haha. i guess life pretty much carried on like normal. (as if life was any different when i was in SYFC)

hmm. next on the list, BLOCKS. haha. this 6 letters can send shivers down the spine of any jc student. haha. high school people, you will hate this eventually. but i am not going to give you atrocious advice like" don study cos you will still fail" PEOPLE, don even listen to this kind of nonsense. just try your best to study and you will most likely pass. if you don, its most prolly because the paper is extremely hard or you are not paying attention in class. for me, i think im guilty of not studying enough for blocks. honestly, i was quite slack. and now i regret. although its a 4 day break, yar.... blocks stil pretty much stick to the back of my head. all i can say is that i learnt that i should study harder and don let time just slip by during the first 2 weeks and start cramming during the last 2. it seriously does not work. and for me, studying in large groups is not exceptionally productive.... i prefer studying with people who are really studying. then they can like discuss stuff with you and everyone can clear their doubts and yah. a conducive environment to study.

okay.. i don have anything else to blog about. maybe i shall blog again some other time.

buh bye.

RANDOM: last day of blocks was coincidentally NCC day. HAPPY belated birthday NCC!

why.

2010-04-02T22:32:00.002+08:00

tell me why.

you tell me why.

why.

why has it always got to be like this.

why has it always got to end like this.

why has it always got to remain like this.

why.

i'm sick of it.

i'm seriously sick of it.

the last time it was like this.

now again.

why.

everytime i put my mind to it, it turns out like this.

why.

there are just so many whys floating in my head.

i think this is the last time im trying it.

after this.

its over.

its seriously over.

over.

i just cant take it anymore.

the crap i go through.

it just breaks me.

111st post

2010-03-28T00:38:00.003+08:00

hi.

havent really been active for a long long time. i think this site totally died. yah.

and today... i mean yesterday (since i am writting this after 12) i flew for the first time. cool lah. but i got scolded like crap cos i donno alot of things. =.= i just went there and first thing never bring flying license. WTS. get scolding. neh memorize checks--> scolding. sian lah. i totally feel like phasing out immediately. then after the flight just felt dam goggy and my head was feeling dam weird. my instructor did some stunts to see if i had airsick. wts. the was like... "now you are experiencing 1G, ... now 1.5G... now 2G. NOW... ZERO G." siao one sia. crazy

then i slacked earth hour away at blox home. haha. ate and ate.

now im here. just doing a short post before i go and sleep.

today i was looking at my phone like 1 thousand times. then pressing "create message" another 1 thousand times and typing something 1 thousand times. only to press "cancel + don save draft" for another 1 thousand times. !!! wts.

i totally donno what the heck i am doing. INDECISIVE is the word. want to do but don dare. want to do but donno what to do if it screws up. this feeling sucks. SUCKS. SUCKS.

Before the Worst - The Script

It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day that you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain

So explain to me, How it came to this
Let's take it back to the night that we kissed
It was Dublin city on a Friday night
With vodkas and coke, I was (...)

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this?

But everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on
Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

Before the worst
Before we met
Before our hearts decided it's time to love again
Before today
Before too long
Let's try and take it back before it all went wrong

There was a time that we'd stay up all night
Best friends, yeah, talking til the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to lose but so much to gain

Are you hearing me? Cz I don't wanna miss
That you would drift on memory bliss
It was Grafter street, on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you were mine for life

We were thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?

But everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on
Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

Before the worst
Before we met
Before our hearts decided it's time to love again
Before today
Before too long
Let's try and take it back before it all went wrong

....

this is exactly what i am feeling now.

wat the nonsense man.

=.=

byeee.

long hiatus

2010-03-16T17:09:00.008+08:00

hihi.

this site is DEAD. lol. i havent posted in like a super long time. let me think, the last time was something about orientation or something liddat. and that was like way long time ago. hmm. just to set the perspective right about things, TERM 1 is OVER!

omgawd. this is dam scary can. we barely attended 2 or 3 weeks of lectures and tutorials and term 1 is over. we just had 2 tests. math test and GP test. GP test was quite hard. i think i dint do very well. i think i din express myself clearly enough. i have a hunch that i would get a C or B. yah. that bad x.x

and holidays aint holidays. haha. havent i got used to this after being in hci for 4 years. ever since sec 1, holidays are just a masquerade. they are fake! nothing such as holidays anymore. they are just telling students : hey student now you need not wake up early to come to school for lessons okay? but you NEED to do REVISION and HOMEWORK... hmm.. this sounds so contradictary. holiday but homework? haha. oxymoron. Holiday Homwork.

okay enough of that nonsense. lets see what i have for the next few days. hmm. there is a rehearsal for award winners at 7.30 in the morning. i heard the organising secretary is mr. *d*ie **u... so this should explain the screwed timings lah. plus the teacher in charge for the award winners is mr. *a*a* whoa. imba win. okay. for those that donno who these people are, try to guess. haha. mr. *a*a * likes to send people to bathe and go home while mr. *d*ie **u likes to be a sissy and reject everything. yah.

then after the rehearsal, i am supposed to have 4s4 gathering. YAY. 4S4! haha. i think we gonna cycle or something. but then i have chem AA meeting at somewhere. hmm. donno leh. if the chem AA meeting is early i can go. but the class gathering at 3pm at bedok. maybe can go darren choo's house? haha. okay.

then thursday i have nothing on yet. i hope to keep it that way. so that i can finish my homework. sianzor.

then friday, i think i have og outing. hmmm. donno lah. not very confirmed. so.... see how it goes.

for today, i was quite fun. i went for simulation again! whoo ho. COOL crapz. haha. and i got my student pilot license... haha. COOL. lol. then the instructor is dam funny. how i wish my flying instructor is him. then it would be funny crap. haha.

okay i just realised that i havent been going gym so frequently ever since i went for tkd trainings. hhmmm. i want to go gym on fridays.... the rugby people there... i want go train with them lehx. how??? i think i am getting weaker ... die liao.

okay i think this post is really no content. just nonsense after nonsense. i don even know what i am writing now.

okay okay. i know what liao. just to share a dam nice song.

taeyang's WEDDING DRESS :

hmm. i think most people won understand korean.. so ...

yah.

Taeyang - Wedding Dress

I would argue
Then you would cry
As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger
My heartaches behind these shadows
My face brightens up as I see your smile
I worry that you might notice my feelings
And I get scared that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath
Then I bite my lips
Then I pray that she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
Then I wished a misfortune upon you
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone
Every night, I would look back and think
If I already knew the results
Then I close my eyes
Then I dream an endless dream
Then I pray she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

By all means, be happy with him
So I can move on
Please erase me out of your heart
Although I tried my best but, no oh~

I’ve been living the lies for too long
Yet, she would look at me and smile.

i think the lyrics are just damned meaningful. like it just speaks what is going through my mind. my mind is like the EPL table, with a few teams vying for top spot. its just that the teams aint fighting for top spot in my mind... rather i am arranging who is the top spot....

haha. that was random and totally out of context. i bet no one understands it. haha.

bye byeeee.

a perfect end to orientation 2010

2010-02-07T16:01:00.002+08:00

hi.

ad infinitum has already officially ended. it ended off with a bang on friday with campfire and alot of crazy fun. orientation was fun for me. dunno if that is the case for everyone else. but i think it is the most fun orientation i have ever had. sec 1 orientation seemed lacklustre in every way when juxtaposed with ad infinitum.

orientation did end off in a bang. but a different bang for me. i got punched by some unknown apollo girl and have this digusting scar on my nose now. -.- sian like crap. first she go throw paint on me then she go punch me. wtfh. i mean we can relax right, no need to meng lah. plus i spent like half an hour spitting out yellow paint from my mouth. disgusting shit. okay enought about this highly violent apollo girl.

i think our faculty dance is quite cool lah. although i haven really learnt the whole thing yet. but yeah. i think it looks quite cool. we only had 2 dance practices. there was a third one but i skipped that cos i was at RI with marcus, bertrand and joash. we were taking the ESIP scholarship test. it was freakking hard i swear.

during campfire, we went crazy lah. we started the chu chu train thing. then we danced, sang, cheered. sodache. haha. the atmostphere was crazy lah. we party-ed as if there was no tomorrow. haha. i was dancing with chongyee for awhile, then i was dancing with leonard for a while. then i also lead the train for a while. haha. i heard some alumni broke up the train. haha. okay luh, in all honesty, it is quite dangerous. then i saw shuliang. he couldnt recognise me. he asked me where i was from and i said part A. then he gave the o.O. then im sorry lah it has been so long and i totally forgot already. haha. neh mind lah. i think part A was 5 years ago already. so....

it rained so the campfire was held in the hall for a while. the flag representation and class performance was held in the hall. i seriously think hanwei is dam funny. "you're so hot you make my proteins denature" LOL lah. artemix won the best flag. (darren's class) apollo won the best class performance. then we shifted to the central plaza for the lighting of the campfire. it was dam impressive. the ad infinitum logo was also lighted. cool lah. four faculty heads lighted the four individual fires to symbolise the four faculties. then they lit the rope which finally ignited the main fire. this is dam symbolic. it just tells us to remember that we may be from 4 different faculties, but we are stil one hwachong.

oh yea. today was the giving out of vouchers to the needy families in clementi. project sunshine! haha. so fun. go there stil have free food. haha. and we met mr. leo. he is Dr. Hon's mentor. haha. so cool. lol. he is a biologist while Dr. Hon, a physicist, is his mentor. lol. someone said mr. leo looks younger... LOL. and he replied "he takes things too seriously" haha.

tomorrow is the start of lectures. but it is stil the temporary timetable. sian. i think tmr only have 2 lectures and then we end school at 12 plus. then i have to go somewhere. haix.

okay. hope tomorrow i wont be late. better wake up early to catch the early 852 bus.

bye bye.

last day of OG + 1st day of CT

2010-02-03T21:18:00.003+08:00

hi.

i shall talk about yesterday. i dint have time to talk about yesterday because we ended quite late and i reached home about 10 plus. and i got scolded for getting home late. -.- then, had to settle some stuff, bathe and then sleep.

last day of OG:
i think quite cool lah. we had our 2nd session of wet games. lol. this aint wet games cos most of it aint wet. only the last station is a wet game.

1st game: scissors paper stone + flour = screwed game
the objective is to blow ping pong balls over to the file on the other side of the file. the side with less ping pong balls win. the balls are put on flour in the 2 side plastic file. winner gets to blow the ping pong balls over and flour at the loser. honestly i donno why i am so bad at this game. i can win people in scissors paper stone but cannot blow the balls over. sian. first time i blow nothing moved. WTH. then i was like -.- shit. then everyone was laughing thier asses off. -.- then second time i went i won again but then i blew one ball over. sian. we were winning for quite a while. cos xuan ler is a winner. he go then always win and always blow like alot of balls over. he played 3 games in a row i think. until he lost. LOL. but then the councillors dowan to end the game lor. then we started to lose. then last match was xuan ler and yi chao. they played like 3 times against each other already. then xuan ler lost. if we won this game then we might have a chance to blow the balls over and hope for a draw. but then we lost lor. sian. haha. i played with jing yao and he pwn-ed me. sian.

2nd game: table soccer!
i think this is the best game already. my favourite. soccer! yay. each OG given 6 floorball sticks and 2 players must hold onto the floorball stick. so you are sort of restricted in your motion. so your partner must move quickly together. and you cannot steal ball from the people in the other sector. if not you tio time out. which is dam sad. -.- lol. first game i dint play. nigel was dam pwn. he scored like 2 goals. then ben tang was our keeper and wendell was the guy with him holding the same stick. not bad our defence. we let in 2 goals. then second game i played. i was pairing with nigel. i think we 2 are dam gay lah. we both like totally pwn the keepers. lol. we play with them like crap. pass here pass there. then block like shit. haha. he scored another goal while i scored one. sian lah. i shot another 2 shots. one curl then they say not in. sian -.- then another one i go ram the cone down. the cone fly all the way to the end of the corridor. cos i was dam pissed liao. then in the end not counted. SIAN. the score was 4-2 at the end of 2 session. then third session i played with xian ning as striker again. then we only touched the ball once. the ball was with junyi like the whole game. wendell and ben tang got bullied lah. sian. junyi school team sia. wlao. sian in the end we ended in a draw. 4-4. sian. btw, we played with alex's group. LOL.

3rd game: water and freeze
this game quite retarded. i feel dam primary one playing this game. so one OG go catch another OG. then the people that tio caught must squat down and wait for your own team to unfreeze you by throwing a water bomb at you. get to whack your own team mates. LOL. during the briefin, they doing demo how to unfreeze people then yangcheng go pour water one me. -.- then everyone laugh again. sian. become some joker twice a day. sian lah. i tio caught like twice. sian. yangcheng caught me LOL. the took 1minute 50 secs to catch all of us and we could unfreeze people cos there were limited water bombs. then we were like. SHIT. we need to catch them all in less than that. then we meng liao. everyone was like who need shoe i lend you mine. whoa siao. imba team spirit. then i was the catcher. siao we dam pwn. run like shit fast. then pwn them in 1minute 45 seconds. SIAO. dam close lah. PWN diao. one girl got injuried cos somebody whacked into her abdomen. siao. must be dam pain lah.

4th game: giant volleyball
this game is basically volleyball lor. then the ball dam big. so objective is to make the opponent cannot catch the ball and the ball touch the ground. liddat means you win one point. if you hit the ball out of bounds, you lose one point. this game supposedly we have alot of advantage cos we have a nanyang volleyball player. i think her name is cheryl. haha. sorry if it is wrong. so she strategise lor. then we just follow lah. then we were not bad lah. first round 8-9. only trailing by 1 point. the game is accumulative so just need one more point in the next round to draw level. then the next team was like all girls. then they got bullied. sian. 18-9 SIAO. 9 points difference. siao siao must send imba team liao. so i and xuanler played. siao. xuanler pro lah. do all the funny serves. then they just like fumbled and self own. LOL. then he dam meng and dam ass also. the ball in their area also go zam down. LOL. we got like 8 points in a row. then we 1 point behind liao. 19-18. then last ball. so we either lose or draw. then xuanler PWN their ass lah. so draw. YAY. btw, we played with paxton and lihui's group. haha. best outcome is draw. haha. both teams get points.

5th game: slippery slope.
this is the most sianzoe game. objective is to send as many girl guy pairs up the slippery slope. then we just got into pairs then we lost like shit lah. 1-0. stupid sia. only one pair from the opponent team got up then they win liao. sianzor. then we dam fail also not even one pair. HAHA. lol. i was the second last pair. then i was like i gonna get the one point. then in the end i climb too fast then i dao my partner too much then she slide down. SIAN. the people at the top mass spam soap at the girl's side. evil people. so lost this game.

then had to go and bathe. bathed at the volleyball court toilet. haha. then we bought some drinks at the canteen. had to borrow money form ben tang who had to borrow money from nigel cos nigel din let the council help safe keep his valuables. then we ponned a lot of the dance. dance abit here and there. then we cheer abit also. then we took a batch picture in the hall. i go be joker lor. haha go find table and stand up there. LOL. chongyee was with me. i bet we all dam prominent in the photo. LOL 2 retards standing at the back on chairs LOL. i can totally imagine the photo man. LOL

then we had OG bonding time. this time we ordered pizza. some girls went to buy from somewhere. i checked my class and was dam sian diao so i slept at the canteen. then they came back and we went to terraces for dinner. we stayed there and talk alot of crap. then waited for more people to come and join us. when everyone was here it was dam late liao and the place was turning dark. then, we sang birthday song for the birthday girl and she ate one piece of pizza and zao-ed. then it was turning dark and we went to clock tower. ate pizza, talked alot crap and then after dinner had this crazy idea to play captains ball at the oei tiong ham hall. siao. they think no camera. crazy. i lucky lah i was nominated for captain so i camped at the stone tablet there and then the camera cannot capture me. aaron suddenly realised there was a camera and we stopped.

then we went to play captains ball at the mini street soccer court. LOL. play in the dark. then eryn sprained her ankle lah. LOL. okay not lol cos liddat very bad. i mean walao. sprain ankle sia. dam pain can. then she bought a can of h2o to put on her ankle. cos cold mah. then we ended with a camwhoring session and aaron was niao-ing eryn. LOL. funny like crap. then we walked to college side to go home. then aaron read out which faculty our class was in. at this point in time, i was even more sian. i shant say why. srsly. wtfh. then we go home lor.

first day of CT:
started off in a dam sian way. had some dam long PE talk. totally dozed off. then we had break plus briefing at audi then split to faculty meeting. then artemis is at audi. YAY. no need to move. then the artemis meeting a bit lame. look like cult. they walk down the aisle with a candle and mask. then blow all the candles out at the stage at the same time. LOL. i stil don get the meaning. then we had some briefing on what the faculty committee does. then we had rehearsal for morning assembly. then was break. i went to high school canteen again. then we went back to jc for senior meet junior. played some lame game and was cca orientation. walked around and watch performances and then left after the tkd performance. then we GYM-ed. part gym session. then was part soccer. YAY. then we went home. and i have been typing this for one hour. sian.

hope tmr is more interesting than this paragraph. honestly.

i think i go sleep le. better remember to bring your change of clothes and bathing stuff. if not gg.

bye bye.
cya around.

zi-highed.

2010-02-01T21:34:00.002+08:00

hi.

today i was zi-highing like nobody's business. haha. during the first cheer, everyone still sian sian then i meng shout liao. siao. then everyone stare at me. walao. at least they got shout later on. so not so bad. see i fufilled my promise of not holding back and making sure i cheered. i think this is like going back to the ncc days where you shout like there is no tmr. i think the feeling is back. just that without the part spirit. haha. i hope we can do this kind of part thingy sometime to re-live the atmosphere.

i think today the games quite fun. i shall run through the games one by one.

1st game: soap hockey.
i think this is quite a creative game. haha. they used 2 benches to make a wall on 4 tables. then we play hockey with a soap. then they also made the surface wet to allow the soap to slide like there is no tmr. objective is of course to score as mant points. sadly we lost this challenge. haha. i think the tables screwed. the opponents table was lower than ours. so when they zam the soap the soap will fly one. then very hard to defend and that was why we ended up letting in so many goals and losing the challenge ultimately.

2nd game: egg, chicken, eagle
this game is like scissors, paper, stone lor. haha. eagle eat the chicken, chicken eat the egg, egg eat the eagle. i know the last one don make sense but this game is liddat. haha. both teams stand in a row facing each other. so one team will do one of the above and then see who can eat who. then must go run and touch the people in the opponent team. then those get caught just like get out. then see who win lor. haha. i think no one can touch me lor. i just ham like shit. haha. this game quite like no brainer at first but it tests your reaction time and sprinting haha. cool game.

3rd game: sliding around a canteen bench playing scissors, paper, stone.
lol. this is the most lame game. like just the wet version of scissors paper stone lol. objective is to slide across to the other side. play scissors paper stone. if you win you move forward, if you lose you go out. then other player from the loser gets to challenge the winner. so liddat slide around. but can cheat. like slide dam fast so that you need to win less people to win. so sad. we lost this game. when you slide across successfully, you get one point. then the final score was like 5-3. me, nigel and xuanler scored a point each i think. yah. but we lost lah.

4th game: whacking water bomb game.
i think this is quite a cool game lah. just that i was banned from scoring. for some relatively retarded reason. both teams stand one person to stand on the other side of the basketball court. then people from your team try to throw the water bomb to the guy. each water bomb successfully whacked by your team's batter is one point. then you can also pass the bomb from hoop to hoop. but there are 2 people inside each hoop. then you try to pass the water bomb on while the opponent tries to stop you. i was pwn-ing. i scored i think 4 points in a row. but then some retard came to me and tell me i banned and i cannot score anymore. cos he say i liddat no teamwork and become a 2 men game. i was like wtfh, you have brains, your rules never say cannot throw from the furthest hoop. just because i too pro in your game then you ban me. then in the end we lost like 7-8. wtfh. if i play for another 2 minutes, i swear the score like at least 10-8. wtfh. that guy srsly retard. nothing to say about him. just retard lah.

5th game: retrieving a ping pong ball from a large tube with many holes by filling it with water.
wa seh. we totally pwn this one. we managed to get it out in like 5 minutes. gay sia. then we just like spam water. then just don care if it is leaking. just not too badly can liao. those people at the bottom dam suay. just endure a bit. then we like pwn lah. we dint compete with the other team we competed with time instead. haha.

then after the 5 games, we went for sodache. i danced like a chicken lah can. totally donno how to dance. plus the moves dam hard to do it quickly one. haha. then cheer abit and we were dismissed.

we got OG outing again! this time we went to serene centre for macs instead of pizza. haha. played abit of truth or dare and talk abit of cock before going home. haha. walked with wendell and sheryl to the bus stop outside the adam road church. haha. then bused home.

i think orientation dam fun lah. it is like totally pwn the sec1 orientation. tmr gonna be the slide game. that one is like totally get completely wet down to the inside one. better remember to bring extra clothes. wonder who will i pair with. haha.

okay i think i go sleep le.

bye bye.
ORIENTATION FTW.
saranghae OG10!

orientation !

2010-01-31T16:34:00.002+08:00

hi.

orientation rocks ! i think this is just the perfect way to start JC life. with all the games, cheers and 'high' atmosphere, it is just awesome. i am in OG 10 btw. my OGLs are dam nice. eryn and aaron. eryn happens to be the council chairperson. i think they are the best OGLs i can ask for seriously. aaron and eryn are just so friendly and just one word luh. NICE.

i think i am quite fail. last time, i was told that i come across as a very scary and unfriendly person. then i told myself that i would change my image that i portray. then now at orientation i stil get the same feedback. do i look that scary? like really? maybe cos i never smile rite? i have no idea. maybe i am too used to being in a very solemn and no-nonsense atmosphere. for example muster parade, fall in, drills.... okay i know that ncc should not be used as an excuse but honestly i think this is the reason. i think in sec1 i was not so dao and so unfriendly looking. sian. seriously.

okay. for those people that are reading this and knows how to rememdy this problem of mine. please. i appeal to you to teach me how to look less scary and unfriendly. i really wonder if smiling can make you look less unfriendly. i think not many people have seen me smile before. maybe the ncc people? i mean those that i normally hand out with. maybe some 4s4 people? usually in class, i would just totally focus on the lesson and don talk. my attention does leave the teacher and then i would just sit there and listen. i think after like 4 years liddat, i think my expression is pretty much expressionless. for those that know me, i think that you all know that i am not as scary as many people think.

okay enough of me being scary and unfriendly. now for the orientation day2.

day2:

okay many first times for me. first, this is the first time i took bus to school with someone i know. then it is also the first time i go to school with a girl. haha. lol. met lydia at the bus stop. then 852 came straight away. i was half sleeping during the trip. i guess she was sms-ing somebody. i was like who would be in the mood to sms so early in the morning man. then at coro that stop. there was an empty seat in front of me and her. then i gestured her to sit. then she dowan. ask me to sit instead. then i just gestured again. then she just sat down. then immediately after she sat down i said "btw next stop is school already". then she looked at me and gave me the look and said "i knew it lah." haha. i had no intentions for that to happen but coincidentally it was the next stop and it was gentlemently to give up a seat to a girl. before more people say that hci guys are ungentlemenly.

then we alighted and she found her cedar friends. i intended to go buy breakfast and go audi. but i saw marcus and kenneth at the pull up bar. so i joined them. did like 25 pull ups. haha. not one go luh. like 4 tries. then darren also came and did some pull ups. he left before me. after a while, i just bought my breakfast and went to audi. i pangseh-ed marcus and kenneth. sorry. then sat with the other part ds. again, we gave up our seats. i think we are very weird. we go sit on the seats when we come in rite, then when the seats are filled then we stand up and let the NY girls sit. i was like cant we jsut sit on the floor like at the start then no need to give up our seats rite? haha. i think this is going to happen again on monday.

then it was some talk. i cant even remember what it was about. i was busy talking crap to chongyee and weicher. haha. so fun lor. we talk about crap every morning. haha. then i went to buy a PE shirt for the first time in 5 years. i only bought my PE shirt in SEC1. haha. i bought medium first. then i dint know that the logo behind was stil the 90 logo. so i went to change to L cos L has the hwachong logo instead. personally i don like the 90 logo. looks quite disgusting. i prefer to have my school name behind. oh yea before that, chongyee and I went to canteen to grab a drink. i think i saw eryn at the council table. lol. then we sneaked back to the audi cos we were late. haha. then we continued talking cock and played itouch. lol. next was school tour. oh yea i think the first part was dr. hon's discussion with us. haha. just checked the timetable.

we went to the kuo chuan building and looked at the musuem. i saw the ancient ncc badge. haha. then we sat in a circle at the first level of the LT block. then we played some games. lol. dint know how to play. then we went to the hall for the disciplinary talk. which i totally was like half sleeping. then we went to high school for purple plate. then i changed at the src toilet. it was like super cramp with alot of people changing inside. yongle lah. say go src. haha. joking lah. then we played games!

first game was the catching game. one person goes to the second level and then the people at the bottom are to hold a aluminium tray filled with water and try to catch the stress balls thrown down. our group lucky man. i think the NY girl is like super pro. she throw rite. perma same spot one. then we pwn the other OG. the other was jiahan's OG. haha.

second game was the netball court game. two people have to face away and hold hands with a ballon in between them and walk through some obstacle and throw a red thing into the pail. haha. we lost to another OG. sian rite. i did it once with xuanler and we got to the last obstacle then the ballon drop. then we must go back. so we let another pair do it. sian lose this one.

third game was as hall. two guys had to hold hands and carry one girl. siao. dam hard can. more meng than gym. seriously. then the girls had to snatch the caps of the other OG. siao. after that my whole forearm just tired like crap. SIAO. we won this game. better man. if not i pain for nothing. i paired with xuan ler and aston once. haha. this game epic can!

then fourth game was frisbee plus this special rule that the other team can throw a ball at you. i got hit like twice. PISSED OFF man. tio hit twice. plus whack my specs off. dam pissed srsly. in the end still lose. sian like crap. plus the sun dam hot. totally no mood to play anything.

fifth game i sat out. i was poison ball. then select one person to be the kind or something. then the opponent will try to kill the king. LOL. i let ben tang play instead. i never regret letting ben tang play. he killed the opponent's king. YAY. BEN TANG FTW! then we went back to the hall for SODACHE.

i danced with sheryl / cheryl. im so sorry i donno which is which. i only remember cos you were the first perosn i know. i think i am a horrible dancer. i'll make sure i go learn. haha.

then we have songs session and a cheer session. then we ended. then we had OG dinner. i went to gym with bert and joash. did gym for a while. saw some part Cs (now part Ds) then sort of intro them to free weights. haha. then i chionged to JC side. luckily i saw bradley then he told me that they were at clock tower.

we played like 2 games. which failed terribly. then we played truth or dare. lucky neh tio me.

then i gave a little school tour about SALT. then bused home.

okay i think Orientation was dam fun lah. but then sadly it is going to end on tuesday cos wednesday we will have our CT. then OG = history. sian. okay. means tmr i not gonna hold back like in Sec1 orientation liao. gonna zi-high like shit. i swear.

okay i think i gonna go do some gym.

bye bye.
tmr i gonna make a fool of myself when i zi-high.

orientation is tmr !

2010-01-27T17:22:00.003+08:00

hi.

these few days have been rather sluggish. quite sian these few days. have been glued to the computer screen. either watching youtube or listening to snsd. hopefully, all these changes when orientation starts. i hope that a slew of activities would keep me busy. quite weird i think. when i have all the time in the world to do anything i want and nothing in encumber me in my activities, i am cooped up at home. rotting away. sometimes i wish that there was something like homework. when the amount of free time abates, then i will feel like having more free time. i think it is human nature to think that the pasture on the other side is always greener and you will also long for what you dont have. and when you have it, you most probably wont treasure it.

orientation is quite weird. there are like 40 orientation groups. wat the hell luh. means, every one in your class is in a different OG and everyone in the part is most probably in a different OG. sian sian sian. i thought that in orientation, i could be in same group as some people i know. maybe some ncc people or the 4s4 people. so sian not even one. but never mind lah. according to leonard, my OGL aaron kho is a very nice guy. this is the only consolation amidst all these unfavourable events.

and one thing. SNSD has release the MV for the new hit Oh!

this song is quite addictive i must say. they look dam pretty in their cheerleading outfits. happy watching.

i gonna make it repeat on my ipod once i get my laptop back to sync with my ipod. now i think the song on repeat is stil genie. lol.

i think i going to exercise. either swim or something. haha. tmr is orientation man !

hope it is nice. and hope my shirt fits.

byebye.

first day of JC

2010-01-18T17:22:00.003+08:00

hi.

although i have been ranting about how sian today is going to be... i think it turned out quite well. i think i just screwed my english diagnostic test. i have a bad feeling about how i did. there were 5 questions to choose from and i chose the one that i was more acquainted with -- Discuss the view that children always suffer when both parents work. i think that this question is really lame. but oh wells, i think that this is the one that i think i would do better in. i faltered at the start because i was unsure if this is an expository or and argumentative. so i was deciding between having a one sided answer or a two sided answer. then i stared up at the projector. (they did not have enough question paper and we had to share or look at the projector as the question paper was flashed) it wrote something like "...in order to score well, you should write in argumentative form..." then i was like "wts. should have just read the instructions first.

here was what i wrote:

-what the roles of the parents are:
-->moral upbringing of the children during their formative years
-->teaching them to differentiate right from wrong
-->integral part of the child's growing up as without these education the child might become a delinquent kid

-what would happen if both the parents are missing during this crucial stage of their child's life
-->might be misled into thinking that morally-incorrect actions are actually acceptable

EFFECT: the kid will suffer in the short term as his moral compass would not be calibrated the right way. in the long term, it might become his character and cause him to do bad things in future that might lead to him being jailed. thus, suffering as he did not have the proper moral upbringing during his childhood.

Counter-Argument 1: only happens when parents are absent for along time and parents did not find out and rectify the problem in time.

Counter: when both parents are working, they will have ver little time for the kid. and the time spent with the kid only decreases as the years pass by as the child will have to attend school and be kept busy with his own schedule. thus, impossible to make up for lost time. with little time available, they may be oblivious to the kid's behaviour and actions. thus, they may not correct the child in time.

Counter Argument 2: in the past, there were many kids that grew up with minimal guidance from their parents and they turned out well as well.

Counter: chances of that happening is becoming less and less likely as there is the media to pollute the minds of the kids. the likelihood of them picking up bad habits in ever increasing. thus, it is risky that children are left on their own without their parents.

okay. i think i dint know what i was writing also. i think i wrote totally out of context. screwed lah.

then we ate at high school cantenn. i stil prefer the high school canteen. i find the college canteen a bit ex and no so nice. then we attended math lesson. math lesson was quite mundance and normal. then at 11.45, the teacher's computer suddenly died and he had no backup computer. o he cant continue teaching. thus, he released us early. he gave a lame reaoon lsson off ealy..."i release you guys earlier not because my computer no battery but because you all put up a good show here" LOL lah.

then went to complete the math worksheet with some part Ds and then we went to gym while some went home. after gym, marcus, joash, yangcheng and yongle went to macs with me to eat lunch. talked cock for a while before taking 74 with joash home. changed bus at amk hub and reached home around 5? ya.

then later gonna have early dinner cos my brother having tuition at home. then after that i need to lock myself in the study room so that i don disturb him in tuition. =.= i am supposed to do the project sunshine file thingy. like sort out the maps and update them... but i just realised that the copy of maps and everything is in my hard disk and my hard disk happens to be with kenji who is copying windows 7 for me. sian. means i will have to wait until tomorrow before i can update the maps and stuff..

i think i go sleep awhile. haha.

signing off.
bye bye

we inch closer to the dreaded day

2010-01-17T17:10:00.002+08:00

hi.

this post sounds so sad. in fact, i stil am bothered by my higher chinese results. call me stubborn or call me crying over spilt milk but i still don feel anywhere better. i hope that this will just start going away once real school starts. although official school starts tomorrow. but this is just the starter for the year. i think not even the starter. if you count orientation as the starter, then this is like prelude to the starter. doesnt make much sense anyway.

okay. here... let me show you my pathetic schedule for the next 2 weeks. okay i not going to show. i write. actually even lazy to upload. how lazy man.

8.15-8.30: Principal's address.
8.30-10.00: English diagnostic TEST
10.00-11.00: BREAK
11.00-12.00: MATH LESSON

okay. it actually sounds quite slack. but i just get put off by the english diagnostic test. you know after sec3 and sec4, the word test inevitably gets associated with loads of cramming, muggings and stress and everything bad. having almost 6 test per subject each year is quite a torture. it actually totals to having over 30 test each year. not forgetting major exams. so tests are quite scary. and if any JC senior were to be reading this, they would be laughin at this post because they all say block test is 10 times more hell. okay i hope it is not.. :x

actually, i look forward to math lesson IF it is not a test. i think mrs khoo really made me like math lessons alot. the way she teaches is just so conducive for learning. all the funny stuff, random jokes... etc. i think it was the best 2 years of math lesson i got from any teacher. hopefully, it is going to be some refresher course and just a litmus test of how much we have cracked our brains during the break.

okay. i think i should start preparing for tmr. like setting my alarm clock. i havent set it at 6 oclock for a very long time. and like looking for my school badge. probably lost it somewhere on my table and also my pencil case. sort of dumped it somewhere in the shelf after the last exam. hopefully tmr is a good start to this year.

orh. and i just realised that Tell Me Your Wish (Genie) has been on repeat on my ipod for dam long. saranghae snsd!

byebye.

a messy start to the year

2010-01-15T21:52:00.004+08:00

hi.

from reading my title to this post, you can roughly guess that i did not get an A for my O levels higher chinese. i think this is very screwed. before the release of the O levels higher chinese results, chen fu xiao zhang gave a very long speech. i think it was around like 20 minutes. he started talking at around 2 pm and he ended at like 2.20. and his speech definitely did not give me a single bit of assurance. he spoke in a very solemn voice, as if the whole school is gonna close down. he said that our MSG for this year is 2.8 and the worst ever in HCI / CHS history was 2.3. SO... we are the worst batch in the entire history. this feeling sucks. if feels as if you let down so many seniors before you. all the glory that you basked in for so long suddenly just evaporates. you can almost hear them blaming you for not working harder to maintain our school standards.

hey wake up man. HCI lost to RJ in A levels already. are we still gonna lose to them in higher chinese. we are no different from RIJ now. our chinese is not giving us anymore competitive edge. face it man. all the board directors and principals. if you stil think that HCI students have a competitive edge because we have god-like chinese standards, you should just wake up to the harsh reality that that is history. in my humble opinion, we are nothing different from any other school already. face IT. we are just bannanas okay. yellow skin but white on the inside. if you walk around school, 99% of the time, you hear people conversing in english. mandarin? very rare. maybe during chinese lessons. of course, there are also the bunch of people that converse in mandarin. but they are so so rare.

i honestly think that my chinese is total crap. writing compos and answering comprehension questions. answering comprehension only requires you to copy the correct segment of the passage into the blank. honestly, those that took higher chinese can vouch for this. writing compos. memorising the ending and starting phrases? memorises some imba phrases that we forget the moment we step out of the exam hall? honestly, we should just wake up. not that i am saying everyone is like that but the majority of the people are like that.

i hope this doesnt get shown to any HCI staff or teacher. in the event that this is going to be used, i am making myself very clear that i am WRITING THIS IN MY OWN OPINION. I don want to get into any trouble with anybody from the school.

DISCLAIMER: IF YOU FIND THIS OFFENSIVE OR IF YOU DO NOT SEE EYE TO EYE WITH MY VIEWS, PLEASE CLICK THE BUTTON THAT RESEMBLES 'X' AT THE TOP OF YOUR BROWSER. I WILL NOT AND SHALL NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE IF YOU GET INTO ANY TROUBLE WITH ANYBODY SHOULD THIS BE USED.

for those people that don agree with me, simply stop reading.

enough of the ranting.

i am currently stuck in this dilemma. i donno whether to take H1 Chinese in JC or to leave my score as it is. BUT i don want to see a B in my A level results. i would hell take chinese if they allow me to choose the better score. if they say that i have to take the most current, then i will have to think very hard. i am prepared to take extra lessons for chinese. even if it means that i stay back for 2 hours on some days in the hot afternoon. my motivation would be the freaking B on m freaking O level results slip.

signing off.
byebye.

[edit]

i was snooping around youtube and i found this.

LOL:

this guy went to do a CS parady of the song 十年 by eason chan.

my silent scream

2010-01-10T23:39:00.003+08:00

hi.

tmr is a dreadful day. how i wish there was a way to fast-forward till 2pm tmr. so that i can get my O levels results back. i am not saying this because i am super confident. in fact, it is the direct opposite. i really have no confidence or whatsoever of my higher chinese. firstly, i screwed my comprehension passages and cloze passage. secondly, i have a feeling that i dint write enough for my compositions. all in all, i just don have a good feeling about the paper after i completed it. i really hope that my results are not worst than a B. i really hope so.

on msn, joash was telling me that my results have already been printed and there is no point worrying. yes. i know that. but i just cant stop myself from worrying. i am so nervious that i don think that i can get to sleep. you know that kind of feeling, whereby you wanna scream to release all the tension, anxiety and fear in me. this kindof feelings suck. hell they suck. the only reason that i am blogging is that i hope to pen these uneasiness down. and hopefully, i can get abit of relief and antsiness out of me.

this is just torture. according to marcus, he says that the results are going to be released in Kah Kee Hall. he says some iSpark students heard from teacher and leaked the info. i can totally imagiane tomorrow's scene.

my hearts beats faster and faster as i enter the school gate. dragging my feet, i inch towards kah kee hall. the driveway up to clock tower seems longer and much steeper than usual. passing block D and block C, i finally reach the kah kee hall. a sea of beige greet me as i survey the surroundings, looking for familiar faces. after a little mingling around, a small stream of beige started entering the kah kee hall. i follow the crowd, as if an ant following the herd of ants, into the kah kee hall. the atmosphere gets more and more tense as i venture nearer and nearer to the stage. a vast panolpy of expressions fill the hall. those of nervousness and those of confident. it would seem an eternity before the results are given out.

my writing skills clearly needs alot of polishing as you can see. i am not a person that can express myself very well with words. i think i do better with actions. actually, i think i suck at that too. that is the problem with being introvert. you tend to keep things to yourself. bottling up those bitter moments till they overflow. and that is the time that you reach your breaking point.

i think my thoughts are very disjointed now. one moment i am thinking of the o level results and another, my mind goes blank. then the cycle repeats itself. HELL is wrong with me.

i think writing does little to relieve my anxiety.

so i think i should just end here before i start going crazy and write about random stuff.

bye bye.
i really hope that tomorrow's results would be favourable. PLEASE. pretty please.

100th post ; 2010 ; recount of 2009

2010-01-01T22:42:00.003+08:00

hi.

happy new year! haha. so co-incidental man. the first post of 2010 is my blog's 100th post. come to think of it, i am quite a fail blogger. cos my first post was somewhere around august of 2008. and i am only at 100th post at 01.01.2010. haha.

i just finished watching gong xin ji, it is some hong kong serial. i think it is quite nice. we serial marathon from around 5 plus till 10. haha. after watching the finale of the serial, i went to bathe and here i am. i went to my uncle's house this afternoon. i woke up at 11 plus today cos we party-ed until 3 plus today in the morning.. haha.

puttin aside academics, i think this year was a fantastic year. in this post, i shall do a lot of recounting. the time now is around 10.45 and i am prepared to write this till around 11 plus. i hope to post this by the end of today.

before i do a recount on 2009, i shall talk about how i spent my last few hours of 2009. actually, i celebrate new year almost the same way every year. not like some people that actually think of a panolpy of ways to spend the new year. okay... actually, my family would gather at my dad's friend's house. we would then play games, talk cock and just party lah basically. this year was no different. very co-incidentally, my dad's friend's son's birthday is on the 31st december. so every year, we celebrate his birthday then we usher in the new year. but i think he very sad, his birthday celebration very short because not long after, it is the new year and his birthday is over. i know everyone's birthday is the same length. 24hours. the... but it feels very short because of the transition from this year to the next. his name is AXEL by the way. cool name rite. haha. after observing for 2 years in a row, we realise that his birthday present is my christmas present. so we receive the same thing but i receive it one week earlier. haha. this is the so called routine that i go through every 31 december. i think it has been liddat since i was what, primary 5??? too long ago already. haha.

okay, now i shall start to recount 2009. it is not going to be in any specific order( like chronological or something). it is just going to be what that comes to mind.

1. Hwa Chong Institution National Cadet Corps
so funny rite, the first thing that comes to mind is ncc. even after i pass out like so long already. i don mean physically pass out like faint but we just hand over or ORD as we call it. i think it was a totally special journey that i have been through. and this year july, we finally passed out as part Ds. i could stil remember telling myself that it is stil going to be like a long long time before i pass out in january. but you know, time and tide waits for no one. sui4 yue4 bu4 liu3 ren3. i think this is really true. i know that this little paragraph cannot cover the entire segment of 2009 in ncc. i shall just touch on ord. and i will recount on NCC next time. i promise i will dedicate one post on it. i think i already did after i ORD. but never mind. haiz. wonderin how is hcincc doing now? better than our batch? i hope so.

2. Integrated Boarding Programme
i think it was a meaningful one year in IBP but i think i had enough of IBP after one year. i finally shifted out of boarding school in june. quite a relief actually. honestly, i dint feel quite right when i am staying at boarding school for 5 days a week and then spending a meagre 2 days at home. you know, it just doesn't feel right. i shall not point out the bad points of IBP (there are numerous man, trust me) i hope that it would be a pleasant memory when i read this post again when i grow up. stayed with yangcheng and darren for 1 whole year. imagine that. getting to see half naked yangcheng crawl out of his bed. then he will say when he wake up, he will smell my deoderant. okay.... my bad, i spray too much in the morning. first half of the year, i roomed with yangcheng, darren and derrick. then after the december holidays, we had a little shuffle in the arrangement and we changed rooms. the room that we stayed in the first half of the year,(i mean second half of 2008 but first half of my one year stay at boarding school) was the first room that you can see when you enter F1 (floor one). this room is just beside the toilet and the study room. quite zai actually. but unfortunately, we changed rooms with jun yi and weilun, we took the room near the pantry and the toilet. it is the only other 4 bed-er room on F1. haha. will always remember the toilet. the toilet is like imba. cos it STINKS. not as bad as beijing but stil STINKS. there was also the once-in-two-weeks lesson by Mr. David Sin, ex-student from Chinese High. i think it is called entrepreneurial leadership programme or something. vague memories of that because i dint speak at this programme. not even once, except the session after i left IBP. not that this course is bad... put it this way, i don know how to appreciate the programme. the food at boarding school is unforgettable, you get to eat till you are bloated there. and on some days, the food is quite nice : ) breakfast sometimes have spaghetti then dinner i remember wednesday is western food. which is the day that we chiong back after training so that we don miss the nice western food. stil remember gordon, yangcheng, darren and i would walk the hill together and have dinner together. laundry is also quite unforgettable, the plastic bag and the slip of carbon paper that you write on... haha. blue tea is the shop inside boarding school and i think i frequent the shop. then you know, sometimes just wander there but i don buy anything but to see something.. what the hell am i saying. pui. okay thats it for IBP, if i carry on anymore, i cant finish the rest.

3. CSE
i think this is the most sad part of 2009. honestly, i wanted 2009 to be over the first day i stepped into the class. i just had the feeling that i would not like this year and this year would be very hectic. i just dint like the feeling. i just wanted it to end quickly so as to end this chapter of high school. i think i just dint like the idea of CSE? okay. i hope no staff of our school is reading this but i just think that CSE was a complete failure that totally failed to meet it's aims. the mentor system was just not holistic enough as they wanted. they wanted a real mentor-mentee relationship. i think i fall on the other end of the spectrum. mine was a totally failure. i saw my mentor what, once a term? i think i only saw her thrice in 2009. and i think 4 times in 2008. not that i am proud or what but i just don like this system. in my humble opinions, i find it both superficial and an idealistic programme that failed terribly. okay. enough on that. however, i think the CSE way of learning did benefit me. it made me a tiny bit more independent. but however, i darenot say that i am an independent learner as the programme hoped it's students to be. i was quite against this idea of letting go completely and let the students go find their notes on their own. i think as sec 4s, we stil should be taught the traditional way. say that i am rigid or stubborn or resisting change but i feel that the traditional way is the way to go. blame it on my stubborn genes. i apologize if you see this way. adding to that, we constantly get niao-ed by the so called "mainstream" classes. i think the person that coined this term is totally a person lacking in EQ. i think the person did not think carefully and missed the fact that it is just putting a glass ceiling on these "mainstream" classes and also lowering their self-esteem. you know the meaning of mainstream means you are just another tom dick or harry. means you are nothing and putting it in a not-so-nice way, is saying you are lower that this group of people called CSE. i am totally against the idea of this kind of naming. the person who coined this is just plain insensitive to the feelings of those in the so called "mainstream" classes. NON-CSE is just as insensitive to them. cant you think of a better name? perhaps IP classes. i noe some teachers use this term. but i hope everyone does, because i don like the non-cse and mainsteam naming style.

4. project sunshine
i think this is a uber meaningful thing that i have done. this project brought us to projectsday grand finals and CMPS. although, i don really like entering SL projects in competition because it totally degrades the people you are helping. screw a particular person for that. i shall comment more on project sunshine in detail next time. i shall just do a quick review. it just taught me to be less demanding and be happy with what i have. zhi zu is the descriptor to use. i hope that this project will continue. maybe remove project with something else? like spreading sunshine instead. it sounds less academic. maybe???

okays... i think i pretty much covered the important milestones of 2009. i think when i read this post 20 years from now, it would more or less help me remember how 2009 was like. that is unless blogger stil exists 20 years from now. i hope that 2010 would be a better year for everyone. come on people, put what happened in 2009 behind us and learn from our mistakes and don't repeat them. tell yourself that you will have a happy year and you will have. remember, it all starts with a thought.

okay.. i think i should be sleeping.

HAPPY NEW YEAR !

bye bye

christmas !

2009-12-28T18:51:00.004+08:00

hi.

a late merry christmas ! i know it is 28 december but nonetheless, it is stil never too late to say merry christmas. i think this christmas was one of the coolest christmas in many years. first time i received something so ex. okay for those rich kids out there with much more expensive stuff... this is peanuts to you guys. but i received a iPod Touch. next question would be how big? okay i received the smallest one. 8gb. okay. start laughing man.

some pics of my iPod:

this was before it was opened.... haha. YAY.

my iPod looks just as if it was meant to be in my hands.....

yup. what i got for christmas: the Ipod complete set ( wall charger, screen protector, earphones, cable)

thats all for christmas.

now, for SYFC. i went for the interview last week. quite lame man the interview. the interviewer was like talking at the coffee shop and chatting to a friend. it was quite crap actually... but then tomorrow is the medical check up. according to the person in charge, it is quite easy to fail the medical check up. but then basil says that the medical is like almost confirm pass one. donno who to believe man. haiz. later they made up do some weird stuff. then i fail. zzz. hope for all the best tmr. hope i don die while the medical checkup. according to some people, they put you through a G force test. zzz. scary manx.

okay. so much for that. yesterday i went to school to take photos for OSA. =.= haha. leonard and i met in school for that. haha. rather stupid. and we took alot of random shots. like me licking the horse. i mean the 天下之马. haha. i shall upload the photos when i have the time. alternatively, you can check out facebook. leonards album titled: photos that dint quite make it for OSA.

haha.

okay. i wanna go watch 想握你的手. it is quite a nice show.

byebye

cya around

holidays are just about ending...

2009-12-20T13:06:00.002+08:00

hi.

actually, i think this holidays have been rather meaningful. i think we should all learn how to recount. i thinking recounting (and reflections also) are an integral and important part of life. without recouting, we cannot actually come to senses about the things that we have done or missed. so here goes...

so.. first part of my holidays were spent mugging for O lvl higher chinese. i was literally mugging chinese and reading model essays. then also go read the super thick compiled chinese articles. i must say i learnt quite many meaningful stuff. like who knows that there is actually an order that can bar someone from entering the IR. ya. at least i dint. but now i do. but sadly, i think i screwed O lvl higher chinese quite badly. i have no confidence for paper 1 and 2. so i think i might needa take chinese in JC again. (although i don really like taking chinese as a subject)

second part of my holidays were spent going back to school almost every other day to do CMPS. which i shall say that we were quite pissed at. not for the event itself, but maybe at a particular person who i shall not name. it was actually quite time wasting during the exhibition day because there was no general public to view our booths. not as if we were very proud of our booths but nonetheless, it could have been less boring with the public going around. we took bronze in the end. sortof expected to get bronze. troy's group was obviously silver or gold (which they got gold in the end) and another RGS group. this RGS group was the only non-hci group but i think they were quite deserving. their booth was, i must say, very asthetically appealing. then the other groups... not that i am putting them down but they seriously dint seem like they were in for a competition.

third part of holidays was spent in Taiwan. my first time to taiwan. and this is the only trip that i met 2 people that i know. yingze and chongyee. quite cool man. i was chionging out of a toilet when i saw chongyee and took a few pictures with him. yingze suddenly appear out of nowhere behind me and tapped my on the back. haha. quite farny. overall, it was a memorable experience. i get to see fireworks for the first time. haha. yang cheng must be laughing his ass off. (okay i noe you've probably seen it a gazillion times)

fourh part of holidays was just yesterday. which was christmas party 2009. haha. i feel quite guilty because we dint really distribute the toys. bobby wi got some volunteer from the RC to do it for us. and i was the video man for the second time for christmas party. this time, there wer 5 triple jumbos. COOL shit. first time all performers do triple jumbo. COOL LIKE CRAP. i shall upload the video somewhere. after the event... okay i mean our segment of the event, we just zao-ed. pang seh the RC room. let them clear the room for us. then we gate crashed alfred's house. we talk cock and played yoyo. haha. imagine 4 16 year olds playing yoyo in one circle. look so dam no life. we slacked around and left at around 9.30. which me and yujie took 165 home. i eventually reached home at 11 plus. watched the man utd match and was terribly dissapointed. the back 3 or 4, were lacklustre. poor defence is the only two words to describe their downfall. CHAMPs of 2007/2008 season getting pwn-ed. haiz.

and for today schedule, i will be watching Avatar at J8 today. at 8.15. no 3d guys. i dowan to tio headache after watching 3 hours of 3d animation. must siam the bullets and the water. so retarded lah. okay. not as if it is really retarded but i think i would just settle for the 2d version. satisfied man.

and i am thinking of getting an ipod nano. since my phone is a pathetic music player. it cant even display the title and artiste properly. haiz.

and i think there is a stalker somewhere. stalker ***. haha. ***pedia. lol. farny crap.

bye bye.
cya around.

haha. at Silver Kris Lounge

2009-12-15T16:31:00.002+08:00

hi.

haha. the last post i was at a random apple store koping their internet.

now, once again i am koping internet. but at a higher class place. haha. don ask me if i am a kris flyer, i am not. but you know, special connections give me this chance to step inside the silver kris lounge.

at the silver kris lounge:
1. nice waitresses (and of course waiters) asking if you need a drink of some "refreshments".

haha. me refreshments? nah. i need something else. maybe you.

2. free internet

that is like super alien to me after i left for taiwan. haha havent used internet for like ages.

3. free magazines

i am not telling you what magazines. but i read newsweek. but of course there are other magazines that are more INTERESTING.

okay. so much for the description of the Silver Kris Lounge.

for this trip, i saw chong yee and yingze. haha this is the first time i see two people that i know overseas. we don even meet on the streets in singapore, but we meet in taiwan haha.

and whoever that told you taiwanese food is disgusting. screw him. the food is damn freaking nice. there is like buffet everywhere. everywhere you turn, there will be this sign that says e.g." 299 buffet.... eat till you drop" besides, the food the things are rather cheap. as in i mean those made in taiwan or taiwanese brands.

i bought a shoe and two bags. haha. the shoe is an adizero tempo. the damn off season one. but dam cheap. only SGD 70. then the two bags rite, one is a camping bag and another is gonna be my school bag. both are of this brand" Air Walk" it is supposedly an american brand. and both add up to less than SGD100. you can imagine anot. two nice bags for less than 100 dollars. totally a steal man.

okay. i am going to enjoy the food at the Silver Kris lounge because i think this might well be the first and last time i am going to be at any Silver Kris Lounge.

bye bye.
cya.
my plane takes off at 6. reach singapore 10 at night today.

at the new york new york apple store

2009-12-13T20:43:00.001+08:00

hihi.

i am at some apple store. i am stealing their macbook to blog.

hhaha.

taiwan has been rather fun.

today i saw yingze. haha that makes yingze the second person i have met in taiwan so far.

i am leaving in 2 days time. so haha.

and i bought a few presents. haha start guessing who i bought for.

okay. the mac store person is chasing me away.

byebye.

cya in singapore. !

up in a hill

2009-12-10T08:13:00.002+08:00

hi.

the past few days have been rather fun. haha. seen so many weird stuff. and i think taiwan is a fantastic place to go. i think the food is super nice. all the fried stuff just beckons me to put them in my mouth... mouth-watering food.

haha. the title says it all man. this 'out-of-the-place' hill actually has an internet connection. haha. this was very unexpected. the previous few hotels that were supposedly more high class had no internet connection. so weird.

yesterday i tio sabo to go dance with the tribe people. there was a performance at the dining hall at around 8 yesterday. i dint watch at first cos i thought quite boring and then i was rather sleepy already cos the ride up the hill was like super uber long. then i was wondering outside at the garden for a while. then when it was ending then i thought i would just go join them for a while. so i just sat down. 5 secs later, they were asking for volunteers to go dance with them. cos they said this dance need equal number of guys and girls. then got 1 girl haven pair yet. then my guy friends in front zao. then left me right there. making me the nearest guy. then the girl that haven pair come and ask me. -.-

then the hotel is dam cool lah. the hotel rooms are individual houses. and then each room has 2 beds which are designed like those japanese tatmis. or watever they are called. and i dunnoe how to spell.

msn currently has no one online. haha

i think the bus is here already. so i think i needa go already.

and ya. most importantly, i saw ANG CHONG YEE. haha. saw him at some gorge. forgot the name already. and i took a few pictures with him. haha. i was so stunned to see him. i was chionging out of the toilet when i saw him. haha.

okay the tour guide come and chase me already. see ya guys.

i coming back on 16th.

cya.

bye bye.

2009-12-06T08:11:00.001+08:00

off to taiwan

boring holidays

2009-11-30T23:44:00.002+08:00

hihi.

today was super boring. haha. slacking around like nobody business. plus clicknetwork.tv has come up with the 50th episode of Chicks V.S Dicks. haha. fren challenge.

here:

[i shall find the working video. the one now is screwing up ]

and here is another random stuff about SAF.

haha.

From : http://forums.vr-zone.com/chit-chatting/308644-saf-ranks-their-meanings.html

Ranks in the SAF

Warrant Officers, Specialists, and Enlistees

* REC - Really Enduring Camp in Tekong

* PTE - Physically Trained Expert after Tekong

* LCP - Lowest Confident Personnel in camp due to inexperience, also known as "Lan Chao Bing"

* CPL - Cannot Play Liao because you are a senior NSF, also known as "Kao Beh Lang" as they always complain alot

* SGT - Saying Goodbye Thank you, because you are at the end of your service

* SSG - Showing Social Grace by asking people to call you staff instead of sergeant

* MSG - Must Say Good no matter what your commanders so that you get your 1st epaulette on your shoulder faster

* MWO - Must Watch Out for n00bs making mistakes and make them sign extra

* SWO - Still Waiting Orders because you are somehow still lower ranked than commissioned officers even if you have loads more experience than them

Officers

* LTA - Listening To Advice because your officer-commanding told you to do so and you cannot disobey

* CPT - Call Please Thanks, too busy with work, no time to reply

* MAJ - Must Always Joke so that people in SAFTI MI will recognise your "Leadership" and send you to command

* LTC - Later Then Confirm because you have too many meetings to attend

* COL - Content Over Leadership since you have already commanded so many people

* BG - Better (be) Gone, so that someone can replace you...

* MG - Media Glamour, especially if you are Chief of Army, pictures always taken for mass media purposes

* LG - Life's good, nowhere higher to go, nothing to do also. (Too bad Singapore do not have a 4 star general!!) Perhaps you can into Singapore administrative services, the place where you can go into politics.

see ya.
bye bye.

guitar !

2009-11-27T00:17:00.003+08:00

hihi.

i just realised that i havent been blogging for quite a while. you know why? no lah, i not watching snsd videos nor finding pics of tayeon (although i think she is nice). i playing with my new toy. not the bullet lah. my new toy costs me $188. haha. guitar lah. i think i am super fail. cannot even play a few chords properly. joash don laugh.

i bought it at bras brasah complex on tuesday at swee lee. haha. the name veh cool rite. then we saw paxton and bo shun working at popular. haha. they look for different. haha. and paxton's supervisor is quite pretty. hahah. kiddin.

then haha. i created a facebook account after commencement dinner. LOL. haha. i created one the other time during my birthday and then i deleted the account after half an hour cos i was too busy to play around with it. then i finally created one after commencement dinner. okay... if you have facebook, feel free to add me.

then leonard is veh cool. he went to spain and he sent me an sms. saying " 19 degrees and i'm wearing shirt and bermudas." wat the heck lah. spain to singapore = international sms = veh expensive. then he also msn-ed me. he say the food sucks. "they donno how to cook chicken, donno how to cook rice and the food ****-ing sucks." haha.

okay i think quite late already man. i think i go sleep le.

plus i think i veh slack these few days. did practically nothing. slack. slack. slack.

hhaha.

bye bye.

random

2009-11-13T14:54:00.002+08:00

hi.

on wednesday, i went to HCINCC November Promotional Camp 2009. and we were waiting for the Passing Out Parade. Then we played basketball. **eh shyh horng** HAHAHHA. then he sprained his ankle cos we collided. LOL. not the howie day song... we really banged into each other. shyh tried his lay up and then he banged into me co she neh see me. i thought he saw me. LOL. then yongle bought ice for him.

before playing basketball, we were watching chick vs. dick. LOL it was eff-ing farny. just that it is very vulgar. but the model is dam HOT. 正点!

he name is YAN KAY KAY. hahaha

then we watched their POP and we went to clementi to clear the warehouse. i think we feel very guilty the four of us. cos we freaking dumped a lot of food away. i feel really bad. alot of rice and other random food we thrown away. we left at about 7 plus? around there.

okay heres a little something. i think it is very farni. but it is a little vulgar. if you don like vulgarities, don watch.

p.s i think yan kay kay is freaking hot !

bye bye

end of high school

2009-10-31T11:33:00.002+08:00

hi.

it has been four years. 时光似箭。

it seems as if yesterday that we were wearing the white shirt and khaki shorts and going for our very first flag raising at the terraces.... and now the last flag raising in high school ever. for the first flag raising, i was standing with ying sheng cos he was number 9 and i was number 10. so you know... in sec 1 we were still like small kids, teacher say must stand according to class number then we did. anyway the first day of school also quite blur. and my last flag raising was beside joash. LOL. different class but stand at the same row. it really felt different for yesterday's flag raising. i have one confession to make. i usually don say the pledge and sing the national anthem. i only do that like once a year -- during national day, of which 3 i was on the field. but on friday, i sang the national anthem hahah. and also the pledge.

then was EOYA. quite fun luh. go learn how to make tea. anyway, chen xu was the one that was pouring and making the tea for us. haha. then 2K unite! our class is like freaking bonded, i have no idea why.... only meet like once in a blue moon but still like as if we were in the same class. haha. then went to play bball with shyh, yc, leonard and joash. afterwhich at 1.50 we went to the audi to get our results. got my results from miss lin cos my mentor wasnt here. and i was kindof dissappointed. then went to play soccer a bit. then also bball-ed till like 5.45 liddat. then went to poolside. OMG. this is the first time that i actually went to poolside just to buy drink in like 2 years?! the last time was like in sec 2 when we were still cadets then zhi hao, kenji, daniel choong, bertrand, jing yao and the rest would chiong to poolside to buy drink and talk cock after training. haha. miss those times man.

i think time passes really quickly. seemed as if i was still going to ncc trainings and wearing the lower sec uniform. i think time really passes very fast. time and tide really waits for no man. really. i never imagined that i would every be wearing the sec 4 uniform so quickly and ending my high school life so quickly. i thought that sec 1 to sec 3 would be like very long. but in the end, i realised that it was very short.

random: i bought my new phone 2 weeks ago. i had no time to post and yea. it is the same phone as zheng xiang and darren. KM 900. haha. then zheng xiang bought one day later than me. i bought it on saturday and zheng xiang bought on sunday. haha. he bought the black one while i bought the white one.

i hope JC life would be as fufilling as high school life. i think these 4 years are going to be etched in my mind forever. all the ncc trainings, all the mugging, all the crammed tests, all the quarrels, all the joyous times, all the scoldings from teachers, all the good times we had, it would be an unforgettable experience.

i hope that i can get the subject combination that i want. PCME. now i think i taking 4H2 instead of 3H2 & 1H1. hopefully that works out for me.

bye bye.
unforgettable times in high school...

exams are finally over

2009-10-15T22:19:00.002+08:00

hi.

15 / 10 / 2009 is the day that i have been waiting for the past year.

it is finally here. i think it is all worth it. today's A Math paper was rather difficult i think. i finished the paper at 1000 and then i tried to do the questions that i skipped cos i dunnoe. then i found that all the questions that i skipped rite, i had totally no idea to do. is really dunnoe how to start. so i think i lost alot of marks already. like i think 12 marks confirm gone.

haix. that was the A math paper. after that was the Math higher paper. this year rite, i got pwned by the higher math paper. i totally had no mood to do already. supposed to do 4 question out of 7. then i start on 1 then i stuck then i crush the paper. then i do on a new paper. then i also tio stuck then i also crush the paper. i had four pieces of foolscap but at the end i left with 2. =.=

then before the higher paper, we had 4S4 class bonding. leonard was playing arm wrestling then we started the 4S4 arm wrestling competition. somehow i got dragged into the competition then had to play with Shuin Jian. then i think Shuin Jian tired already, so i think he no strength so i won him. then play with Jun Xian. i almost lost to Jun Xian la. haha. jun xian is damned muscular. but then lucky la. so win by a tweeny bit. haha. it was quite funny to see leonard play with Chen Yang and the rest. keep screaming " FOR SELINA ARGHHHHH ! ! ! ! " then he win. LOL.

then after that went for Project Sunshine meeting with mr. tan, shyh horng, yang cheng, yongle. lol. mr. tan said i potential AREA. i think he scamming me. then alot of things to do for project sunshine. we went to KAP for lunch. at KAP, we saw something. hmm... i should not say later i tio blame for spreading. okay. don said. and don ask me. then we went to yongle's house to play pool. we meet chongyee and han wei and some others. chongyee decided to join us.

on the way to yongle house, it was raining. then reach his house the rain stop le. we play for like 3 hours. some people played table soccer. so fun. then i played a few games of pool with yu jie, yang cheng and joash. haha. won all. lol. lucky one. i bet play with gordon sure tio pwn. i am damned scared of ROCKY. wat the. he keep running around sia. then i have to siam here and siam there.

then we left at 6. i left with joash and yu jie. marcus and chong yee left first. yang cheng and gordon stayed behind to play a little while more.

dinner-ed. and i am here. just played CS. i think i back to the top form liao. like beijing liddat. pwn. haha. later i think i gonna watch movie. plus tmr is ortus nite, plus IHC paper checking. i think shyh horng is emo-ing, mr. tan chin guan say he tio 50% plus. then he emo the whole day.

okay. now i am very happy. cos EXAMS ARE OVER ! ! ! !

bye bye
off to playing CS and watching TV.

mid way ... ENDURE !

2009-10-09T20:42:00.003+08:00

hi.

it is already half way through the agonising exams. phew! after mugging and mugging, it is finally here. we are officially into the last 4 days of our exams people. woo hoo.

lets recount the few exams that have just past...

english paper 1 and 2: i believe i have been grumping enough.

chinese paper 1: i think i did quite okay. i managed to accurately grab the main points. so i think should have much screw ups.

IHC: i think it was quite okay luh. i started with the essay question. haha. and i finished it in a record time of 10 mins. imagine writing continously for 10 mins and whoola you have 2 whole pages filled with words. then i think i regretted studying so much. nothing came out. it was freaking decontextualised. guess what. mugged my brains out for conflicts and ASEAN. but fortunately, i skipped terrorism and UN. the essay question came out with the terrorism question. luckily there was another much easier option of national education. i think like leonard said it is all propaganda. but who cares? as long as you do well i don mind sucking up to the government's propaganda a bit.

Math paper 1: must epic screw up. i dint hand in the freaking graph paper that is worth 9 whole marks. plus this is the first time this year that i left a math question blank. i had no idea to do 3 freaking questions. and also the freaking graph is so scam. the scale is half then we all happily counted without dividing by 2 ._. sian diao. then also got one question ask for standard form. then i gave like 0.0000XXXX wad the hell man. just throw away 2 marks liddat. then the graph paper thing i went to find mrs. khoo and she said my case okay luh should be stil accepted.

bio: here comes the best part. this bio paper is crazy. make us mug like some stupid mugger then the things that come out? the tip of the ice berg. i don mean the usual meaning i mean that only a little tiny tiny bit came out. all the memorising for what genetic engineering, menstrual cycle all dint come out. screw la. then higher paper is totally a waste of time. totally wrote crap. then mr. charles low came to ask me if i was fit to take the paper. LOL. cos i think he see me like sleep at the start of the paper. then i was like sure sure i can. plus later he keep camping near my table then stare at my script. then i cannot write crap answer. i was forced to skip and write sensible stuff so that i don get blackmarked by him

then here i am. without you baby...

okay later going to eat dinner. plus not sleeping till 3 plus. gonna fetch my dad from the airport at like 1??? haha. i think i start mugging physics liaox.

hope i don make anymore epic screw ups.

haha.

come on people. we are left with 4 days of gruelling exams!

bye bye
endure and at the end everything will be worth it

****-ing screwed english

2009-10-01T18:11:00.002+08:00

hi.

yes. i freaking screwed english up.

i did not finish writing the freaking summary and i stupidly asked for time to complete it. and the teacher said no.

then i just ignored the teacher and continued writing with my hands trembling and my heart beating like it was gonna jump out.

finally finished writing the summary and guess what i think the last part cannot be read by anyone.

****

screwed.

screwed.

screwed.

just **** the summary man.

the time is now ....

2009-09-25T23:03:00.003+08:00

hi.

today is a rather significant day. firstly, it is the last friday before the exams officially start. okay maybe not very significant but, i think it is really a wake up call that exams are just a few days away and signals that we should start cramming info into our brains.

this week was rather mudane, with the exception of CSC exam. it made yesterday very stressful. i think i dint do very well in the CSC exam. okay for those that dunnoe what is CSC. it is actually China Studies in Chinese. okay. might sound very chim and complexed but, it just gives us an eye opener to the world in china. the information that we were "feeded" with really reinforced what we experienced in china, beijing. i think for those that went to beijing, the CSC would be more relavant and much easy to understand.

then thurday was also another milestone in high school life, it was the last time that we would attend assembly as one level in the high school auditorium. i think i really like our school auditorium :) i think it is a pride to have a nice auditorium in our school and i am really proud of it. i think i sort of have bond with the auditorium already. i would be there every week, in there for a very long time. in sec 1 and sec 2, assembly was 3 periods, which means 2 hours. but in sec 3 and 4, the school changed the system and assembly was cut to only 2 periods, 1 hour and 20 minutes. i would say that i will really miss going back to the auditorium that i spend four years every week, sleeping, listening, doing homework and yea.

then, today is the 10 anderson primary school family nite. i attended every single family nite every since i joined the school except this year. so sad :( i would have made it a 6 year in a row streak if i attended today. but i think we just have to miss some things. we can't always get what we want. so... i think i should stop myself from brooding over it. actually i am not. haha.

today was also rather special, i took bus with boshun and yingze home ! omg. this is the first time that i took bus with them home. for boshun, i noe he takes 852 and i noe he lives in sunrise that area. fyi, i used to live there. then for yingze, i dint noe he stayed somewhere near minosa. the reason is cos i stayed in boardin school for 1 year. yea. explains everything. speaking about that, reminds me of my old friend. yeo hung yi. okay. i think that is how you speell it. but sorreh if i spell wrong. then yea. although we in the same class for 2 years, this is the first time we 3 took the same bus home. OMG. history. and record. yea. we walked to the JC side bus-stop with paxton after IHC lesson. this IHC lesson was extra that miss sunita conducted. if not our lessons end at 1.20.

today is also the last episode of 命中注定我爱你. yay. this is a good thing and a bad thing. means i wont be stuck in front of the tv for 1 hour every night. but also i think the storyline is to nice already. makes me so wanna be the protaganists. but fairytales will always be fairytales, while tv shows will also be tv shows. so i am trying to drive the point that we should just be onto earth. 脚踏实地. ya. i think 陳喬恩 is very pretty, cute and yea. all the fantastic things that the ideal girl is. i think this is the dunno how many times that girls were mentioned in my posts. omg. i am becoming obsessive :0 but... wadever.

okay. i think i should just go sleep now and wake up fresh tomorrow. ready to take on the pile of notes of biology and IHC.

come on man ! motivation !

endure! we can do this together !
jiayou!
remember what we are doing this for!

although those phrases bring back nostalgic feelings, i think these phrases are really appropriate now. in the exam period.

bye bye.
i need to sleep so that i can pwn the notes tmr. hee hee.

champions!

2009-09-18T19:33:00.004+08:00

hi.

i think today is a rather significant day for me. for the past 4 years, i have never gotten so far for projectsday competition. honestly, it was never in my wildest imagination that i would ever present during grand finals and eventually win the whole competition.

for this, i would have to thank all my fellow project group members. lee shyh horng, wong yang cheng, ong yongle, darren and last but not least, lee kah how.

for shyh, as the group leader, i think he has dedicated a lot and sacrificed alot. all those times that you go to clementi and do stuff there and yea. painting the nemo fish and get the food packs, preparing for the events and stuff. thanks alot man. without you the project would never have been so successful.

for yang cheng, i think you also dedicated alot to the project. during the presentations, you played a major role in making the slides, and doing the majority of the presentation. without your charm and your charisma in those presentations, i think we would never have progressed so far.

for yongle, i think you are the one lights up the project pretty much. although your jokes are like not very funny, i think you are the reason why we always laugh and ultimately enjoy the process of doing the project. withou you right, the process of carrying out the project would have been an utterly painful task.

for darren, i think yours is more of practical actions. your utmost dedication to the touching hearts scheme and also the initiative in planning the ndc. i think without it would not have been so successful. as for the pivotal role in touching hearts scheme, i think it is vital that we sustain the touching hearts scheme. without you, the project would not have been able to proudly showcase our ndc and our touching hearts scheme.

for kah how, i just cannot use words to say how much you contributed to the project, both ideas and also practical actions. the website would have never existed without you and if i am not wrong, the touching hearts scheme was first brought up by you. without you, the project would never have taken off. i really neeed to thank you for all your nights that you stayed up to get the website done and also write the stuff for us.

and also for mr. vincent tan. i think you also played a pivotal role in mentoring us and bringing us to new heights and guiding us along the way. and for the pizza at ortus room and the dinner at astons, we really need to thank you. i think we can treat you to dinner with our prize money for being such a wonderful mentor.

after all that i've said, i think that we did a fantastic job. although our presentation was not the best among the three. but i think we have our own strengths.

presenting to you...

project sunshine 2009.

bye bye.
heading off for dinner

25th projects day grand finalist

2009-09-17T23:19:00.002+08:00

hi.

i think i am previleged to be part of projects day grand finals. never did i imagine myself going so far in this competition. this is partly because of my previous experiences in projects day. during sec 1, it was an ultimate failure and sec 2 we got to finals and screwed up quite badly and we got b+. then sec 3, i think i just like screwed up experimental research. sorry leonard. then now. grand finals. i really appreciate that i am given this opportunity.

and yea. i am supposed to sleep at 11. because mr vincent tan told us to. oh yea. he treated us to dinner. thank you mr. tan. and the dinner and astons was very nice. : ] and thanks to gordon for saying jiayou before the grand finals tommorrow.

whether we win or not is really not the point. i think all three groups are quite zai. alex's group has an innovative technology that can potentially solve the problems of plastics and yong xiang's group has an interesting video on domestic helper abuse. and yea. i think everyone has an equal opportunity to win. i have a feeling that we will get 2nd or 3rd. worse comes to worst, we get 3rd. i think that is the best consolation that we can receive. yea.

and yea. i am going to miss chemistry period tmr. so.... i need someone to let me copy what was gone through in class tmr.

the worst part of today was CSC test. i think i quite screwed for the test. i think i did not elaborate enough for both questions and i think i only lightly touched on the points. although i did mass copy a little but i also tried to phrase some parts on my own. i don have a good feeling about CSC test. seriously.

okay, i am currently waiting for my laptop to finish updatin the windows thingy. so.. yea. i gonna wait and meanwhile i think i go do some chinese.

yups.

good luck for tmr!

bye bye

eoy is closing in !

2009-09-11T00:10:00.002+08:00

hi people.

basically, i think i need to be more disciplined in studying. i keep getting distracted by alot of things. 命中注定我爱你 is one of them. keep getting tempted to watch it again on tudou.com. this is very phail. i think i watched it like 3 times already. damned. wasted too much time. okay. i shall stop myself from watching 命中注定我爱你 until after the exams. actually i only watched certain episodes 3 times. i havent really watched episodes 1 to 8? yea. okay i shall watch it after exams.

then today quite cool, we had our first tuition lesson. it was only 2 kids. i think we are phailing. then i was tutoring this boy called Enver. his name is cool to the max manx. Enver. cool crap. and he is quite smart la. he can get the hang of things quite quickly but not focused enough. haiz. focus man. and surprisingly he has finished his SA2. wth. mine havent even start his finished already. okay. i think i will post very rarely after this post. i have to start to use every single chance to mug instead of watching 命中注定我爱你 or slack away.

okay. i shall seriously stop watching 命中注定我爱你 and slacking and make use of every single chance to mug.

okay. tmr still have to mug for bio and go do some pday stuff.

bye bye
zai4 jian4.

mugging mode

2009-09-06T23:10:00.000+08:00

hi people.

i just realised that i have less than 26 days to mug for EOYs. i am beginning to feel the atmosphere already. the feeling that you need to mug and if you don, you will regret for live that kindof feeling. my motivation?

my main source of motivation is that this would be the last time that i would ever be studying in high school already. i wanna end it with a bang. i wanna step out of high school, knowing that i have done my best and that i know that with this results, i can get the subject combination that i want. i think this is my main source of motivation.

i was doing mrs. lee holiday homework and the comprehension was about motivation. ^^ the passage was about how teachers can motivate the students. there was this particular quote that i remember.

"success is a better motivator than anything i can think of".

i think that is really true. the thought of success can already sustain you through, at least half way through. this is also like how girls are the motivators of guys. guys you don have to deny anymore. it is out in the open. girls are really the motivators for many guys. the thought of the girls or girl that they like is already like giving a marathon runner H2O and like 雪中送炭. the similar effect. the sight or even the thought can really make a difference.

i think i experienced this myself and yea. i can really testify to this. back to success being a motivator, i think the success at the end of the four years would be applicable. for those people that are dying out there. think of your results at the end of sec 4 as the ultimate goal for this year. mug your brains out for hell's sake.

okay? don fall behind. come on. we can do this together.

back to the thing about girls being the most effective motivator of some guys. i think it is really true. last time in part A rite, it was really my first time doing push-ups. okay really. then the first thing that flashed across my mind was that i was doing this for her. and that with every push, i would be closer to achieving goals. okay. i was being retarded and stupid. i was thinking that girls like guys which are muscular and tall and stuff and all the inverted triangle... until today, i still think the same way. maybe i keep myself thinking this way to make myself go do PT. who cares what is my motivation, i get things done. as long as this motivation is not evil or wadever, i think it is fine.

okay that was the mentality that i had last time when i needed to train up. now, i still retain abit of that. a bit means really a little only. the main motivation is that i need to train up to live up to the name as once being a hcincc cadet. it really is my motivation. i think many of us have this mentality.

so much for motivation and PT, i think i would have to pull myself back to reality.

EOYS is just 25 days away !!

okay.

i should go sleep. make use of the time i have in the hols to sleep and get enough energy for mugging.

bye bye.
success is a better motivator than anything i can think of"

yay.

2009-09-03T18:42:00.000+08:00

hi.

this week has been an okay week for me. actually, it was rather slack and yea. i dint really do anything. only prepare for pday and yea. mug for SPAs. i think i screwed up the SPAs quite badly.

for chem, i think i screwed up abit here and there for the explanation. and i dunnoe what is a mortar and pastel. then i wrote mould and molar??? wth. i think mr. loh will laugh his ass off when he reads it.

then for physics, i not very confident of my set up and the procedure part. this physics SPA quite special. lol. investigate whether the mass affects the depth of footprint. the obvious answer is yes. but it was something that we did not expect.

then for biology today, i think i ultimate screw up. the thing is that no one is really sure of their SPA also. there were so many ambiguity. i think the SPA not very well set. mrs. koh came in and said we have never seen it before. i totally agree man. the aim was to determine the estimated time of death of dog that was poisoned by biscuits and meat. either the person that set the SPA don like dogs, biscuits or meat. this is totally lame la. i think the whole cohort can agree with me on this. aiya i just hope i get 3 ace can liao.

then yea. we got into GRAND FINALS for Projects Day. this is so miraculous. but then the drawback is that we have to go school to see some teacher tommorow, when it is home learning day. wth man. cant you just let us wake up late for once??? damned la. 8.30 somemore. screw the person in charge seriously.

i got back the bulk of my marks already. i think i project my MSG for this term to be 1.7 or 1.8.

CHEMISTRY: A1
PHYSICS : A1
BIOLOGY : A1
MATHS : A1 ( double academic units )
HUMANTIES: A2 ( double academic units ) i missed A1 my 1 mark. CSC: 68, IHC: 80. wth.
ENGLISH : B3 ( projected only. i have no idea )
CHINESE : B3 ( projected only. i also have no idea )

okay. i think i quite happy for myself this year. my marks not bad this year. i think my MSG havent cross 2.1 for the whole year. i hope this would be the case for the EOYs.

the only thing that i am very scared for is Humanities. cos there is CSC. and i am not exacttly good at chinese and worst still, china studies in chinese. i think it totally spells HOLY CRAP for me.

and yea. that is for the academics part.

i think chen qiao en is hot, cute and chio. all at the same time. the girl that act as Chen Xin Yi in Fated to Love You. i think she is the fusion of hotness, cuteness and chio-ness. hot hot hot, cute cute cute, chio chio chio. haha. okay i think i too zi high already.

okay. i just did some calculations and i have left exactly 28 days left for my exams. and they start on thursday. this very day 4 weeks later.

so... i think i better start to mug liaoz.

GET INTO THE MUGGING MODE !!!!

and i watched the part Cs performance yesterday. quite nice luh i must say. i think the style quite different from yongle or aaron's style. i think the formations are very nice but i think not enough impact cos they stand there for too short. but it is a new step for HCINCC PDS. gogogo. go impress at Army Open House 2009.

okay. i should go eat dinner and do some mugging.

bye bye

80th post - screwed weekend

2009-08-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

hi.

this weekend was rather screwed. bascically, i am sick. i have a running nose, sore throat and yea. feels like dying. i started to have these crap stuff at like 6.00am in the morning of saturday. haha. okay. i was watching 命中注定我爱你 from friday midnight till saturday morning. then i slept at 7.00am in the morning. woke up at 1pm in the afternoon. then i started to feel screwed. yea. screwed.

then felt like dying for 2 days. i think 命中注定我爱你 is bloody nice. the guy is damned shuai. okay i rarely say guys shuai one but this guy is really shuai. Ethan Ruan. and Chen Qiao En is very pretty. she looks just... pretty. one word to describe.

okay. i feel very sick and i think i should go sleep.

bye bye

the ultimate failure

2009-08-26T19:23:00.000+08:00

hi.

this three days has been quite fail for my sabbactical. i think we were sluggish, unmotivated and unprofessional. we were also last minute and did not plan ahead of time. on top of that, i think i am the worst. because i did not read up on the parts that i was presenting about enough. i did read up on what i needed to present but the parts that i left out, i totally had no idea on what they are. seriouslu, i sincerely apologise for the total lack of effort in conducting the sabbactical. not that i am trying to shift the blame but i dont even have the slightest idea that those things were in my scope. i sent the powerpoint for vetting and all the comments i get is that i need to reduce the words. i was not given notice that i had left out stuff and that those were crucial. although you can say i could have gone to ask if i have left out anything. maybe i was too careless or i did not know, but i noe that it was on my part that i screwed up. and for the first powerpoint, i was told to do a powerpoint on ecology. i just thought that an overview would suffice but i was utterly wrong. okay. this is very depressing. i screwed up so many things as a trainer. and yea. i think i feel quite ashamed in front of mrs. koh and mr. tan.

moving on to other stuff, i think our project sunshine is not entirely deserving of winnning the project batam. they lost out on the impact and i think they pwn-ed us in every other aspect of SL. i feel quite bad that we deprived them the chance when they only lost out on one aspect and pwn-ed in other aspects. this much i would say. don flame me. if you do, i don really care either. just scr*w off if you intend to.

overall, i think i feel quite useless in the sabbactical. i also dunnoe why i signed up for it. i think my motivation was totally wrong. the motivation i had was to gain ACE points for biology since i had only 3. okay. sidetrack abit, my ACE quite screwed. CHEMISTRY ACE: ZERO. dead.

i think i am just going to smoke through the sabbactical and i would be guilty if i gained any ACE points. seriously, i dont think i deserve the ACE points.

lesson learnt, better have the right motivation if not you would regret.

quote from my former teacher that i greatly respect:
your attitude determines your altitude
i think that is just the essence of my experience of being a trainer. a failed one.

failure trainer.

bye bye.
off to dinner.

sabbactical tmr!

2009-08-23T23:33:00.000+08:00

hi.

yay. sabbactical week equals slack. in sec 1 was liddat, sec 2 also. sec 3 also. but this time for sec 4, the last sabbactical, not so slack. COS I AM TRAINER. yay.

means have to read up before going there so that i don get pwn by the students that are actually attending. then yea. went for the recce session on saturday. quite an unforgettable experience. yea. learnt so much. tmr is going to be a boring day. only lectures and stuff. but the rest are gonna be fun like crap.

yay. tmr also is the grand final's selection round for cat 8. we got nominated. yay. so happy.

oh yea. yongle and yang cheng are in my sabbactical. looking forward?

haha. maybe no. but wadever.

and i think that i am going to be very sleepy tmr. i napped for 3 hours today. feel totally pig. then now i don feel like sleeping. zzz.

kkk.

i shall continue reading up on the sabbactical stuff.

bye bye
sabbactical week ftw !

triple science papers

2009-08-20T18:13:00.002+08:00

hi.

today was a better day than yesterday. first there was a chio bu sitting in front of me for first time in 4 years !!! yea. the girl quite chio. sit in front of me. from AOS. yea. then after staring at liu qian for 1 hour, then we go for ihc. then it was freaking slack. i was reading blogs instead of doing the worksheet given out. yea. then break.

was sitting in front of the AOS girls. i was practically sleeping throughout the siew yi peng presentation on the financial education. she keeps repeating the words "park" and "short". she was like a joker sia. then later had the performance by the "face-changing" people. actually honestly it wasnt very impressive, i have seen more pro performers. then after that the AOS people went to take picture with the performers.

bio was next. we got back our test papers. my heart almost drop out. yea. samuel got his back first. then i got mine. whoa. same marks. 30 / 40. this is the most imba term in my entire school life.

my results for triple sciences:
Biology: 30 / 40
Physics: 30 / 35
Chemistry: 30 /35.

YAY.

this is only the second time in my entire 2 years that i have triple A1 for triple sciences.

okay.

now i am supposed to be rehearsing for pday finals tmr.

feeling hungry now. although i ate with joash and marcus at 3.30. yea.

okay.

back to preparation for Pday.

bye bye
don screw up pday liaoz. finals le.

yay

2009-08-19T19:40:00.000+08:00

hi.

today was quite an okay day for me. there were highs and lows today. they sort of cancelled out each other. firstly, i shall talk about the lows. actually there was only one low. it was the chinese common test. i think i dint write very well. the ying yong wen was about the half the calls made to the 993 are prank calls. then the essay was about the toilets in singapore being dirty and yea. the topics quite lame. the other essay question was something like teenagers these days being open, and yea different. i figured that the question needed alot of examples and concrete one. so yea. i made the right choice.

the highs today are quite cool. i got back 2 of my tests. co-incidentally, both got the same marks. for physics and chemistry, i got 30 / 35. yay. this is the first time in sec 4 that i got A1 chemistry. yay. then for physics, miss chua said that those that got 32 and below need to work harder. yea. so she say for this test can only lose 3 marks. X.X means i need to work harder.

then after the chinese common test, i stayed back with leonard and the rest to discuss about the sabbactical. yea. then after that came home and dinner-ed.

later i planning to tidy up my english file and write reflections for project sunshine. and also i think i am gonna do the script for the finals presentation.

kk..

bye bye

sigh of relief

2009-08-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

hi.

today was ihc test and yesterday was bio test. for the bio test, i think i screwed it quite badly. the worst thing is that i donno how to answer some questions. haiz. then for the ihc test today, i think i also screwed it up quite badly. the question talked about Cambodian Question. then i thought that Cambodian Question actually encompassed the vietnam and cambodian war and also the cambodian internal crisis. but then to my horror, the notes header "Cambodian Question" only talked about the internal crisis. Damn. i think quite screwed.

then went to run just now. it feels so weird. without music while running. my phone died 4 days ago. yes. N81 8gb is a lousy phone. the whole keypad stopped responding and then i had to resort to using the Nokia 3120. the super uber old phone. no music, no radio, completely a sms and making phone call phone. nothing inside. even the alarm clock has no recurring function. this is seriously.... k i shall stop complaining.

then the reccee for the sabbactical has been cancelled because the Nparks neh reply to Mr. Tan's email. so yea. postphoned to next week saturday. sianz. anyway i think it is better cos liddat i can mug for my physics test and chem spa on monday. okay. now i shall go and watch tv destress after mugging three days straught for chem, bio and ihc test respectively.

yea.

bye bye

motivation

2009-08-12T17:41:00.000+08:00

hi.

the title of this post is like the header of the blog.

i think this is the most powerful thing on earth. without this, nothing great can be achieved. actually nothing in fact can be achieved. this suddenly dawned upon me when i was doing revision for my biology test. yea. i am mugging now. just taking a break. so this is gonna be rather short.

now, i finally understand the greatest takeaway from NCC. hcincc. the importance of motivation.

i think this is what keeps everyone going under all the stress that they receive. all the tests piling on top of them... all the crap they receive from teachers and mentors. yea. i receive crap mentoring from my mentor. ya. i think the only thing that you can rely on is your own motivation.

whenever you feel like giving up, your motivation will just pull you back. like a indestructible magnet.

i think this is indeed the most powerful force on earth. motivation.

amazing. amazing. how humans can keep going and going.

people have different motivations.

find your motivation and keep it, for it will keep you going.

yup.

thats all manx.

bye bye
i hope i don screw up my bio test and ihc test. please please please.

mugging my brain out

2009-08-10T14:06:00.000+08:00

hi.

i am currently mugging my brains out. there are like 3 tests this week.

wednesday: Chemistry
thursday: Biology
friday: IHC

this is seriously very screwed.

i havent even mug finish one yet. i am like half past six.

and yea. today i changed my msn PM.

for like 1 year, 2 months and 8 days, it was SPECIALIST Course Bravo 4.

yea. then when i logged in today, shyh horng was telling me to change. say what i cannot get over NCC.

okay luh. then i changed. now, there is no longer a fixed PM. it would be changing depending on my mood.

and i am certain that i will drop biology in JC. i swear i will. i totally have no interest in Biology. the only reason that i took biology is cause of Mrs. Har. i emailed her in sec 3 that time. then she said it is better for SMTP students to take biology. then she also said most of the students take. then if don take will lose out. then i just okay lo. take. then now i am regretting totally. if i did not take biology, i would be a tingyit now. got so many free periods here and there. wa lao.

aiya. i just gonna pia biology for one last time this year. and that is for EOYs. after the biology paper, i swear i would never touch the biology textbook ever again. i swear.

k. i am back to what i am supposed to be doing. mugging.

bye bye.
I hope i don screw up the tests to much

when can people stop copy-ing us

2009-08-06T08:26:00.003+08:00

hi.

i was on youtube during CSC lesson and i still am. and i was watching RSAF and i found that there is another video of us. but that video was quite er. cos the video captured the sloppy parts. then i saw another school copy us again. just that this time is NPCC. they reused Hardcore Feelings. they reuse untill damned disgusting.

NPCC copying our song:

HCINCC's Chinese New Year Celebration 2008:

why do people reuse songs that we do and just feel shuang. deyi also. they reused hardcore feelings and holiday. what is their problem man. seriously. all no creativity or retarded. i get very pissed when people just copy us.

to all the potential copycats, you all are just useless crap. simply put, you all have no creativity. you all just copy people's hardwork. seriously scr*w you guys.

thats all. this was rather lame.

and the pds video is damned er.

and i feel guilty because i have not finished my lun wen.

bye bye.

addicted to you

2009-08-04T22:45:00.001+08:00

hi.

the title sounds quite scandalous. but wadever. why are you racing through my mind? why do i see you everywhere i go? i am totally seeing her everywhere. like seriously everywhere.

haiz. don try and ask me who is that. i wont tell you either. unless she come and ask me. then i might consider. but most likely, that will definitely not happen. i am 99.99% sure. the rest of the 0.01% is called a combination of luck and fate. i think that is not very probable.

today i screwed up my math test. i dunnoe how to do the last question and i think i missed out one question. damned careless man. i feel so bad after the test.

but seriously, why does she keep popping out in my head. more than anything else.

bye bye
maybe you feel the same, maybe you don
just talk to me man.

birthday and Nationa Day Carnival !

2009-08-02T22:15:00.002+08:00

hi.

i havent been posting for quite long already. i think i too busy for the past few days. basically, friday was going to the Pictureworks studio and getting the briefing from the people there. after school on friday, we went to yongle's class to paint the banners. i think i screwed up mine quite badly. haha. colored the pail yellow... when the balls supposed to be yellow. lolx. then we left at like 5.15 or so. then took 74 and alighted at AMKhub. then we took 261 with jun rong. then we all dunnoe why then we alighted at the wrong bus stop and then we walked damned long. then we thought we were lost and then we call here and call there. then we finally found the place for the briefing. then the kyle say i upskirt girls and down blouse girls. totally wth. then he called me nigger sia. say my name sound like those "shorties, it your birthday" thingies. quite random. then i paired with darren and he brought the Selphy printer and Camera home.

then we meet at clementi on saturday. then we painted the banners and then packed the toys. then we left at 12.45. met shirleen, valerie and qiaowei there. i think i might have spelt the names wrongly. lolx. then we pang-seh-ed shyh horng again. we like pang-seh him twice in 2 days. then we left for the macdonald's at marina square. we took darren's dad's car there. then we met there and kyle treated up to the drinks at macs. i drank the strawberry milkshake. then yea. we met at the carl's junior there. then we changed into our red shirt and got our passes. mine was under Yvvone's ass. she was sitting on it then she couldn't find it. lolx. then kyle was like "eh got one card drop between your legs lehx. isit the jordy's one arh?". lolx. turns out it is. then we slacked at there. then some people have problems with their printers. then yea. i heard the Yvvone swear manx. i quite shocked to hear girls swear. then she also smoke. kyle does too. whoa. bad for health like crap. then we waited damned long before we went in. then we saw the Sikhs. their beret damned cool. their turban is their beret. cos the cab badge is on his turban. quite cool sia. lolx. then we went in to stone for like 1 hour. the other school people were playing PSP. lolx. while me and darren mugged. then we took pictures only at like 5.45. cos out sector is dark green then it is filled only the last. so... yea. then we only finished around 1 pack and a few more. yea. then have to zao already. yu jie, yongle and yang cheng went to eat. i suspect they bought my present at marina square. then i took mrt with darren home. then ate at home. then went to J8 to cut hair and buy shaver. yea. then went home.

then i stayed up till quite late. then at 1 plus in the morning, i shave lor. technically, i shaved on my birthday. so next time my kids ask me when i shave, i can proudly tell them i started shaving on my 16th birthday. lolx. then yea. slept at 2.30 around there. then woke up 4 hours later. then my dad fetched me to clementi. when i reached there, then i saw darren and kah how sleeping. so i joined them there. then, shyh horng appeared. he was eating breakfast at the coffee shop. then we started preparing for the carnival. i started cutting the coupons. then i was in charge of the art colouring B group. then had to tell the parents don help their kids. then yea. i went to help out at the games stalls. quite fun luh. played, talk cock, and laughed for hours. then hui yee appeared. O.o. haha come to support the event luhx. then we ate lunch at 1.30 around there. then yea. i went to report one guy selling illegal CDs. darren, huiyee and shyh horng say this man selling illegal CDs behind our project booth. then they don dare to go tell the police officer that was at our event. the police here to mend the booth on crime prevention. yea. then i went in and wanted to tell the officer one. but then he talking to people. so i though never mind. but then when the guy selling illegal CDs was leaving rite, then the police officer was going back to his booth. so he passed by and i approached him and told him there is a man selling illegal CDs. then he went up to the guy and apprehended to the guy. cool sia. i did a good deed. i dunnoe whether it is good deed or what but it just shows that i have moral fibre. then we ended the games at like 3.30 liddat. then we went in to the RC room. then they gave me a surprise, there was a mini cake. i gonna eat it was my breakfast tmr. then they neh remove price tag. lolx. then they gave me my present then yea. the real cake. then i lighted the candles myself. lolx. then they sang the birthday song. thanks man people i appreciate it. then we ate. then we thanked the RV people. yea. i think they did a fantastic job luhx. without them we would have achieve such sucess. we owe our success to them manx. then we counted the money. and yea played basketball. quite fun. the first time in i think 1 year. lolx. then the girls all damned pro one canx. all damned fast. lolx. but nonetheless, very fun. then they still no enough leh. after the basketball guys chased us away, they wanted to play more. but then we were like quite tired so we decided to go back to the RC room to cool down and talk cock. then we cocked for like 1 hour i think. then left the place together. then yea. went to dinner. the food at Metropole was fantastic.

then came home and here. thanked the RV girls for the birthday celebration and songs. yea. thanks alot again. this is the first time a big group of girls sing birthday song for me three times. i really appreciate it man. gonna be memorable. thanks again man. :)

then yea. i think i should go sleep in case tmr cannot wake up. okayx.

bye bye
thank you darren for the cake.
thank you yongle for giving me the cake.
thank you shyh horng for lighting the candles.
thank you yang cheng for the speech.
thank you kah how for bringing the cake in.
thank you RV girls. you all made this birthday memorable and special. and also making the games such a success.

ORD-ed

2009-07-25T21:19:00.003+08:00

hi

24 july is a very significant day in my life. i shall remember this day where i wrapped up my ncc career on a high note. i shall dedicate this post to part C'09 and the part C'09 training.

for the part Cs that are reading this, this might have already been covered in the final debrief. firstly, i would like to apologise and thank part C'09 and the part C'09 training team. i thank you all because you all gave me this chance to go through this magical one year.

for the part C'09 training team:

during this one year, i did things that i thought i would never do. i had never imagined working with people like yang cheng, shyh horng and yongle. these are the three people that have helped me a lot during this one year of NCO-ship. people might flame me for saying this but i will still say it. i think that we make one of the best training teams around. i think we have the rigour and the skills to manage any part. i really believe that we can. i apologise for anything that i might have done that is wrong. like i have said before, "to err is man". i hope you understand and forgive me. after all, i think we all want to ORD remembering more of the happy things while remembering less the less happy things. i hope we can still be as bonded as the year that we had.

for the part C'09:
during this year, you guys have been wonderful. you guys have also taught me so many things. you guys have allowed me to see things from another perspective. mainly the NCOs point of view. i might have made some bad judgements during the course of my NCO-ship, i hope you would also forgive me. maybe it is because i have been your NCO for the past one year, but in my eyes you guys are like the children that the part C'09 training team have painfully brought up the one year. i think all four of us feel that way. in future, if you encounter any difficulties, you can always feel free to approach us and we will help you if we can. all in all, a big thank you. and i would miss taking you guys and also taking you guys for trainings. i hope you all will bring our beloved unit to new and greater heights.

we.... come from a company, famous in NCC
come from a very special company
we fight for glory, fight for victory, fight for a spirit never known before
ncc ncc all the way
we like it here we like it here we found ourselves a home
a home
a home
a home sweet home

this is the famous WE cheer. i hope our unit will forever be famous in NCC and we will get that spirit never known before.

during ORD nite, i received many presents.
namely:
-a notebook [ from the part Bs for doing a forfeit: winning keith in arm-wrestling. lolx. i though i will lose]
-a handphone pouch that says "wat the hell" on both sides. [ from the part Bs ]
-a dog tag that says "hcincc senior jordy" [ from part Bs ]
-a teddy bear with "jordy 23" on the front and "a06, b07, c08, d09" at the back [ from part Cs ]
-a MKIV rifle with golden tape [ from part Cs, but sadly it broke even before i brought is home. i think yiming and pao pao prolly broke it. dunnoe... ]
-2 bottles of deodorant i think it is some weird brand [ from part Cs ]

haha. thanks man part Bs and part Cs. a big thank you again.
although i have been a kao pei RSM and C aps. lolx.

therer was this photo montage where i saw joash more than anything else. lolx. every possible cute face. haha.

then it was the prize presentation and the final debrief. i think the final debrief was quite emotional. i was on the verge of crying but i held back. then the individual card and photo giving to the part Cs. our "presents" were not even presents can. it was just a card with our message and a photo of all of us inside. i think this is so bad. we neh buy things for them. :x. sorreh guys.

then we parted. then i could find my boots. i told qin jiang and he tot jian sheng took it. then called then he say he will check. then juse now at 4 plus, xinren told me on msn that he took my boots home by accident. he smelled it and it dont smell like his. lol. then he will bring on wednesday and i will go take it. then i left my rifle in the bunk cos it broke. haha. thanks liao part Cs help me fix. lolx.

then took parents car home and bathed and slept at around 12.30.

yesterday i was practically staring at the clock before ORD and hoping tha t the time could pass quickly. the first time i wanted to go training so badly. then when it came, i dint feel like ORD-ing.

before the parade, we had company photo taking. there was the new madam. lolx. then i had 10 minutes to open bunk and let troy change to rush back for the POP. run like some dog. lolx.

then during the Pass Out Parade, everything was going smoothly until this teacher, yongle's form teacher, drove her can and ask us to siam cos we block the clock tower and she cannot drive. then there was also this big bus that wanted to pass. first time that POP have to cut to let car and bus pass. i feel like slapping the drivers. seriously. people's last parade in NCC sia. cannot wait arh. then the take over. then mr. lau's speech was damned lame. and i think no one was actually listening. then it was time to throw our beret. kenneth was giving the drill as zhi hao tio h1n1. we did kekanan-lurus and we pandan-ke-hadapan. his voice quite weird. but who cares. our last drill. then we did our besurai. then we shout part Ds. and we shouted "ORD" and then threw our beret up. mine went the furthest. might went in front of zhewei. then had to cut the part Cs to take my beret. then we went back to salt centre to have free and easy. we did pumpings. we did PART D 2009. couting from A- that letter and then yea. you get the meaning. then we just spammed H20. then the part C training team decorated the cards. after which we ate pizza and drank cold drinks. then we went to the terraces in front of salt centre parade square for ORD nite. i go joined the part As during their item. then the part Bs asked for a volunteer. then i was nominated to go down. lolx. then the question was there are two lions and one tiger in the NCC crest, what does the two lions mean. lolx. i don even noe. lolx. then the forfeit was to pick a paper strip from the zip lock bag. then i picked the "win keith in arm wrestling" then the first time, he use body weight sia. he practically jumped onto my hand. his whole body weight. i was losing like crap. then i stopped and said he cheat. then restart. he neh use body weight and i win la. lolx. lucky one. oh yea, the part Bs made chang ze smash whipped cream into zheng xiang's face. lolx. then we helped zheng xiang. we air striked the part bs when chang ze smashed it into zheng xiang's face. then we stopped for the part Cs item. then the item was to play musical chairs. they put water bomb on the chairs and make us sit. then whenever the music stopped, we just "OOOOO" then ask for restart. then we did it three times and we just take the water bomb and bombed the part Cs. then the famous water bomb started. then we mass played. i on the tap. the tap key from last year ORD one. lolx. havent even return the gardener. lolx. then we play play. then stopped. then we changed. then the D'08 were there and we bombed aaron. then jonj got raped and his underwear pulled down lolx. saw his ass cheek. lolx.

then me and joash and shyh horng went to thrid level of salt centre to wash face and change. then all neh bring underwear. lolx. had to wear the PE pants. then we went to LT2. then yujie neh bring underwear then he changed pants. then sit down for awhile then the water moved to his pants then can see one wet patch there at this groin. lolx.

haha.

it was an enjoyable nite that i wont forget for a long time.

i hope that the part cs will lead the company to greater heights. GOGOGOGO. and read the things i wrote on the card.

bye bye
and yea. a memorable nite.
ord nite 2009 where i ended my ncc career.

ord is tomorrow

2009-07-23T22:10:00.002+08:00

hi

this is the final day man. the day before ORD. Official Retirement Date. the day i stand on the parade square with 26 others and do my last besurai to put a full-stop to my journey in NCC.

okay that does mean i don like NCC anymore and i will start niao-ing... but i mean i am no longer in NCC officially.

tomorrow, i am going to school to dread lessons and look forward ORD. although i don feel like ORD-ing, it is a cycle that everyone has to go through.

today i prepared my No.3 for the final time. the experience was so ... indescribable. you know. i totally feel like stopping time and forever staying in NCC.

haiz. four years just flew by like that.

part A: under yuhan, was still childish like crap
part B: under yiming, hell training an became a real man MAN.
part C: under bertram, learnt many important things.
part D: NCO

NOW: ORD.

i just cant believe that i am finally leaving NCC. the first time i fell in, i could still remember the weak shout. and i can still vividly remember the part Bs and part Cs at that time shouting damned loud. i was telling myself that i was gonna be like them next time. standing beside my juniors and shouting hell loud.

sadly i never got to stand at that place where the part Cs stood. we shifted to salt centre. the feeling is never the same. at concourse, you can totally hear the water when all three parts fall in. suddenly total silence. then NPCCs walking to EP3 shed. totally cool man. then U-check can go and see the koi pond and listen to the water. in salt centre only have the plants in front. no auora.

then i could still remember the feeling of pumping at concourse. the rocky ground against your hand and with every push you feel your muscles bulging. and we would run from there to MSCP in 1 minute. i think we took more than that but the timer always counted 1 minute. hahah. i donno why.lol.

okay now back to reality, TMR IS ORD. my mood now is the " i-don-feel-like-ORD-ing-feeling". i donno how to describe this feeling.

i shall go sleep now. and when i wake up, it is ORD.

i shall go sleep now

bye bye
ord is just a few hours away
my last post before ORD-ing
my last post as an NCO

seems like yesterday

2009-07-22T22:02:00.003+08:00

hi.

seems like yesterday that i went for my first training.
seems like yesterday since i first wore my no.4
seems like yesterday since i went for my first ORD
seems like yesterday since i went for hiong yiming trainings
seems like yesterday since i first marched during NDP as supporting contingent
seems like yesterday since i attended my first PDS training
seems like yesterday since i went for my first camp
seems like yesterday since i went for my second ORD
seems like yesterday since i went for bertram's trainings
seems like yesterday since i marched during NDP as Guard-of-Honour
seems like yesterday since i did my first drill mutual
seems like yesterday since i did my first IFC/trainfire mutual
seems like yesterday since i passed out of SPEC course
seems like yesterday since i first wore my 2sg rank
seems like yesterday since we took over
seems like yesterday since we went for our first training with part Cs

there are so many "seems like yesterdays" that the list is simply never ending.

those were the major milestones in my entire NCC career. you might not call it a career, but i do.

we started off with 40 plus. then it reduced to 30 plus and then finally 27. i mean 27 strong men. these 27 tough men that have endured through countless hellish trainings and emerged as bonded brothers.

i was thinking about ORD and i realised that every ORD we were given post cards. i sort of remember how each looked like but i could not find them. i searched for like half an hour. then i finally found them. it was cool manx. to read the things that your NCOs thought about you last time. i cant believe that now it it my turn to write it.

time and tide waits for no man.

i guess it is untill now that i fully understand the meaning of this simple yet very true saying. i just seemed like yesterday. how i wished i could stop time but face it, we have to move on.

i shall blog about the comments about me next time. maybe this friday when it is ORD.

okayx. enough of that.

today is the last training that i would have before ORD. today is the day that i would leave the bunk knowing that i will go back on friday and then never ever return to that bunk like now ever again.

this is simply remininsce of the past. i really hope that friday will turn out well and i would wrap up my entire NCC life on a high note. something that is once in a lifetime. something that i wouldn't trade anything in the world for. okay even her. i would not trade her for the brotherhood. seriously.

okay enough of my emo-ing about ncc. now shall blog about today's events. quite normal and mundane. just that math lesson was quite slack cos it was mr. low, the relief teacher. we like kindof scammed him to watch the eclipse when it was raining. hahahax. he was like " er... okay luhx. go and see lor" then our whole class chiong out to look. but it was raining LOL. we couldn't see any anything. LOL. then he was like "eh you all trying to slack off right, all go back in..." LOL

then recess and chemistry, i think i screwed the pop quiz up. then it was chinese and we sort of went through the chinese commen test last term which i kindof screwed up. 61/90. screwed.

then physics, chuasy insisted on finishing up moments before returning our test paper. then i lucky luh. got error carry forward. then i neh lose so many marks. haha. i sort of got quite high. 31/35. the highest in 2 years of physics.

then end of school.

went to training and played soccer. quite fun sia. we played the last match for like around one hour. there were actually 2 goals that we sort of dubious. first was yongle, i swear it did not pass the line, but chongyee's shot seriously was a goal but then shyh horng started to say no... so we just followed suit and said no and denied it... hahhahax. sorreh luhx chongyee...

then went home and eat dinner. then here i am... gonna discuss the english thing with leonard...

bye bye
ord is 2 days away.....

third last training of my entire life

2009-07-20T22:54:00.003+08:00

hi.

today was quite sians. maybe cos we havent been doing much stuff. first up was the physics. i was totally feeling damned pro because i managed to balance the freaking ruler and the experiment on moments is seriously very irritating. then i was sai-kanged by chuasy. she made me like collect this collect that. then i become like her personal dog... :x

then was P.E. height and weight. the worst way to spend your P.E. sitting there staring at the clock. then some people veh lucky cos their scores for NAPFA mysteriously dissappeared and they can just go fill in whatever marks and stuff they want. cos the teachers are probably too lazy to conduct the test again. then quite sians. i saw my marks for NAPFA. 26. damned suck. last year was 28. sec 2 was like 29 or something. then now is like 26. seriously standard dropping. okay thats all for P.E.

height as of now: 1.77m
weight as of now: [this one will make me emo for like weeks cos i am fat] 70kg

then was chemistry. titration went kindof well. then we just start comparing the color of the end point thingy. mr. loh was damned pissed cos he says he is our personal color identifyer. cos every 5 secs will have one person go there and ask him what color and whether the titration is correct or not. haha. i got 17.00. maybe that is the correct answer.

then was english. as usual, it was extended chemistry period for us to complete our SPA 1&2. haha. then yao nian's group presented their panel discussion. we lucky sia. leonard neh come then we escaped. oh yea. leonard was sick then neh come school.

desmond is officially an idiot. he come school then slam table slam file, slam door when every one is sleeping. then he go around talking here talking there. and then when temperature taking, "eh why i 37.8 arh" then he got fever lolx. :O then he not go around spreading the bugs and viruses. ass hole sia.

then our class got like 4 people neh come. leonard, shannon, and chong jiat. plus desmond then is 4 liaoz....

then today was the part C immersion II. then today they look like NCOs already. haha. my cadets sia. haha pro liaoz.

then at 6 we went to take photos. haha. cam-whorers siax. then got this group of trackers. the yang cheng try to ji hong them. eh don flame me. you not go there meng shout. then say " aiya the commander to shuai already... no choice la my mother give me this face one"... ass sia.

ASS here does not mean the butt.
it means:
Attract Attention SHIT

ya. then go there meng the sizing drill. then yongle also go cute sia. take video of the entire process. then i go ka jiao. haha. the video have me going there to make farni faces one.

then we meng cam-whore. part C, part D all cam-whore, 08-09 EXCO, 09-10 EXCO, part CTT. we all cam-whore jiu dui le. lolx.

then took bus with kenji home. long time neh take with kenji liao. cos i stayed in boarding school for 1 year. then quite fun luh. then the bus is damend **lan. we waited like half an hour sia. wait until damned pissed.

okay....

then i went home and ate and did my ihc homework. and i am here...

i have math test tmr. but for ACE. so i think i just study a bit tmr. then i think i should go sleep early.

project sunshine is getting is trouble sia. no la. we just ran into some problem with the food. i think we just going down to NYPS to conduct food drive. haha. okay one luhx. we will tide through.

okay... i shall go sleep now....
screwed physics

part c's first immersion training

2009-07-18T15:11:00.003+08:00

hi.

yesterday was cool. i dint blog yesterday cos i was too tired to blog. after i reach home at 8 plus, then i go bathe, eat and sleep already. dint do anything yesterday night. today woke up at 12.03. zzz. another 14 hour sleep. aiya. why cant school day be 14 hours of sleep also. then i would never sleep in class ever again.

back to yesterday. it was quite okay luhx for the training. just that abit unpolished nia. then i followed the part a's training. guan koi was the OIC. then they did u check, quite unprofessional as commented by jiahan and yujie. actually i also find them a bit unprofessional. but de.. it is their first training, they will get used to it next time. then there was this chang ze. pon training for 1 month plus then yesterday come in his crappy No.4 seriously, this kind of people should be shot. i think that people like him should get slapped until their face redder than chilli. then ask him to do jumping jacks, then he gimme the farni cute cute look. he sewed his no.4 cans. totally historic. he sewed the sleeves so as to secure the sleeves there. i had to go and fold his sleeves for him cos he got photo taking at clock tower with the part a training team. eh. here is hcincc, not hci baby's club.

then drills, the atmosphere was damned sian. i told them during their breaks and then it got better. and jiajun is darned farni when he gives drills, he like some gangster sia. seriously, if i part a, i will feel damned **lan. wa lao. then i left during their pt to watch shyh horng and yang cheng and yongle play soccer at hcis court. then we listened to their debrief for the cadets and we debriefed the cadets.

then we played soccer. yongle, yang cheng, yongle, gordon, zheng xiang and me. we were playing monkey. it was darned farni. yongle tripped and faked his fall. damned farni sia.

today i only did the yue bao xin de. later i think i gonna do the biology worksheet. haiya. i feel like sleeping. so... i think i will go sleep now.

bye bye

extraordinary training

2009-07-16T22:25:00.002+08:00

hi.

today's training was imba cool to the max. this is because yiming joined us. darned cool. shyh horng, yongle and i were in the bunk. then yiming came along. he walked to the drop off point at salt centre but then found that it was closed. then he saw us inside the bunk and then asked us how to go in salt centre. we told him to go up the hill and come down by the main entrance. then he came in to talk to us. cool lahx. talk about many things.

yiming told us how he regretted not studying in Jc1 and now he is literally dying cos his 'A' levels are around the corner. he told us that we should do every tutorial and that we must start from Jc1 cos if we slack then when Jc2 comes, we cannot catch up one. okay. i made up my mind to follow his advice. i am gonna mug in Jc1 and not start slacking and playing.

不听老人言，吃亏在眼前.

i think that we must really listen to advice from our seniors. however, the advice must be from reliable. yiming is our part B ps. i think it is reliable.

then he became our camera man. take video of drill session, talk random pictures... good help sia. haha. then we took our training part photo. then yiming was saying how dey-ja-vu as if he was taking his training part photo with us. he was certainly darned random and yea. cock. cock is the word to describe him today. haha.

but the take away is the quote in chinese. i think i don wanna become something like him then regret.. he also tell us don follow in his footsteps.

training was about drills and then henta-taki. henta-taki was at the red tile area outside clock tower. we cheered with them also. it was darned high manx. really havent shouted and gotten so high in a long time. then i saw somebody. chio sia. darn. then the person keep turning back and look. aiya dunnoe at who lar. certainly not me... i too ugly already. seriously.

after that was pt. we scammed them that it was pt test. then some believed while some knew we were scamming. haha. we even make them form up at the start of the 2.4 run line. yongle was like " since you all so confident, then form up at the field. " hahah. we were playing soccer luhx. then we play and then it was darned fun. quite long neh play soccer on field already. i still prefer field soccer than street soccer. i like field more.

yay.

that was training. my last training with part C'09. tommorow is their immersion training.

today was also projects day. kah how quarantine so he dint come. we presented to vincent tan... haha. he say he cannot judge us but then no judge so he no choice had to judge us. then i think we quite pwn la. haha. i think we can get into finals luhx.

okay. i shall go sleep now.

bye bye.

a memorable day
a milestone in my ncc life

scrwed physics

2009-07-13T12:28:00.002+08:00

hi.

i am currently in mrs. rosalind lee's lesson. but then it is too boring. i am sitting right behind her. as in directly behind. but then sometimes or most of the times, english lesson for us is like free period. either everything is damned useless or we totally dun understand what the speaker is babbling about.

just now just had physics test. i dunno whether i am lucky or what. i used the wrong values and wrong equation and i still got the correct answer.

wrong values:
mega = 10^6

the question used 9.00 x 10^3MW. so technically it is 10^3 * 10^6 watts. but i thought mega is 10^4. O.o

the question was asking for the turns in the secondary coil. the answer is 73. but then i also got 73. so i am darned lucky.

wrong equation:
the question required the use of the equation s = ut + 0.5 at^2
so in the end, i will get some quadratic equation that required the use of this:
x = (-b +/- SQR(b^2 - 4 ac) ) / 2a

but i used b^2 - 2 ac instead of b^2 - 4 ac.

luckily i got the correct answer that the Time taken is 7.10s...

lucky like crap...

but i doubt chuasy will give me the marks.

the question about 2 person going down a frictionless slide, i gave a lousy explanation...

srsly, i think i screwed physics up quite badly...

okayz.... mrs. lee is standing right beside me now as i am typing this...

pro not...

okay luhs. basically screwed physics..

bye bye

physics test tmr !

2009-07-12T20:40:00.002+08:00

hi.

this is gonna be a short post. so that i can go and mug for physics test.

okay. this blog is dead. i like writing to myself. okays. but neh mind. to me, i write this for myself to keep a sort of diary of things that happened in life. to me, others reading is a bonus for me. so...

okay. here goes.

tmr is physics test. i can already feel the hysteria. i am going crazy. i dowan to do badly for physics. this test the topics quite okay, except for EM induction. that one i quite scared. and worst thing is tmr first period if physics already. good thing is that i can get over and done with. bad thing is that i have less time to revise. but i doubt anything will go into my head tmr.

okays. so today my mind is flooded with PHYSICS TEST. so now, every second i am thinking that i better not screw up physics test....

oh yea. the next thing popping around my head is pday. pday is creeping nearer. we need to quickly chiong. i hope we don screw up. diem. why everything is so close.

okay. i shall stop procastinating here. cos .... procastination is the theif of time. i wont let it steal mine.

okayz.....

bye bye.
i dowan to screw up physics tmr....

everything is feeling eff-ed up

2009-07-12T00:15:00.002+08:00

hi.

as you can see. i am feeling very eff-ed up. for what ever reason.

okay. let me give you a glimpse of what is racing through my mind.

1. pday: project sunshine.
i don wanna screw up the project. i noe i have to commit and do more but i just aint doin enuf.

2.homework
i have overdue homework waiting for me to clear. chinese compre. chinese yue bao xin de. and many more random stuff like bio SPA 3. bio wksht. srsly i have lost track of homework and it is barely week 2

3.physics test
this is the most eff-ed up. everything is confusing like crap. like everything is magnetic flux here and magnetic flux there. sometime increase sometime the rate increase. sometime have current sometime move away. srsly i am freaking confused.

okay that is only 3 things but it is driving me crazy like the song. drive me crazy.

this is really driving me crazy.

im sorry i can't be perfect

but i will try to.

but now.... i am just feeling damned bottled up. like the world become very small then everything is very cramped. srsly cant stand it anymore.

arggghhh.

i shall find some way to destress. i mean now. if not i will explode.

bye bye.

60th post

2009-07-06T20:32:00.002+08:00

hi.

tmr is finally the start of school. gasps 5 weeks just flew past like that. okay. recount on my 5 weeks.

week 1: camp planning, camp
week 2: SPEC course, RSAF training
week 3: more RSAF trainings, RSAF (last perf.)
week 4: part chalet, postings interviews, more postings interviews

okay. that was pretty much how i spent 5 weeks of my holidays. i barely finished my homework. i complete a bit of everything to aviod getting scolded too much by all the teachers. yar. i left biology EOY papers untouched. like the veronicas liddat. okay. that was lame.

tmr hor, needa wake up at 5.30 agains. sianz. already. i totally don feel like going to school after missing school for 5 weeks straight. although i said that, i don mean school as in the physical thing. but i mean lessons because... i have been back in school every 2-3 days. yup. technically not school holidays but lesson holidays. maybe we should change the name of june holidays.

actually for those that din noe, i took the freaking school bus since sec 1 till term 2 of sec 3, when i moved into boarding school, which essentially means i can crawl to school and still reach there on time. but now. i finally stopped the school bus thingy. i am taking public bus now. sounds damned p6 to sec 1 kids transition talk but it is true. tmr is the first time i took public bus to school.

okay. maybe not the first. i secretly took bus to school during CSM 2008. cos i needed to be there at 6.30 i think. so i took the 5.45 bus. pro right. na. i don think so. i say for fun one.

sianz. now i shall go bathe. and i shall plan to sleep by 2200hours. which means i left 1 hour plus to bathe and pack my school bag, print new term 3 timetable. yea.

okay.

bye bye. : )

ORD creeps nearer with each passing day

2009-07-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

hi.

as you can tell, i am quite emo. cos ORD is comming. for those that dunnoe what ORD is. ORD in army means Operationall Ready Date i think. but no. for us. it means Official Retirement Date. okay. as i am typing this, i already can feel how i would feel on the 10 of july. it is excruciating. maybe kena ditch by girl also not so pain. the girl that ditch you only how long? NCC has been my CCA for 3.5 years now. i am totally sucked into NCC. maybe NCC is my girlfriend. and after 10 july, i am like out of NCC. although i am physically out as in not going to training. but i think i will always remember that i was from this amazing thing called HCINCC. where we train, cry, laugh and have fun.

eee. why i suddenly so emo. but nonetheless, i will feel that way on 10 july.

today was releasing of postings. quite sad. i remember our release of postings. SIR betram was presenting his imba long powerpoint. okay. for some that know, i was falling asleep. cos i really dunnoe what bertram was talking about. maybe too cheem already. but then i "woke up" the moment he said "now i am going to release the posting results"

okay i think this was how it went,

first was PDS Departments. then, PART A, PART B, PART C. then SD.

i was literally jumping in my seat. i dint not noe whether i would be in a training team or not.

then today, i could see the same feeling in some part Cs. jumping in their seats, heads swaying in alternate rows. whoa. damned dey-ja-vu. maybe i spiao wrongly. but wadever. you noe what i mean.

haiz. one year has flew by. all the beginning of NCO-ship talks that we were receiving, now we are giving them.

the training teams met up with their respective current training part's training team.
like:
C'10 TT see the B'09 TT
B'10 TT see the A'09 TT

then they saw they kinda swapped.
C'10 TT see C'09 TT
B'10 TT see B'09 TT
A'10 TT see A'09 TT

yea. fruitful meetings.

we only see the next part C TT. quite fun to talk to them. we quite cock. cos we only tell them our experiences. no hard topics to talk about like cadets. just niao here and niao there and tell them some common pitfalls.

tmr marks the 2nd last day of home learning. but neh mind, we have monday as holiday cos it is YOUTH DAY. then yea.

okay. i think i should go sleep now.

bye bye :)

homelearning = fun + slack + cool

2009-06-30T23:17:00.002+08:00

hi.

the title sounds very oxymoronic. okay. i noe. but it is true. if i were given three words to sum up my experience of home learning for the past two days, i would use fun, slack, cool.

why fun leh?
eh you don go school leh. then all the homework is OTOT one. like the emb only say first two period complete before 10.30. third and fourth period lessons complete by 1.30. therefore, effectively, my days all end at 1.30. which sounds good. but they don end at 1.30. cos i slack here and slack there. then i take valy long breaks. thus, my lessons end like at 5 plus. but i do the essential stuff like quizes and attendance taking first. then the rest OTOT. so i work at my own pace and i like that.. ^^

why slack?
like i said earlier on hor, yea. it is cos i can do stuff at my own pace, like do math no hurry one. can just slowly do. then yea slowly think. i think it is more productive and better than you kena pressure in school hor then must force you to get answer. then when you cannot get it as fast as people like chen yang, then you feel emo. so i think home learning is rather beneficial.

why cool?
actually i donno why i choose cool but i think it is cool. our school tio interview by the press sia. then the Mr. Tan a.ka. chen fu xiao zhang talk in the channel U 11pm news. say until our school damned pro. even if you slacker also feel proud for the school one. so i think home learning is COOL to the MAX.

okay. actually i hate the topic of SEXUAL REPRODUCTION.
mrs. koh gave us this worksheet that required us to name the sexual organs and their parts in detail. okay neh mind. guess what. what. got 2 for each male and female. see hor, she make us label the parts for male and female in the front view and side view of the person.

okay see arh. okay not see. listen arh. okay not listen. look arh. shit also not look. okay i noe already. visualise. visualise arh.

page 1:
shows you a male then they zoom into the groin there. then hor go inside. then label.
this is called FRONT VIEW.

page 2: [ i see liao hor i sian like crap ]
shows you a male again. as if i neh see enough. then this time different. you noe what. SIDE VIEW. then she show the guy from the side and yea. label. this time different. got the balls hanging there like dunnoe what. srsly wth.

page 3:
shows you a chio bu. okay not chio bu. if not i would love bio. it is just some cartoon. okay not cartoon. it is just a random picture of a female standing there. then front view.

page 4: [ see liao feel like tearing the paper up ]
shows you the same female. now she hor like model leh. can rotate one. then change to side view. dunnoe for what EFF. then ask you label the female reproductive organs. like for whaT???? i even have those things???? i need to know until so detail for????

page 5:
ask you random stuff like:

"the ovary releases ova into the oviduct once every ___ to ___ days"

hello. i not girl leh. i really will know. then your notes neh put. i am suppose to do what? ask my frens arh. zzz. like damned weird.

hi
may i noe how long is your period

or what go internet search average period length????

i totally find this topic damned lame. somemore hor, this topic is like P5 teach till now. every year get more sick. every year teach same stuff. like. "what it the important male hormone?" please la. that one hor. i learnt in SEC 1.

sians sia.

then today desmond best. mrs. lee told us to write a response he go write essay post on the wikispace. then tio niao by her. "...looks more like an essay ready for submission to me..."
hahah

desmond arh desmond. there is this hokkien saying hor.

"kiang jiu ho, mai kei kiang."

i translate for you. it basically means. smart can already. don act smart.
people ask you write response, write something like a response. go write dunnoe what essay. zzz.

okay. just now i just came back from clementi. was discussin stuff with mr. bobby wi about Carnival stuff, AAF, Tuition, Financial Assistance schemes. i think it is quite meaningful to sit down with mr. wi. he will entertain you with all his stories. i think he would make a fantastic grandfather. srsly. then yea quite productive.

okay. gtg.

bye bye

slack sunday

2009-06-28T20:37:00.002+08:00

hi.

today was quite boring. woke up at 10 plus. went to see doctor. don ask me why. okay. i say. then you wont ask me why. cos my stomach have problem. chinese medicine sucks to the max. srsly.

then went to see my nai-nai. recovering liao. but stil not veh good.

since tmr is homelearning, i am still in holiday mode. which means i still have homework not done. example. math. example. chinese.

oh yea. i still havent done this week's yue bao xin de. maybe quite bad. i gonna do after i finish this post.

i just finished watching the channel news asia show. the perfect disaster.

quite scary. all the super hurricane, solar storms....

scaring me like hell. scaring me like hell cos they predict the solar storm to occur in 2012. wtf. then they still here making this freaking documentary. donno how to go take precautionary measures arh. zzz. later man kind all die then they noe.

okay. i shall not waste time anymore. i shall go do my chinese stuff..

bye bye
- tmr is homelearningYAY!

homelearning ftw

2009-06-27T18:50:00.004+08:00

hi.

yay. the homelearning has been activated. shyh horng told me last night at like 12 plus. then i checked. then WHOALA. yay. activated.

which means effectively, i have another one week plus 1 day of holiday. cos next monday is youth day. should be holiday also. so another 8 more days extra.

yay.

today was total slack. did nothing but sleep and eat.

woke up at like 10, then went to eat.

then hor, came back at 11 plus. then sleep until 2.

then went to AMK hub to slack.
saw troy and darren and alex. apparently, they were there to treat alex dinner???

alex broke meh? lolx.

later going to eat but i dunnoe where.

orientation video:
posted by yang cheng.
actually it was like in january i think. forgot the date already.
anyways.
here:

and i was looking at jun kiat's blog and i found this:

farni like bird.

laughing till i drop. srsly.

lolx.

bye bye

rsaf '09

2009-06-24T20:21:00.006+08:00

hi.

rsaf went very well on sunday. actually wanted to blog about rsaf on sunday. but found that i was too tired. then came monday, went to school for part Cs interviews and left for chalet. tuesday, i came back for chalet and went for tuition. again too tired. wednesday, which is wednesday, finally had time and energy after the interviews to blog.

today, went to school late again. then had interview for part Cs. lunch-ed at market again. came back to school to do some homework. quite productive. did SRQ. later went to AMK hub with yongle. haha. did something there. not illegal one. haha. suspense rite.

came home and ate pow sing chicken rice. haha. nice like crap.

rsaf'09:

main: no screw-ups or wadever. perfect.
march out: no screw ups. except triple jumbo ugly. and the double handers lagged.

quite happy with myself for the last performance of my life
okay. i shall post the video here:
the guy at the extreme right here in the video now ( when it is paused ) is me. !!! beside me is solomon and yongle.

this is zai canx.

okay. first time i somewhere near the front. but shyh horng is front man. pro kiaz.

but quite nice luh.

but the video veh weird. when you try to type in HCINCC cannot find the video but can only find when you type in THESHYHHORNG. hahahahhaha.

lolx.

thats all.

tmr still have interview. this time with mr. XXX sai kia.
the XXX is maybe L
A
U

lolx lar.

bye bye.
-watching don forget the lyrics.

full circle

2009-06-16T23:35:00.003+08:00

hi.

yupps. like what my title suggests.... it is a full circle. not the moon. the. okay. it is the PDS career. i think quite lousy luh for my PDS career.

fyi, my first performance was rsaf'07. which is also known as my virgin performance. hahah. sounds wrong but it is correct. now, my last performance is rsaf'09. i have no name for the last one. maybe it is called last performance. yea. maybe.

okay that aside. today went to hqncc to draw uniform for rsaf. no.3. quite coool. my 3 thumb wearing this no.3 liaoz. oh yea. rsaf'07 is my first time. then now it is my last thumb. other performances like AC'08 we wear the no.3 belt. but for the rsaf'09 and '07 hor, we wear the white white big big one. abit cool niaz.

okay. that took like one hours plus. the auntie is valy nice also. at hq hor valy lucky sia. bring something in then neh tio kp. actually should not bring one. but aiya. daniel also bring. then since daniel then i also lor. the guard is chinese high. thats why neh check. i went in with jiajun who was camping at the gate when the rest are already inside. haha. lolx. cos he dunnoe they are inside.

at the gate:
me & jiajun walk walk walk.
the guard: eh. you all two go where arh?
me: hqncc.
the guard: oooooo. okieee.. then you all have contraband items with you?
me: erm....erm..... ah....
jiajun[immediately] : no
me: erm...erm....

another guard to the guard talking to us:
other guard: eh neh mind lar. chinese high boy wont lie one.
the guard: realliii arh... whoaa...
the guard: kkk neh mind i don check you all

zzz. the guard abit pro liaoz.

but thx man the other guard.

after drawing then went tuition. sians.

then when to Orchard Central to eat. the big big new new shopping centre near the bungee jumping there. went to watch bungee jumping. it is freaking scary. one moment you are here, the next you are in the sky going "AHHHHHHHHHH"

then went home.

then watch the tv. the 10 o'clock show on channel u.

i realised something. bernice liu the actor looks like somebardy which i shall not name.

haha. i noe that was lame and lame and ultimate lame.

okay i think that was lamer.

:p

kkk. tmr got trainingz. shall go sleep.

bye bye.

ex-RSM and SPEC course

2009-06-09T23:37:00.002+08:00

hi people.

today is 2 days after HCINCC Mid Year Camp 2009. It was rather cool. i mean to be a RSM. Regimental Sergeant Major. Sounds cool but actually all you do is co-ordinating and planning and more co-ordinating and more planning. and also you need to shout at people occasionally. like maybe part As that dont learn and keep asking your rank when you told them 5 secs ago.

some part As are srsly veh irritating.

5 secs ago,
Good morning company. welcome to HCINCC mid year camp 2009. i am your RSM.

now,
part A: "errrr..... permission to know rank....???"
me: "REGIMENTAL SERGEANT MAJOR... YOU GOT A PROBLEM WITH THAT???"
part A: "errrr.....yes.... aRRReeSSSeMMM

5 secs later,
me: "COS, conduct muster parade"
part A: "errr.... permission to know rank...??"

seriously, the part As either have lousy memory or they are just plain stupid and defient.

part Cs were not bad through out the camp. good job.
part Bs did not perform up to standard. i dont know why. so many chances were given to them but they threw them all away.
part As were the most problematic batch i have ever seen... srsly

and one more thing, this camp would not have been this camp, without CLT junkai....

drumroolllll prease....

"SEEEEE EMMMMM AAAAAIIIIIII !!!!!"
"WHOOOLE COMPANY SEEEE EMMMMM AIIII !!!!!!!"
"YOU ALL DON SHOUT NCC AFTER YOU KELUAR BARIS.... YOU ALL NOT FITTTT TO BE CALLED NCCCCC.... NNNOOOOOOTTTT FFFFIIIIIT!!!!!!!"
"COMPANY.... The day you all book out.... 7 of june.... i want all of you to go beach road to pull off your HWACHONG tag. nobardy is fit to wear the HWACHONG tag"
"THIS IS DDDEEEEE WOOOORRRSSSTTT COMPANY I HAVE EVER SEEEEN !!!!"
"THIISSS IS NNOOOT MY COMPANY... ALLLLLL SEEE EEEMMMM AIIIII!!!"

you all read liao also eye pain. but we worse. we listen liao ear pain.

haha.

that was camp. quite screw actually. but i shall reserve this for the AAR tmr.

CURRENTLY:
Part Cs are at SPEC course phase 2.
where i was 1 year ago.

and according to junkai, they are doing well...

jiayou part Cs. pwn the you-know-who-cos-i-cant-say-cos-later-tio-kp...
get used to the environment and pwn them !!!

okay camp was qutie fun luh.
all the farni stuff that happen.

okays after all this camp and SPEC course and stuff....

i have come to the most important part of this post.

it is about XXXX XXXXX.

okay.
first thing. she is hot and chio.
damned chio those kind.
those that is srsly one in a million.

if i were to use a phrase to describe her.
the word would be:

THE GIRL OF MY DREAMS

srsly.
that is the only phrase that can describe her. no other words can

but sadly....
someone told me that she likes someone else...

you know what...

that just spells 'the end of my world'

srsly. the only song that can describe my huilings now is
"HERE WITHOUT YOU BABY"

and my world has just been gripped by this overpowering sense of emo-ness and emptiness and like what i said earlier on,

it spells

THE END OF THE WORLD...

ARGGGHHHHGHHGHGHGHGHGHGH.....

i wanna go kill that guy.

okay okay. killing that guy is not real. i wont do that kind of retarded stuff...
i will only burn him and torture him till he is half dead and do torture him all over again like there is no tmr.

haha.

:p

okay.
enuf of emo-ness..

but she will still be in my dreams.

never thought i would fall in love love love...
but it grew from a simple crush crush crush...

its like insomnia... oh oh oh..
its like insomnia... oh oh oh..

okay. time to go sleep.
tmr got camp AAR and i am gonna chiong ihc homework.
and i am going school to niao the basic pds course people and have a good laugh...
hahha

-bye bye
the girl of my dreams

csm performance training & open house '09

2009-05-17T01:04:00.002+08:00

hi.

today was open house '09. this is the largest scale event that the part Cs have taken up so far. i think that they have done a superb job, despite the screw ups here and there. they managed to overcome all the odds and come up with a fantastic booth.

GOOD JOB PART Cs!

arrived in school at 7.4o plus. then changed into No.3.

talked to Mr. Eddie Lau for quite a while for many matters.

then went for performance self training.

went to lunch at 11.45 almost 12.

went to eat golden rooster.

the food was nice but something else is nicer.

i think yongle, daniel and joash will know what i talking about.

maybe the thing is something that starts with "G" and ends with "S".

so many nice ones.

whoa. besides eating golden rooster still have them. whoa.

PERFECT LUNCH !

then went back to performance training.

training was dissapppointing for everyone.

screw ups here and there and everywhere just except nowhere.

i think we should all see that CSM '09 is very very close.

if you wanna screw up, then just go screw yourself first.

the performance is relatively screwed.

put in more effort guys.

ended quite late.

then went home. ate.

MAN UTD DRAWS WITH ARSENAL !!!!

YAY!!!

MAN UTD HAVE UNOFFICIALLY WON THE EPL.

WHOOTS. WHOOTS. WHOOTS.

crowned.

kk..

very late liao.

i should go sleep

bye bye

bored.

2009-05-10T20:02:00.002+08:00

feeling super bored now. sitting in front of the TV. watching Willy Wonka, the freaking gay crap. speaks like one, acts like one.

this weekend quite cool and also quite shuang.

yesterday had training. CSM formation training is cool man. it is so deja-vu of CSM '08. it also seems so NDP. the field. the way clock tower looks from there. the majestic look of the terraces. unforgettable.

NDP '07: i was right marker. marched out on my own to the field with the scout on my right. hentataki-ed in the middle of the school field. however, we got screwed after the NDP for screwing up too much.

CSM '07: i was the reserve, with kenji and nick pek. so we just camped at the terraces. but occassionally, we would go to the field to do drills. so fun to talk to kenji and nick pek for so long. we practically talking throughout the trainings.

NDP '08: i was in the GOH contingent. marching behind ACY. who went to shit 15 mins before the NDP began. it was totally pro. we looked damned pro and damned co-ordinated cans. it was the feeling of high-ness. i still remember what the EMCEE said. "...they even took the initiative to set up a Centre of Excellence of PDS. The Part C cadets attained 100% 2SGs.... Presenting to you, the MEN IN GREEN."

CSM '08: i was finally in CSM. Trained for damned long under the hot sun. was also in the march out. the song was bon jovi's have a nice day. it was cool to perform to Bon Jovi. Then we were told that the CSM performance was cancelled and that there wasn't a performance at all. so we had wasted all out efforts. we did marshalling during CSM. that was te shittiest thing i have done in my NO.4 i tell you. marshalling during CSM.

NDP '09: i was in GOH again. according to tradition, i was supposed to be the flag bearer or the commander for the pandan-kekanan. but somehow, i was in GOH contingent. i do not wish to talk about that cos it is not nice to. GOH was cool actually. there was actually a picture of me and a few part Cs. ( jian sheng and xin chuan )

this was all the experiences that i had on the field up till now. CSM '09 will be the last edition to the list.

i was just looking through the photos taken during the tan kah kee drama and i found this:

hahah. i look ridiculous. but shyh looks nice. hahaha. that was at lau pat sat at like 11 plus. hahah we went to eat supper after the drama.

lolx.

still bored...

i don feel like doing mdm chan's homework and chuasy's physics wksht and also filing liang lao shi's chinese file.

i am uber lazy today.

din do anything today.

hahah.

still bored....

man utd playing man city now.

they are currently leading 1-0.

whoots.

gogogo.

-still bored....

cool day

2009-05-08T23:29:00.002+08:00

today was a day with ups and downs.

firstly, today was bio test. you noe. the stewpid test that tested me on 3 big topics. this is totally unethical. and it also tested last year's topic. so in conclusion, alot to mug and i barely managed to finish mugging the topics for the test.

the test started late. thanks to many things. pro ed people late from assembly, CA discussion ending late and random people going to the toilet. Then the test started. at first, quite okay. then as i did it, the questions became harder and harder. the last question, i was practically staring at the question for 5 mins before having a very vague impression of what the answer might be.

then ya. i think i screwed it up.

then this was the only down.

butnonetheless, it is still with a lot of ups.

then after this got screwed by miss sunita for being late and screwing up her plans for the class. she got so pissed i dunnoe why. we had test mah. what can we do lolx.

aiya. i think just go do her homework then can liao lar.

then went for training.

no lar. there wasnt training because todau is EP3 standdown day. so no CCA. but the part Ds were down for camp planning. hahahha. although it was quite slow. but things still got done.

then went to play soccer. quite fun. but only a while. then saw bertram organising something for the takweondo CCA stuff. haha. quite cool to actually see bertram with someone other than a guy. hahha. no lar. just rare.

then talked to the part Cs for like 1 hour plus. then bus-ed home. the talk was damned lame. it was about everything under the sun can. SPEC Course to girls to CSM.

then when i alighted at my house bus stop, i got stalked by this old guy. damned scary. he keep asking me to buy stuff from him. damned scared. just chiong home.

then went to eat a cassurina. i think that is how you spell that thing.

then tmr got training. hope it doesn't rain and dont screw up the performance.

lolx.

got loads of homework to do.

arghhhh..

Pre Labour Day YAY!

2009-04-30T20:28:00.002+08:00

hi people.

as you can see ,or visually inspect, the blogskin has been changed. yay. dont ask me where i kope from. yes i did i kope from somewhere one. but one thing. the words in grey on top are penned by me. me and me alone. i did not kope that.

haha.

today was quite crappy. but the best thing ever was the absence of the MOST FAVOURITE PHYSICS teacher, [she-who-shall-not-be-named-in-case-i-tio-demerit-points]. ya. she was absent. OOOPPPPs. i should have said that. my reaction should be damned she is not here :]

haha. and the relief teacher was quite crappy also. whole lesson dunnoe what she talking about. later got Faraday, later got this weirdo Lenzer. Then she is perma losing our class' attention.

we were playing with Magnets more than writing. leonard and yingze were trying to magnetise their stapler. ??? wth.

and yea i should have started with CSC. it was quite okay and rather nice today. cos the teacher nice mah. as in literally nice. and then the topic is quite understandable. China Studies in Chinese is starting to look and seem nice. ha.

then was english. i was sleeping through Mrs. Rosalind Lee's lesson. sorreh Mrs. lee but it was just too boring.

then assembly. HSC's student forum. not bad lar. just that Mr. Ng went to screw the 4A1 people. srsly dunnoe what is wrong with them. go weirdo the assembly. simply retarded.

then chinese. liang lao shi was not here but we chionged the chinese essay. quite okay also.

then lunched. first time in i think 2 years that i ever patronised the chicken rice stall. but today i bought chicken rice and fried noodles. so, i only eat that stall 2 times in two years. but leonard is starting the chicken rice day. hahahahahahah. every thursday is chicken rice day. ahahhaha. me and ting yit are the first and second followers. ahahhaha.

then bio lesson was boring but the time just flew past. i simply dint learn any bio from Mrs. Koh. she spent like half an hour scolding people.

then chionged back boardin school to pack stuff and then chioned home. on the bus, was two retarded NJC people. just dun wan to move in. then the bus uncle had to shout at them. srsly stupid. Jc liao still dunnow how to take bus.

then went to run 10.8km. quite fun liao. took 57 mins. okay. i noe that is freaking slow.

i shall run that more often.

after that went to eat dinner and yea.

plans for later:

- do finished Mdm Chan's geog homework
- mug Physics
- mug Chem
- mug Bio
- do math homework

tmr got project sunshine meeting.

hmmmm.

what drink should i take now?

coke?tiger?apple juice?pepsi?

aiya i take coke lar.

zzzz.

The Excruciating Wait

2009-04-24T23:36:00.000+08:00

Sitting here, thinking of you.
It breaks my heart to accept that i have lost you.
Maybe you feel for me? I wonder if you.
But the truth is, i havent gotten over you.

Sometimes it suddenly dawns upon me, that this wait is pointless.
But living without you, my life is meaningless.
People tell me that my wait is worthless.
But my love for you is endless.

With each passing day, you turn colder.
The wounds in my heart gets exponentially deeper.
I wonder if i would ever get stronger?
But in my heart, you always linger.

That special place in your heart will i ever get?
Or should i spend my time trying my best just to forget?

-jordy

24/04/2009

11.36pm

to err is human, to forgive divine.

2009-03-28T18:15:00.004+08:00

hi.

i am feeling very bored now.

not as if i have nothing to do but ... i am just feeling lazy ...

the bsc february batch people are back now. haha. hi shyh horng, yongle, troy and kenji. and monday will be the day that the march batch are leaving. people i know that are going: chong yee, zhi hao, wei cher, yu jie, paxton and yan seng. good luck people.

friday was quite sians. i noe that i should not have done that. i jolly well knew. but i did it. i noe it is my fault. i really noe. i noe apologies do nothing. a thousand and one will do no difference. all i can do now is to show it by actions. i hope that you can give me a chance. but if you don't, i wont blame you because i have no right to. all i can do is in the future, if you don't give me a chance for the future then i have nothing to say. you might have heard this word a million times now but i will still say it. sorry. i really mean it whether you believe or not.

enough of that.

my phone is on strike. it suddenly works and suddenly doesn't. i just feel like smashing it.

things to do:
mug Chinese.
mug IHC.
mug Math.
mug Bio.
mug Chem.

practically almost everything.

this week was a short week. wednesday was founders day. so went to school to see and clap for the AREA and OSA people. found it quite fei. was mugging instead.

clementi food drive is coming up.
and we havent done quite many things.

gather manpower.
brieing for them.
allocation of manpower.

okay.

i gonna do some bio now.

bye bye.

第一学段的第五周与第六周

2009-02-14T23:08:00.014+08:00

大家好。

对不起，上个星期实在太忙了。有许多测验，所以没时间。今天是情人节。我在这里向大家说

情人节快乐！

今天的铁人比赛实在很令人失望。我不想在这里说不愉快的事情因为今天是情人节。这个星期有很多测验。星期一有化学测验，星期四有生物学与人文测验。

星期一，勇了和世宏就要去北京了。祝他们在那里玩得开心。哈哈。

现在正在读化学的笔记。

再见
告辞。

hi.

happy

valentines

day !

yup. last week din post cos got spammed with test.
actually this week also tio spammed with tests.

monday : CHEMISTRY
Thursday : IHC & BIO

currently mugging for CHEM.

Die liaoz. seriously. i think i gonna get damned lousy.

then i think last week the geog also dead.

today's ironman was bullshit.

went there to screw up.

obviously din get in.

then imba thing : the NY girls got in.

srsly damned imba.

i think i should go and die. too lousy lose to girl in IRONMAN COMPETITION.

GIRL PWNS BOYS.

WTH.

WTH.

neh mind lar.

i shall not turn into a sour grape.

yong le and shyh horng are going to bsc already. on monday.

sorry lar. i cant go today.

but i will call you on monday. on your phone hor.

then i wish you all go there and have fun.

ahhhaahahaha.

i think quite hard cos it is school term.

try to have fun hor.

i shall go mug chem now.

bye bye.

happy valentines day !

第一学段的第四周

2009-02-01T20:44:00.001+08:00

你好
今天是以各普普通通的星期天。昨晚，我开了夜车，把数学的一些练习做完了。所以今天比较晚起来。12点。起来就一口气吃下了早餐也午餐。歇了一会儿，就开始读生物学的一些笔记。从一点多做到4点。时间是很长，但是我的进步不时很理想。做一回儿就觉得累，就去走走。所以在4点多就去躺一躺。不知不觉地就睡了一个小时。5点起来就继续去读。读到5点半左右就去冲凉。过后就去吃饭。吃乐就去准备回去宿舍。哈哈。准备后就在这里了。希望我没有忘了这个忘了那个。
今天回去宿舍就会去读数学。因为下个星期五就是测验了。一定要拿到A1。今年第一个数学测验，非要A1不可。我快要去宿舍了。多2分钟就要出发了。

途中。。。

到了宿舍，我就去找我的心爱的军鞋。但是我找不到。应该是不见了吧。嗨。穿了四年，已经有感情了。明天我们要去一间小学去问问他们是否要让我们举行筹食物的活动。
不说了。现在是夜自习时间。
再见了
告辞。

today is like sunday again. means foing back to boarding school. yar. today quite screwed. cos i slept at 2 yesterday. not playing game. not talking to girls. i don do such stuff till so late. actually i don also. not so frequently. i was doing the pretest for maths. it is quite hard.

then today woke up at lke 12. so i slept for 10 hours. then yar. woke up and ate lunch and breakfast together. then went to read bio and stuff. i still have ihc and math to do lor. but just too tired to do anymore stuff.

then yar slept from 4 plus to 5 plus. then ate dinner. bathed. and then packed for boarding school. then went to boarding school. type the chinese half way then went to boarding school.

went to boarding school.

then alot of people. cos got new comer.

yar.

then i tried to find my boots but i cannot find it.

tmr i am gonna ask yongle for the key to find it.

yar.

i am doing this during study period. so... i shall stop here.

bye bye

第一学段的第三周

2009-01-25T12:07:00.002+08:00

大家好。

新年快乐！

不用说吧？今天是除夕。星期五会到了母校。一切都变了，环境变了，气氛变了，老师也变了。不要问我为什么。我自己也不知道。总之，一些都变得好陌生。这一切的边让我觉得我自己踏进了一个完全陌生的地方。可能是我太在乎以往，所以才会有这种感觉。但无论如何我也得接受事实，世界是一个充满变化的地方，有如“沧海桑田”之感觉。

今天我一大早就爬起来去吃早餐。吃了之后便去“報新”取已定好的烧腊。现在，便坐在电脑前。其实，今天我有一种“什么都不想做”的感觉。等一下，我要去准备生物学辩赛的资料。过后，便去处理一些《阳光之旅，从心开始》的事。然后，我也要去找找一些有关地理的资料与读一读人物学与地理的课堂笔记与资料。

看起来很多吧？但这样也好，至少有事情给我忙。嗨。多几个小时就是新的一年了。牛年到了！

让我借这个机会来与你们拜个早年。

新年快乐！恭喜发财！心想事成！学业进步！身体健康！年年有余！

我现在便去忙了！

告辞。

hi.

today is the eve of chinese new year. for the greetings and stuff pls refer to the chinese version. where there are 6 idioms or wadever you call it to wish you a happy new year.

went back to primary school on friday. everything is changed. the environment, the feeling and the people. dunno why i have this feeling but i think it is because i hang on too tightly to the past and don like to embrace change. even NCC is changing, should i? or should i hang on tightly to the past? but after all, memories are all i need. irony isn't it?

later got quite many things to do.

1. prepare stuff for debate on smoking

2.settle the admin stuff for project sunshine.

3.find geog articles for my newspaper clipping file.

4.mug the geog and biology notes and if can make notes for them.

yupps.

as you can see i am going to be quite busy for the last day before the lunar new year.

haiz.

i think i should get going.

bye bye.

第一学段的第二周

2009-01-18T12:53:00.004+08:00

你好

今天又是星期天了。不到几个小时我即将会回到学校宿舍。一个星期有这样的过了。上个星期四是倚天屠龙记的大结局。我也起他朋友们在孙老师的房间看了最后一集。我认为结局非常美满。张无忌最后跟了赵敏过着美好的日子，而周芷若便改邪归正，又成了峨嵋派的掌门人。看了之后，便去睡了。我的兄弟敬凯把整部戏诘给我看。哈哈。谢谢你！

这个星期比较忙，有数学功课，化学功课还有地理功课。嗨。还真惨啊。周末是给人来休息的吗。嗨。没办法。明天即将是我第一个测验。华文。根本不能去读的。刚才，我做完了化学的功课。现在只剩下地理的功课。

最近发生了一些不理想的事情。我也不想在此多淡，免的伤了人家的感情。我只想说，这些是谁都不想发生。发生了我也不好受，不要把全部的责任对给自己。想说的我也说了，就让我们来想尽办法来解决问题吧。

我有其他事须我去处理。
我就在此与你道别啦。

告辞。

hi people,

as promised the last time. i shall be effectively bilingual. now i shall blog in english. LOL. this week was rather hectic and screwed for me. Monday had meeting with Anthony. Tuesday had tuition with shyh horng at TLL and food distribution at clementi. Wednesday had training. Thurday had nothing much and Friday had training and a long long talk.

tuition with shyh horng is rather farnny. LOL. he will start to cock with you until i dunnoe what. then got one girl fake excuse for homework. damn fake. we all saw through and shyh horng was like. "she totally scammed hahahhahahahahahahah. bloody fake can. hahahha" hahaha. that was rather farnny. after that the food distribution very farnny also. wo almost called a teenager uncle. LOL. cos bertram told us to address the person as uncle. then we neh see properly that a teenager open the door. then we go call him uncle. LOL. i bet he was bloody pissed. LOL.

this week had rather many homework. chem, geog and math. finished everything except geog. and i am gonna find my second article. also mus bring report book. and also need to do the biology ace on the smoking debate. hai. so many things to do.

something happened that was not desirable. i dont want to mention it here. but i just did. okay., fine. i dont want to mention the details and the ppl involved. i just wouldnt be nice. just wanna tell you that you should not put all the responsibility to yourself.

i shall go continue my homework and other random stuff.

until my next bilingual post.

bye bye

第一学段的第一周

2009-01-10T18:29:00.003+08:00

大家好

第一学段的第一周已经过了。说真的，我还真不习惯。在上很早就要就要从梦乡里迷迷糊糊的爬起来去上学。嗨。真不知道何时才会习惯。当然，我是希望越早越好。这还用说吗？哈哈。昨天是我校学生军的第一个陪训。我终于等到这一天了！我真的恨不得把时间调快些。知道我为什么这么期望培训开始吗？原因很简单，我只剩下那短短的六个月来去培训。转眼间，从“甲组”到现在都已经有4年了。我真的希望能用原在学生军，但我知道那一天总会来的。我只能把握现在剩余的短短6个月。

别说学生军的是了。其实，这一周我也没有做什么。都是上学，学习，下学，做功课，明天又上学。。。我觉得我的学习旅途太淡了，一点也不精彩。我今年的目标是在第三学段前把主动学习做完。所以，现在我都在争取机会来做主动学习。物理，数学，人文，等等我都在做。嗨。现在有个问题，那就是没时间。除了这些，我还有专题作业与功课。嗨。

明天早上，我会到“金文泰”去整理一些关于专题作业的事情。我预料下一周将会是一个匆匆忙忙的一周。在宿舍，我都会很晚睡。我想应该是有朋友吧。他们没有睡，所以我也没有去睡。大概是这样吧。下一周，我将把早睡为我的目标。

我还有功课还没有做完。现在我要去晚餐了。

告辞

2009-01-03T23:09:00.002+08:00

大家好。

今天，我无所事事的过了一天。完全没有做到有意义的事。早上到了义顺去吃早餐。不要问我为什么去那里吃，是我父母带我去的。哈哈。因为我的小弟在那里练习保龄球。现在知道了吧？哈哈。

12点多便返回家。到家就睡到3点。我知道我知道。我很懒。3点多起来后便到了“amkHUB ”。到了那里，我便从麦当劳买了饮料。过后，就在那里读书。我今天学了“Differentiation ”。这科目挺好读的。也很有趣。哈哈。我今天只做了这一件属于有意义的事。真失败。16岁了还不会充分的利用时间，白白过了一天。

回到家，就继续睡到7点半左右。就起来吃饭。吃了就坐在电视前，直到现在。明天我就要搬进学校的宿舍。所以明天会忙着整理东西来准备带去宿舍。说真的，我不知道，我突然不想回去宿舍。可能是家太温暖了。哈哈。

相我昨天所言，我昨天是第一次穿长裤上学。所以，我和几个朋友照了照片。

第一和第二片是我和冠毅的合照。最后一片是我，冠毅与世宏的合照。哈哈。

我要在这里跟“乙组”说“加油！”。因为他们星期三有表演，所以我要让他们知道我们都在支持他们。

加油！

今天就到这里。

告辞。

开学第一天

2009-01-03T01:14:00.010+08:00

大家好。

今天是学校开学第一天。其实，说实在的，今天似乎是假期似的，根本没有上学的“气氛”。大概是因为今天是我们“CSE Orientation ” 的第一天。就像我们副校长所言，“today is to let you warm up for the year ”。换一番话来说就是给我们时间来准备自己来迎接今年的新挑战。

今天，我5点45分就从床里爬出来。慢慢地刷牙洗脸，准备早餐。然后，爸就开车送我去学校。穿着长裤还真不习惯！今天也是我第一天穿白鞋上学。从小学，我都穿黑鞋上学。哈哈。没猜到吧？今天的升旗礼出现了多多种种的错误与失手。我们今年的第一个升旗礼就这样带着多多种种的错误过了。嗨。太不应该了。

今天也是学生军今年第一个培训。“乙组”今天的表现不是很理想，我相信他们的能力远远超过了今天的表现。加把劲去努力吧！你们很快就要升上“丙组”了!今天，我成天都想着睡觉。真不知道为什么。嗨。我看我也要多睡些。

星期一的节目于今天的不会有太大的分别。所以，说真的，我是很不想上学的。嗨。但是，我已经是中四了，应该为学弟们设立好榜样。所以，再不想去也都非去不可。下一周就会正式开始上课。

今天8点多才到家。冲了凉，整理书包，都快要9点了。我9.30才跟家人去吃饭。吃到10点多就返回家了。在用电脑时，我一个不小心踩到了电脑的电线，就把我的电脑给摔了一下。还好没有大碍。真是谢天谢地。我真的是很不小心。差点就摔坏了两千多块！

过后，就看了“倚天屠龙记”。现在，我不从土豆网看了。我现在将把整部戏从megaupload下载。哈哈。不应该说。但写了，就算了。

天色已晚，我也该去睡了。

告辞。

2009年你好！

2009-01-01T15:48:00.004+08:00

大家好。

今天是2009年的第一天。欣奋吧？不会吗？应该是昨晚庆祝时玩了太起劲了吧？哈哈！我是在说自己。昨天我到朋友的家玩得太“猛”了。整整玩了一个时辰的 wolfteam。那游戏也算是挺“刺激”的。玩了玩，不知不觉地就玩了一个时辰。差点儿都忘了过年了。哈哈。

就像我昨天所言，我今天的心情还是有点儿伤心，也有点儿欣奋。嗨。新的一年有开始了。一转眼，2008就飘过了。去年，我是整年无所事事地过了。说来是无所事事但也是没有白过一年。去年也发生了不少精彩之事。比如，到了宿舍生活了3个月，成为了“二等检察官”，成了今年“ 丙队”的副助理领袖，去北京的卫星学校生活了6 个星期，等等。我会永远记得这些美好时光。

今年对我和朋友们非常重要。因为今年如果学业上搞不好的话，就会有极大的麻烦。不知道为什么？今年我和朋友们都升上了中四。虽然没有会考，但我们今年年底的成绩会决定2010年是否能升上华初的高一。今年的压力可不小哦！

明天将会是我第一次穿长裤去学校。好欣奋啊！从中一起，我们都在等待这一天。想不到这一天将会是明天！今天与明天还隔着15小时多。嗨。我恨不得跃到明天去了。哈哈。耐心耐心。我穿上新校服总觉得怪怪的。真不习惯！但我觉得久而至就会习惯了。

好吧。我先在正赶着去准备我的“第三号”。哈哈。猜不到？我明天有学生军的培训。哈哈。

告辞。
真期待明天！

2008-12-31T16:05:00.003+08:00

你好。

今天是2008年的最后一天。我感到有些伤心，也感到有些兴奋。伤心的是因为我们很快就好跟2008年道别了。但同时，我们也要迎接新的一年。我不知道2009年会带来什么，但只知道他即将会是更好的一年。“新年，新希望”倒有听过吧？

过了今天，我年龄便会增大一岁，成了16岁。16岁对很多人都会充满惊喜。怎么说呢？比如，从明年开始我就能正式的踏入桌球场所。再打个比方，从明年开始，我就能光明正大地去看NC-16的电影。不是我没有看过，但是明年我可以光明正大的进去看。分别于光明正大。

多了一岁，责任也多了。当我们越长越大，我们周围的人都会对我们有更多的期望。16岁了。也不必多说。对我的期望也会不少。多了一岁，便多了这么多的东西。责任，期望。。。这也是合情合理。长大了总得成熟一些，像样一些。

由于今天是2008年的最后一天，98.7fm 频道有了特别的节目。那就是“2008年最佳100首歌”。原本，我怀了把它们全都记下来的念头，但想了想便决定更好的利用时间。比如，清理房间等等。反正都快要过年了，就趁现在有余的时间来整理整理。

傍晚，我会到我朋友的家去过年。就趁这机会祝大家一个“新年快乐”。

不管你会不会喜欢明年，他总会来。与其过年过得那么辛苦，不如想开点，“新的一年，新的挑战，新的你我”。

如果我的华语不太好，请别见怪。我会努力的。

告辞。

2008-12-30T22:53:00.009+08:00

大家好。

今天是我第一次在我博客中用华语。还真不习惯。不过，我相信时间就了便会慢慢习惯。今天与每一天都似乎没有分别，也是很晚起身。差不多1点多。我先在正要赶去看“倚天屠龙记”。虽然我已经看完正部戏了，但我还要再看。我还没有准备我的“第四号”。一边看，一边准备。

这是“倚天屠龙记”的主题歌：

醉春风
我醉春风
初次见面两人齐齐心动
情网中看不一样的天空
我张开心胸
无情的人笑我痴
我笑无情的人懵懂
我愿意在她手掌之中
醉春风
我醉春风
忍了冲动她又让我感动
伤她心我是万万不能
我愿意在她手掌之中
不要坏我大义
我会倚天屠龙
但愿情义交融
让我有始有终
不要坏我大义
我会倚天屠龙
但愿情义交融
让我有始有终
让我有始有终

后会有期。
告辞。

2008-12-29T20:47:00.003+08:00

hi.

today was training for orientation again. quite sians already lar. but so what. still have to do a good job for orientation. but today was not bad lar. go training got troy's bak gua to eat. not arh gua. hahahz. quite nice. still got flavour. actually i dunnoe got flavour. until yu jie tell me. i was like heck care lar. got bak gua just eat lor.

then today the performers for the orientation pds finally have a confirmed performance liaoz. i mean not many changes more to the drills and staggerings and stuff. i was not there but we all watched the last performance.

suppose to buy uniform. i bought already. but not me. jit woon but for me luhs. cos i have training mah. then cannot leave. jit woon going for pt then shun bian buy for me lor.

today got some dance camp or something. then they were like giggling at us. when the part bs fall in they all stare. shout too loud already. then after that when we having debrief, they eating lunch. then they got extra. so they give us.

the gay guy : " we have some extra packets of rice. around 19. do you mind if we give you. we don wanna waste food. so do you mind?"
me : "sure. the more the merrier."

then we ate lunch then me yongle and shyh horng discussed some stuff. then we got this new idea luhs. shyh horng doing soloist drills. hahah. the sequence havent confirmed yet. but he is spamming advanced luh. duh. wanted to take video but yongle's phone got not enough memory.

then reached home at like 5 plus. slept on the bus while standing.

then bathed. and like watched 椅天屠龙记 again. i watched the last few episodes. addicted man. i totally like alyssa chia mans. she is like damned cute. should go look at her in the show. OMG. watched specifically 36,37,39,40. skipped one. cos got alot of lame crap.

who got the entire series tell me. i go burn from you. pls. pls.

yup.

later gonna complete physics.

kkk.

bye bye

last sunday of 2008

2008-12-28T13:51:00.004+08:00

hi

today is the 28 december 2008. for those out there, today is the last sunday of the year of 2008. you noe. the last ever sunday of the year of 2008. i think i am gonna sit down to think of what on earth have i been doing for the whole of this year. and maybe set some new year resolutions.

oh yea. i have finished watching 倚天屠龙记. the ending was quite okay. the ending was best for all the parties. 张无忌 got to go with 赵敏. 周芷若 did become good again in the end. she became the 掌门人of 娥媚派 again after. 张无忌 relinquished his post as the 明教教主 as he wanted a simple life with 赵敏.

haiz. the ending was quite different from what i expected. but neh mind lar. just a story. watched until quite late yesterday. only 5am today. hahaz.

then i think i am gonna print the damned physics homework and try to finish. damned smart teacher. neh teach expect all of us to do and hand in. got brains. totally got brains. dunnoe she there for what one. dun teach. teacher dun teach then do what ?. answer questions arh? if she is there to answer my questions, i dun think i need that. she should be called an "answering machine" then. totally deviate the meaning of teacher.

don give notes for one year neh mind. now she must continue to be my teacher. why cant we change our physics teacher. i did not mention who. i dun want to get into the trouble with SOME people. later like the Internal security liddat then gg.

but who cares. i wont let that piece of crap ruin my last sunday of 2008.

havent bought my uniform. i gonna buy tommorow. when i go training.

yupps. hope it opens.

just to remind me how fast a year has past. this is the last freaking sunday of sec 3. but so what. next year is gonna be worst with all the more chim stuff and SOME crap "answering machines" i think i gonna get quite screwed next year. but just have to endure one more year. oops. no. less than that. only around 10 - 1.5 = 8.5 months cos we have a one month holiday and 2 one week holiday.

assuming that we have 4 weeks of school a month. then we will have 4 x 8.5 = 34 weeks.

next year for every week i will post around once. the heading will be the number of weeks.

hahaz. i try my best.

okay.

i shall start working on my physics. and i havent hand in chemistry yet.

bye bye.

2008-12-26T13:31:00.003+08:00

hi

today is like boxing day. i cant get enough of wishing people stuff. yesterday pm was merry christmas. then past midnight liaoz. then just delete the merry christmas. then i thought that it was boxing day. then can still wish you happy boxing day. okay.

boxing day is not for you box people. nor is it a day for you to play xbox. nor xbox360. it is a day for you to "unbox" your present. not to punch until it spoil. but to open. lol. i opened it at 12.30am today. i mean last night. yup.

i got a earpiece. those that go bsc would noe how earpiece addict i am. i sudden get into the craze of earpiece in beijing. i bought like 3 yea. lol. whole day visit 中关村 then go bargain with the shopkeeper. okay. so much about beijing. now for my present. it is a Nike Flight earphone.

here:

yup.
i noe it is nice. lol. shyh horng was like OMGWTF. oh yea. shyh horng almost got an iPhone from his uncle. but then shyh horng dun dare accept. LOL.ROFL. lolx lar shyh horng. shyh horng also want the earpiece he say veh cool and nice. hahahaz.

today woke up at 11.30 again. i waking up so late sia. then later school reopen then GG.

oh. yea. tmr going to gordon's house. dunnoe do what lehz. lolx. go there then noe lols.

yea.

i shall play wolfteam now.

shall try out my earpiece later.

bye bye